Other Half [1/1]
Title: Other Half [1/1]
Author: FloweryMisha
Pairings: KiWoon
Warning: BoyxBoy love. Enough said.
Summary: Sometimes, flaw is what makes everything so perfect.
Author's Note: I know Kikwang's not that skinny and short...it's just for the sake of the story ;) unbeta-ed, and please, no translations allowed!
They say life always have choices.
But for Kikwang, he felt like he was always left with none.
He couldn’t choose to be born in a rich family. He couldn’t choose to have a sibling instead of being the only child. He couldn’t choose to have a thinner lips.
Everything about him was just horrible, and there was no other choice but to hate it.
Kikwang hated the fact that he’s short. He hated his short body because it made everyone to make fun of him. Kikwang already realized that he’s not gonna grow anymore in high school, no matter how hard he try, because it runs in the family. His father’s not that tall, and his mother’s too. His friends made fun of him, teasing him, mocking him, and even the girls didn’t even glance at him because they were all taller than him.
Not that Kikwang’s interested in girls, though, but he hated their gazes whenever they sneered at him.
Kikwang also hated the fact that he’s skinny. So he’s short, that’s already bad, and plus he’s skinny. It’s a nightmare. That only made him look even worse. He ate a lot, even Doojoon sometimes would cringe at his appetite, but he’d still be as thin as stick. So Kikwang started working out, he started heading to the gym several times a week. Even though it was tiring at first and his body was sore from all the practices, eventually he gotten used to it and voila, a very tiny form of muscles can be seen on both of his arms.
Doojoon once told him that it doesn’t matter, that it was okay to be short and skinny-so what? That’s what he is, and people should accept it, like it or not. Apparently it’s because of his boyfriend, Yoseob is also small and skinny too. But the difference was that Yoseob showed so much aegyo and everyone loved him-and he’s cute. Kikwang could never be cute. He just didn’t have the image that Yoseob had. It became a routine argument until Doojoon finally gave up, hands holding up in the air, saying whatever, Kikwang could do whatever he wanted to do.
Kikwang cried a lot. He cried because everytime he looked at himself in the mirror, his anger risen. Despite his bad physical appearance, his bad height, his small hands, his thick lips, and a lot of another his, he often felt not confident going out, and if he did, Kikwang usually would just drown himself in a big shirt-just to cover his small body. Kikwang would do anything so just his friends won’t make fun of him anymore. Sadly, even though he tried, they sometimes still did.
The only girl that wouldn’t make fun of him is Hyuna. She was Kikwang’s childhood friend and they grew up together. But even Hyuna grew a few inches taller since they last met and Kikwang’s eyes widened in horror. Oh no, even his best friend grew. Hyuna seemed aware at the fact because being his closest friend, she also realized that it was Kikwang’s biggest fear. She avoided wearing heels everytime she met him, but it didn’t change anything though. She was taller, and that’s a fact. Period.
Kikwang sometimes would just look at his friends with envious stare. Hyunseung was also skinny, but luckily he was tall. Junhyung was almost the same, but he was even taller than Hyunseung, his boyfriend. And he asked Yoseob one time that how come he could accept the fact (that him being short and all) while Kikwang’s not? Yoseob just smiled and tilted his head cutely before answering,
“Doojoon.”
He didn’t understand a bit what Yoseob meant, and it even saddened him more.
Eventually all his friends got a date. It’s not that Kikwang’s dying to have a relationship too, but if this kept on going, he’d end up single until he died because no one would love him because of his...bad...appearance.
Kikwang cried himself to sleep every night, thinking why he was born with such flaw.
***
One day, on a sunny day, where the clouds were covering the earth from the sun and the weather was really nice, a junior named Son Dongwoon confessed to him.
For the first time, Kikwang was faced with two choices: To accept, or to reject?
But fear overwhelmed Kikwang too soon before he even got to think.
Because Dongwoon was everything Kikwang ever wanted to be.
He was tall. Dongwoon had big eyes, big nose, thin lips, big hands, not so skinny body-he was quite muscular, the perfect size for his height. Kikwang was just staring blankly at the taller male and Dongwoon cleared his throat before asking him once again, if Kikwang would be his boyfriend.
To accept, or to reject?
The second option was chosen.
Kikwang burst out crying and ran away.
Dongwoon was confused, he thought he said something wrong, but nothing could possibly gone wrong-not even after he’s been practicing the sentence for a hundred time a day. So why, when he was finally able to say it, his object of affection ran away?
Kikwang was so ashamed of himself, he ended up absent for a whole week. His mother asked him what’s wrong, but he just shook it off, saying that he didn’t feel well. Kikwang also felt guilty for what he did to Dongwoon. It’s not that he didn’t know the male. He was one of the popular junior, and not forgetting to say that he was handsome. Gorgeous. Breathtaking. Amazing. Kikwang noticed the junior since the first time he saw Dongwoon, but he never dreamt of getting a love confession from the taller male.
