A few thoughts about loss, Klaine, and writing.

[flaming_muse]

You know, no matter my mood, I find there's nothing like driving around on a sunny (if cold, brr!) day with the sun roof open and singing along with "Don't Rain on my Parade" at top volume to lift my spirits. :)

Comments

[idoltina]

This is wonderfully articulated, and I know you're not alone in this. I feel some of that, the wanting not to write them as they are because it aches so much, but that's never usually made me gun-shy from writing before. I think one of the most difficult things, for me personally, has been that while they both are growing and changing, they are still, at their core, the same people, and so much of what we've been given in canon simply reinforces what we've either already been told or already derived about their characters, individually or together. And that's... frustrating, because while I like familiar and I can certainly work with it, part of what keeps me writing is something new and interesting enough to explore and blend with the rest of it. And I sort of feel like I've exhausted most of my options at this point, because canon isn't giving me new ones (says the girl who writes a million and one alternate universes, but shhh, that is not the point

[flaming_muse]

You are absolutely right on both points. I was thinking today how little we are actually in their hearts this year - even around the break up, where we didn't see much from Kurt about it beyond him being generically unhappy for quite a while - that we're not getting storylines that are showing much of them. Even Kurt at Vogue and NYADA, both of which ought to have been huge growing moments for this Lima boy, are more "what he does during the day" than "places where he's learning about himself and others." Kurt's always had his eye on some prize or another, it's one of the reasons he's so compelling to watch fail and succeed, and I feel like we aren't getting much of that from him. I mean, obviously here and there, but it's not the same. And Blaine... I know we're getting non-Kurt stories for him (running for student government, the Warblers, Sam), but I also feel like we're not seeing into what he wants besides wanting Kurt, and since he isn't getting Kurt, mostly isn't even able to try, and that doesn't tell us much. So you're

[blue_peridot]

I just had a loss myself; the loss of my first real relationship. I say "just"; it'll be a month on April 4th. Often feels like "just", though. It's interesting to hear you talk about how having a partner makes life in general just better, abut growing and growing up and learning yourself, about how sex changes a relationship and you as a person, how it is to learn what it is to love and be cared for in return. And then to not have that anymore. Because I'm experiencing this myself, it's odd to have what I'm feeling articulated in connection to this... Though it all is the painful process of growing up, and stories are meant to be relatable, right?

This comment didn't really have a point to it. It was just interesting to see what I feel. And I, too, preferred them together.

[flaming_muse]

*hugs you*

Thank you for commenting and for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I think that a lot of what the Klaine arc this season brings up are important and real issues - as you're experiencing - but it's sad that they are, both for the boys and for us as viewers having to connect with them.

I'm sorry about your break-up. I hope your next relationship is even better. *hugs*

[blue_peridot]

I actually haven't watched anything since The Break-Up, because I have to watch online to avoid gay censorship so watching can be a hassle. But this makes me kinda want to catch up. See how I relate to it. For that same reason it also makes me sorta not want to catch up.

Thank you, dear. *hugs back* I hope so too. I think it will be.

[flaming_muse]

(Replying late, so sorry.)

At this point in the season, I'm feeling like it's been rough but deservedly so. I've no idea when/if it'll be sorted out, but it's actually been a slow-moving arc for a reason. So it might be good or bad for you in that regard. <3

[out_there]

I like the story about being yourself and being loved for it better. :) It was ultimately optimistic in a way that this more real storyline of putting aside childish dreams is not.

I really agree with you on this. To the extent that aside from your excellent stories, I find I'm gravitating towards stories set earlier in canon or complete AUs, ones that still have those themes of self-discovery, support and communication. On the one hand, it is a realistic storyline and an interesting one to see play out on mainstream tv about a queer couple. On the other, as a fannish type creature, it really doesn't appeal to my imagination. I support it in theory but I just wish it wasn't happening to my otp.

[flaming_muse]

I support it in theory but I just wish it wasn't happening to my otp.

Yeeeeees. <3