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I will always be second best.
This realization is tearing me apart.

My life has become so dull it's almost unbearable. I was looking forward to school ending so desperately and now all I want is to go back. At least it gave me something to wake up for. Why is it, at a time like this, that everything must be turned upside down? Right now I should be rejoicing my completion of school, not longing for more. I should ( Read more... )

Everything always changes.
Everything.
Everyone.
Always.

Why do I always do this? Why? Why can't I figure out the reasons behind the things I do? I'm aware, but I can't (won't?) stop. Push. Push. Push. This is the most aggravated I've felt all year. Mixed emotions are noooooo goooooood. I really need a release.

This is really happening.
This is really happening.
This is really happening.

Today, I registered for my summer class (four hours of math, two nights a week. boooooooo), applied for bright futures and bought stuff for my future kitchen. I love housewares, it's probably an acute addiction. All in all, quite the productive Friday.

I was so sure I had straight A's this semester and outtaaaa nowhere I get a 'C' in Intro to Lit. Thank you Dr. Nicklaus for crushin' my dream. I understand you earn your grades, but I thought I did pretty well in that class. Whatever. skldjfhasdfertsedfffrsadfgfhfghsldkfj FUCK. There, it's out of my system at least. Two math classes and a science ( Read more... )

I hope I meet people in St. Petersburg. I need a larger friends group. I think, I just have a strong aversion to being alone. I used to be the biggest recluse on the block, and would really prefer not to regress to that ( Read more... )

Spring cleaning is a good feeling, but my back is killin' me