Suicide -- Trying To Understand

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One of my LJ friends killed themselves.

I read about it this morning on my friend's page, and then I reread it. Then, I read it again. Then, I rubbed my eyes and read it again. Belief was a problem. I ran over to bienvenida and alabina's journals leaving comments hoping that it was someone's idea of a joke or honest mistake, and travelingzinda, or Tom, would make a post

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[big_trouble]

powerful post. i have a lot of really bad stuff going on right now in my life and things like this have a way of putting things in perspective. thanks for posting your thoughts and i'm sorry for your friend and his family.

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I'm very glad it helped.

It helped to type it all out for me. :)

[pggmilltn]

Is there any way you and I may get in touch?

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You can email me anytime Paul. I'm usually on ICQ during the weekday from noon to about 7:30 EST if you want something a little more interactive. Both of those addresses are on my info page.

Please feel free. :)

[pres589]

Something that doesn't help is that I believe there are a lot of people out there that don't really understand suicide, can't quite make the connection between the motivations and how they can come about. A girl who was once a friend of mine said a couple times that people who consider suicide as an option to their problems in any way at all are obviously insane. Certified nuts. I tried to explain that sometimes, when everything seems down and you don't see a way through to a better life, then suicide starts to look like a viable option. Because eventually you don't want to be down anymore, just out and have it done with

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It is a difficult point to try to get across. It's kind of funny because you kind of don't want to argue for it too well. It may just be a good thing they think suicide is stupid. You definitely don't want them thinking it a good thing. ;)

Some people can just view the same exact things, and it can mean a truckload of suffering while others, it just rolls of their back.

[mmme]

It all feels like a joke :/

I did consider suicide, but I decided it would be unfair to myself, because each and every day you learn something new and you shouldn't let this opportunity pass up.

I'm still terrified though.

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Purpose is a good sucide fighter.

If it's a joke, it's a pretty elaborate one.

[sandstar]

I'm sorry about your friend...

I've been in such a dark place several times in my life, when all I could think of was how much trouble and heartache I was causing my family - and that maybe if I was gone - forever - that everything would be O.K. for them.

I've come to realize that I have to wait until the light comes back. It always does. Maybe not as fast as I've wanted it to, but to think - if I'd not waited...

{{{{Hugs}}}}

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It's not a fun place to be, but that's a good way to get through it -- knowing that it'll pass. :)