In fact, Dongwoon was the reason why Kikwang tried to hard to change his appearance. He just...unconsciously thought of adjusting himself to Dongwoon. If Kikwang was taller, Dongwoon’s probably gonna notice him. If Kikwang’s physical appearance was cute like Yoseob, Dongwoon’s probably gonna like him. Now, suddenly Dongwoon confessed to him, and Kikwang felt unconfident.
He felt like...he’s not worth it, that he’s just gonna embarassed Dongwoon.
A week had passed by and his mother forcefully pulled Kikwang out of the bed, saying that he needed to face whatever it is that troubling him. Kikwang wailed, holding on to his bed so tight and his mother threatened him, that if he’s not smiling by the time he came home, then he shouldn’t go home and rent a room at the hotel. He sniffed and thought his mother can be so cruel sometimes.
After hiding and avoiding the class that Dongwoon was in-and pondering beneath the bushes-Kikwang decided to reject the younger male. His heart was screaming a big no, that he actually felt something for the junior, that he was dying to be Dongwoon’s boyfriend. Kikwang braved himself to call and meet Dongwoon at the rooftop, where no one would bother them. He was about to say sorry and no right away, but as Kikwang saw Dongwoon, his knees were weak and his heart was pounding like crazy. He almost couldn’t make it, Dongwoon’s eyes widened as he realized Kikwang looked like he was about to cry like last time-
-so he leaned forward and kiss Kikwang on the lips.
Kikwang gasped softly, tensed at the movement but Dongwoon didn’t let go, instead he quickly pulled the shorter male closer, one arm on Kikwang’s waist and another on his neck.
Does first kiss always taste this sweet?
Kikwang could feel his cheeks were warming and slowly closed his eyes. Dongwoon noticed that the male in his arms had gotten relaxed. If it was just lips meeting lips at the first time, Dongwoon was starting to give him real kisses. Kikwang shyly kissed back and after a moment that seemed like an hour-that Kikwang’s sure he’s not gonna forget-they broke apart, but stay near each other, Kikwang’s breath was on Dongwoon’s neck.
There were a lot of questions that Kikwang wanted to ask, like why did Dongwoon kiss him, or why did Dongwoon like him, but he stuttered and blushed like crazy, and managed to let out a stupid statement.
“I-I’m short...”
Great. He knows it already, Dorkwang.
Dongwoon blinked and Kikwang looked down, unsure of what to do. Kikwang was sure Dongwoon was going to laugh hard any minute, but nothing happened. They were still in an awkward silence. He then felt a hand caressing his hair and Kikwang slowly looked up again, only to find that Dongwoon was staring at him caringly.
“You’re beautiful.”
Kikwang’s eyes were teary. “N-no, I’m not. I’m short, I have such thick lips, I have such small hands, I-I-I’m too skinny-“
“And I love that everything about you.”
“You...”, Kikwang was speechless. “You are?”
Dongwoon poked Kikwang’s cheek with a thumb. “Yes.”
“B-but it’s my flaw...”
“If you think that’s what it is, then I love your flaw.”
Kikwang stared at him in disbelief, but letting himself be embraced by Dongwoon once again.
“You may be short, but that just makes it easier for me to hug you. You may have thick lips, but I find it incredibly sexy and...I know I just kissed it, but I can’t stop the feeling of wanting to press my lips on yours forever. You may have small hands, but they fit perfectly with my big ones, you’re not gonna feel cold because your hand would be wrapped perfectly by mine. You may be skinny...”
Dongwoon lifted Kikwang’s chin, staring deeply at the black orbs.
“...but it goes perfectly with my big body.”
The taller male smiled kindly.
“See? I’m your other half.”
This time, Kikwang couldn’t hold back the tears. He was sobbing into his hands, his feelings were mixed right now. For the first time, Kikwang felt grateful for his physical appearance. For what he is. For everything. He felt wonderful, he felt loved, he felt needed by Dongwoon. Kikwang almost hated the fact that he’s older yet he’s weaker, but then again...age doesn’t have anything to do with maturity, and shyly added, that he needed a person like Dongwoon.
Dongwoon enlaced their fingers and squeezed them softly, and Kikwang looked at them. He was right, their hands do looked perfect together...
Kikwang’s lips slowly curved into a smile.
My other half.
Dongwoon cleared his throat. “So... I’m gonna ask the question for the third time.”
Kikwang frowned and was about to reply what question when Dongwoon talked first.
“Would you be my boyfriend, Lee Kikwang?”
Suddenly, Kikwang remembered Yoseob’s answer to his question before. That he loved himself, that he felt good because of Doojoon.
And his reason?
Definitely gonna be Dongwoon.
...and that without him answering, we all know what his answer was gonna be.
