Internal Monologue
I really don't like how I end up back in this place whenever something serious is going on. *plops down onto a couch and slowly sinks in, letting his head fall to rest on the back of the couch. A hand comes up to rub at his head.*
I don't want time to think about this...
What am I doing, just sitting here when I need to be in Hueco Mundo...? I won't be able to get out of here for a while, but who knows what Aizen is doing right now. I want to, I need to, have to save Inoue. She never would have gotten into this without me. None of the others would have gotten into this if it weren't for me. Why am I so weak that I have to rely on others?
Rely on your friends. Your comrades. Tatsuki told me that and I want to, but I don't want to put them in danger, even though it's far too late for that. I can't fail. I have to win.
And Chad... I just felt Chad's reiatsu... disappear. We promised each other... We promised! But who the fuck am I kidding? I can barely take care of myself here, much less Nell or any of the others. We split up to cover more ground, but I can't help thinking that it was stupid. Stupid. I haven't gotten strong enough. I can only trust in everyone else's abilities, and the one person I never had to worry about before... the only one who I've always thought would be standing there... I just...
What the hell am I doing? Why can't I be stronger...?!
((Everything under the cut is all in Ichigo's head. The only outward signs of all of this is him brooding/emoing on a couch being all eerily quiet. You can ask him what's wrong, but there's no garuntee he'll give you a straight answer. In fact, odds are he'll brush it off and try to get over it if you show too much concern. If you persist, good luck with that.))
I don't want time to think about this...
What am I doing, just sitting here when I need to be in Hueco Mundo...? I won't be able to get out of here for a while, but who knows what Aizen is doing right now. I want to, I need to, have to save Inoue. She never would have gotten into this without me. None of the others would have gotten into this if it weren't for me. Why am I so weak that I have to rely on others?
Rely on your friends. Your comrades. Tatsuki told me that and I want to, but I don't want to put them in danger, even though it's far too late for that. I can't fail. I have to win.
And Chad... I just felt Chad's reiatsu... disappear. We promised each other... We promised! But who the fuck am I kidding? I can barely take care of myself here, much less Nell or any of the others. We split up to cover more ground, but I can't help thinking that it was stupid. Stupid. I haven't gotten strong enough. I can only trust in everyone else's abilities, and the one person I never had to worry about before... the only one who I've always thought would be standing there... I just...
What the hell am I doing? Why can't I be stronger...?!
((Everything under the cut is all in Ichigo's head. The only outward signs of all of this is him brooding/emoing on a couch being all eerily quiet. You can ask him what's wrong, but there's no garuntee he'll give you a straight answer. In fact, odds are he'll brush it off and try to get over it if you show too much concern. If you persist, good luck with that.))