i didn't want it to come to this
i wish things were more simple
how did we end up here
i am so frustrated

new aim name:
foreveremtee

slit my wrists today to kill the pain of tomorrow
take the pills to numb the pain of today
may loneliness be my only comfort
and love my only shame
i should trust you, never
i will eat my heart to make myself empty
and murder the parts of me that are weak
destrustion is my only being
sit and watch as the red water flows away from me

tell me how i'm supposed to feel
teach me how i'm supposed to act
give me my lines
dress me up
set the stage
pull the strings and make me dance
i'll be your little doll
or your whore pushed against the wall
i can be the love you need
just tell me what you want me to be

*bang*

~no more candice~

wow today school was really dramatic ( Read more... )

i got some pictures developled of my dear noah lee. he looks very prettiful:)

i don't want to go to work!! i am too sleepy!!! watch me fall asleep when i am supposed to be taking calls....yikes

blargh

i am getting my car put in the shop tomorrow. i hope this time they can FINALLY fix it!!! that would be swell.

my mind has detached from my body. i am simply watching my life from a seperate entity.

i like pina coladas and getting caught in the rain.

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*cough* i am very unwell. i didn't go to school today. it is the first full day i have missed from beauty school. i wish i could talk to noah right now:( he went out to eat and to a movie. he said he wouldn't go if i wanted him to stay but alas, i did want him to go so he'd enjoy himself. but i also wanted to go WITH HIM. i hate being left. i want ( Read more... )