End.
Author: FloweryMisha
Pairings: KiWoon
Warning: BoyxBoy love. Enough said.
Summary: Sometimes, flaw is what makes everything so perfect.
Author's Note: I know Kikwang's not that skinny and short...it's just for the sake of the story ;) unbeta-ed, and please, no translations allowed!
They say life always have choices.
But for Kikwang, he felt like he was always left with none.
He couldn’t choose to be born in a rich family. He couldn’t choose to have a sibling instead of being the only child. He couldn’t choose to have a thinner lips.
Everything about him was just horrible, and there was no other choice but to hate it.
Kikwang hated the fact that he’s short. He hated his short body because it made everyone to make fun of him. Kikwang already realized that he’s not gonna grow anymore in high school, no matter how hard he try, because it runs in the family. His father’s not that tall, and his mother’s too. His friends made fun of him, teasing him, mocking him, and even the girls didn’t even glance at him because they were all taller than him.
Not that Kikwang’s interested in girls, though, but he hated their gazes whenever they sneered at him.
Kikwang also hated the fact that he’s skinny. So he’s short, that’s already bad, and plus he’s skinny. It’s a nightmare. That only made him look even worse. He ate a lot, even Doojoon sometimes would cringe at his appetite, but he’d still be as thin as stick. So Kikwang started working out, he started heading to the gym several times a week. Even though it was tiring at first and his body was sore from all the practices, eventually he gotten used to it and voila, a very tiny form of muscles can be seen on both of his arms.
Doojoon once told him that it doesn’t matter, that it was okay to be short and skinny-so what? That’s what he is, and people should accept it, like it or not. Apparently it’s because of his boyfriend, Yoseob is also small and skinny too. But the difference was that Yoseob showed so much aegyo and everyone loved him-and he’s cute. Kikwang could never be cute. He just didn’t have the image that Yoseob had. It became a routine argument until Doojoon finally gave up, hands holding up in the air, saying whatever, Kikwang could do whatever he wanted to do.
Kikwang cried a lot. He cried because everytime he looked at himself in the mirror, his anger risen. Despite his bad physical appearance, his bad height, his small hands, his thick lips, and a lot of another his, he often felt not confident going out, and if he did, Kikwang usually would just drown himself in a big shirt-just to cover his small body. Kikwang would do anything so just his friends won’t make fun of him anymore. Sadly, even though he tried, they sometimes still did.
The only girl that wouldn’t make fun of him is Hyuna. She was Kikwang’s childhood friend and they grew up together. But even Hyuna grew a few inches taller since they last met and Kikwang’s eyes widened in horror. Oh no, even his best friend grew. Hyuna seemed aware at the fact because being his closest friend, she also realized that it was Kikwang’s biggest fear. She avoided wearing heels everytime she met him, but it didn’t change anything though. She was taller, and that’s a fact. Period.
Kikwang sometimes would just look at his friends with envious stare. Hyunseung was also skinny, but luckily he was tall. Junhyung was almost the same, but he was even taller than Hyunseung, his boyfriend. And he asked Yoseob one time that how come he could accept the fact (that him being short and all) while Kikwang’s not? Yoseob just smiled and tilted his head cutely before answering,
“Doojoon.”
He didn’t understand a bit what Yoseob meant, and it even saddened him more.
Eventually all his friends got a date. It’s not that Kikwang’s dying to have a relationship too, but if this kept on going, he’d end up single until he died because no one would love him because of his...bad...appearance.
Kikwang cried himself to sleep every night, thinking why he was born with such flaw.
***
One day, on a sunny day, where the clouds were covering the earth from the sun and the weather was really nice, a junior named Son Dongwoon confessed to him.
For the first time, Kikwang was faced with two choices: To accept, or to reject?
But fear overwhelmed Kikwang too soon before he even got to think.
Because Dongwoon was everything Kikwang ever wanted to be.
He was tall. Dongwoon had big eyes, big nose, thin lips, big hands, not so skinny body-he was quite muscular, the perfect size for his height. Kikwang was just staring blankly at the taller male and Dongwoon cleared his throat before asking him once again, if Kikwang would be his boyfriend.
To accept, or to reject?
The second option was chosen.
Kikwang burst out crying and ran away.
Dongwoon was confused, he thought he said something wrong, but nothing could possibly gone wrong-not even after he’s been practicing the sentence for a hundred time a day. So why, when he was finally able to say it, his object of affection ran away?
Kikwang was so ashamed of himself, he ended up absent for a whole week. His mother asked him what’s wrong, but he just shook it off, saying that he didn’t feel well. Kikwang also felt guilty for what he did to Dongwoon. It’s not that he didn’t know the male. He was one of the popular junior, and not forgetting to say that he was handsome. Gorgeous. Breathtaking. Amazing. Kikwang noticed the junior since the first time he saw Dongwoon, but he never dreamt of getting a love confession from the taller male.
In fact, Dongwoon was the reason why Kikwang tried to hard to change his appearance. He just...unconsciously thought of adjusting himself to Dongwoon. If Kikwang was taller, Dongwoon’s probably gonna notice him. If Kikwang’s physical appearance was cute like Yoseob, Dongwoon’s probably gonna like him. Now, suddenly Dongwoon confessed to him, and Kikwang felt unconfident.
He felt like...he’s not worth it, that he’s just gonna embarassed Dongwoon.
A week had passed by and his mother forcefully pulled Kikwang out of the bed, saying that he needed to face whatever it is that troubling him. Kikwang wailed, holding on to his bed so tight and his mother threatened him, that if he’s not smiling by the time he came home, then he shouldn’t go home and rent a room at the hotel. He sniffed and thought his mother can be so cruel sometimes.
After hiding and avoiding the class that Dongwoon was in-and pondering beneath the bushes-Kikwang decided to reject the younger male. His heart was screaming a big no, that he actually felt something for the junior, that he was dying to be Dongwoon’s boyfriend. Kikwang braved himself to call and meet Dongwoon at the rooftop, where no one would bother them. He was about to say sorry and no right away, but as Kikwang saw Dongwoon, his knees were weak and his heart was pounding like crazy. He almost couldn’t make it, Dongwoon’s eyes widened as he realized Kikwang looked like he was about to cry like last time-
-so he leaned forward and kiss Kikwang on the lips.
Kikwang gasped softly, tensed at the movement but Dongwoon didn’t let go, instead he quickly pulled the shorter male closer, one arm on Kikwang’s waist and another on his neck.
Does first kiss always taste this sweet?
Kikwang could feel his cheeks were warming and slowly closed his eyes. Dongwoon noticed that the male in his arms had gotten relaxed. If it was just lips meeting lips at the first time, Dongwoon was starting to give him real kisses. Kikwang shyly kissed back and after a moment that seemed like an hour-that Kikwang’s sure he’s not gonna forget-they broke apart, but stay near each other, Kikwang’s breath was on Dongwoon’s neck.
There were a lot of questions that Kikwang wanted to ask, like why did Dongwoon kiss him, or why did Dongwoon like him, but he stuttered and blushed like crazy, and managed to let out a stupid statement.
“I-I’m short...”
Great. He knows it already, Dorkwang.
Dongwoon blinked and Kikwang looked down, unsure of what to do. Kikwang was sure Dongwoon was going to laugh hard any minute, but nothing happened. They were still in an awkward silence. He then felt a hand caressing his hair and Kikwang slowly looked up again, only to find that Dongwoon was staring at him caringly.
“You’re beautiful.”
Kikwang’s eyes were teary. “N-no, I’m not. I’m short, I have such thick lips, I have such small hands, I-I-I’m too skinny-“
“And I love that everything about you.”
“You...”, Kikwang was speechless. “You are?”
Dongwoon poked Kikwang’s cheek with a thumb. “Yes.”
“B-but it’s my flaw...”
“If you think that’s what it is, then I love your flaw.”
Kikwang stared at him in disbelief, but letting himself be embraced by Dongwoon once again.
“You may be short, but that just makes it easier for me to hug you. You may have thick lips, but I find it incredibly sexy and...I know I just kissed it, but I can’t stop the feeling of wanting to press my lips on yours forever. You may have small hands, but they fit perfectly with my big ones, you’re not gonna feel cold because your hand would be wrapped perfectly by mine. You may be skinny...”
Dongwoon lifted Kikwang’s chin, staring deeply at the black orbs.
“...but it goes perfectly with my big body.”
The taller male smiled kindly.
“See? I’m your other half.”
This time, Kikwang couldn’t hold back the tears. He was sobbing into his hands, his feelings were mixed right now. For the first time, Kikwang felt grateful for his physical appearance. For what he is. For everything. He felt wonderful, he felt loved, he felt needed by Dongwoon. Kikwang almost hated the fact that he’s older yet he’s weaker, but then again...age doesn’t have anything to do with maturity, and shyly added, that he needed a person like Dongwoon.
Dongwoon enlaced their fingers and squeezed them softly, and Kikwang looked at them. He was right, their hands do looked perfect together...
Kikwang’s lips slowly curved into a smile.
My other half.
Dongwoon cleared his throat. “So... I’m gonna ask the question for the third time.”
Kikwang frowned and was about to reply what question when Dongwoon talked first.
“Would you be my boyfriend, Lee Kikwang?”
Suddenly, Kikwang remembered Yoseob’s answer to his question before. That he loved himself, that he felt good because of Doojoon.
And his reason?
Definitely gonna be Dongwoon.
...and that without him answering, we all know what his answer was gonna be.
End.