[multi chapter fic] Crazy Love Chapter 1
Title: Crazy Love
Author: fireside_story
Chapter: 1/?
Rating: NC-17 (for later chapters)
Word Count: 953
Genre: Angst-ish
Disclaimer: I do not have any connections to KAT-TUN or any of the members past or present. I write this story for my own pleasure and make no profit from it.
Pairings: KameDa, KoKame, JunDa, Jinda (-ish), DenDen, mentions of past Akame. Basically it's a giant KAT-TUN orgy!! Well not quite.......
Summary: Ueda has been secretly in love with Kame for years but has been sleeping with Junno to try and forget about the younger man. Kame is still trying to mend his broken heart from when Jin left and is content with his relationship with Koki, that is until he starts working on a song with a certain piano man. As their relationship blossoms will Koki and Junno graciously step aside? And how will their new love handle the return of Jin into their lives.
Beta'd by: drowlingkurai
Chapter 1
Ueda rolled over and climbed out of bed, careful not to wake the sleeping man beside him. He sat on the side of the bed waiting for his eyes to adjust to the darkness before going around the room in search of his scattered clothing. Walking into the bathroom Ueda shut the door before he turned on the light. Blaring light filled the small room, Ueda squinted as he waited for his eyes to adjust to the light yet again. Looking into the mirror he couldn't help but notice the little red marks all over his chest and stomach. Junno called them his little love bites, Ueda called them his reminders. Reminders that he was settling for the man he could have instead of the man that he wanted. Reminders that he could never truly let himself go for fear of muttering the wrong name. The name that he screamed alone in his dark apartment while taking pleasure into his own hands.
Kazuya
Even just thinking of that name was enough to send a shiver of pleasure down Ueda's spine, followed by the feeling of guilt burning into his gut. He shouldn't be thinking of another man after having just left Junno's bed. Ueda dressed hurriedly, uttering a quiet curse when he noticed the finger shaped bruises forming on his upper thighs. Junno had been uncharacteristically rough with him that night, which he had loved at the time. After, as usual, he had been filled with the huge sense of emptiness, which led him to wait until Junno was asleep before sneaking out of his bed. Ueda never spent the night, even if he promised he would. It was too hard to lie next to Junno while replaying the events of the night, only this time with Kame being the one with him.
Taking a chance Ueda turned the tap on to a slow trickle, hoping the sound of the running water didn't carry into the bedroom. He splashed cold water on his face and neck, allowing the water to trail down his back as he scolded himself. He really had to stop thinking about Kame. Mainly since he knew that he had no chance in hell with the younger man. Ueda had learned that the hard way after they had debuted. Ueda had wondered what had made Kame's hands no longer 'lonely' enough for Kame to stop grabbing Ueda's ass any chance he could. Ueda had found out by accident one day when he had shown up early for rehearsal. He had walked into the change room just in time to see Jin hoist Kame up against the wall while Kame wrapped his legs around Jin's waist. The look on Kame's face, not to mention the rhythm of Jin's hips had made it very obvious just what they were doing.
That had been the day Ueda had figured out just how deep his feeling for the youngest member went. He had started sleeping with Junno about a month later in hopes of getting over Kame. Ueda was starting to give up hope because he had been sleeping with Junno for seven years now, and it was still Kame's touch that his skin yearned for every night.
Then there had been the whole Jin leaving fiasco. Ueda still, to this day, didn't know if Jin left the group because he and Kame broke up or if they broke up because Jin decided to leave the group. He was also not about to ask since neither Kame nor Jin had ever mentioned anything about them being more then just friends. Ueda figured if they wanted the rest of the group to know then they would've told them. All he knew about the whole mess was that it had been just that - a total mess. One that had affected Kame worse then the rest of the group, and that was without the reporters hounding him for information constantly. He was also pretty sure this was what had driven Kame into the arms of Koki, since he was almost positive those two were now sleeping together. All this speculation was what had led Ueda to the conclusion that Kame liked his men more on the manly side, probably to balance the fact that he was so God damned beautiful himself. It was one of the reasons Ueda had stopped with the facial stickers and had taken the first excuse to cut off all of his hair. He had told himself that he had wanted a change or that he was only doing it for a role, but the truth had always been he had been hoping Kame would notice him more with these changes. Now as he looked into the mirror part of him wished he hadn't done any of it since he was still stuck in the same situation.
Turing off the bathroom light Ueda opened the door and peered at the man still sleeping. That same part of him wished he felt enough for that man to crawl back under the covers and be happy with what he had. He knew that Junno loved him but even after seven years their relationship was still only what it had ever been to Ueda, it was still just sex. It was the one way for him to forget about the one person he wanted more then anything but could never have. With a sigh filled with sadness and defeat Ueda did something he had done thousands of times over the last seven years, he crossed the room to the door leading into the hallway and left as Junno's hand reached across the bed for the warm body that was no longer beside him.
Author: fireside_story
Chapter: 1/?
Rating: NC-17 (for later chapters)
Word Count: 953
Genre: Angst-ish
Disclaimer: I do not have any connections to KAT-TUN or any of the members past or present. I write this story for my own pleasure and make no profit from it.
Pairings: KameDa, KoKame, JunDa, Jinda (-ish), DenDen, mentions of past Akame. Basically it's a giant KAT-TUN orgy!! Well not quite.......
Summary: Ueda has been secretly in love with Kame for years but has been sleeping with Junno to try and forget about the younger man. Kame is still trying to mend his broken heart from when Jin left and is content with his relationship with Koki, that is until he starts working on a song with a certain piano man. As their relationship blossoms will Koki and Junno graciously step aside? And how will their new love handle the return of Jin into their lives.
Beta'd by: drowlingkurai
Chapter 1
Ueda rolled over and climbed out of bed, careful not to wake the sleeping man beside him. He sat on the side of the bed waiting for his eyes to adjust to the darkness before going around the room in search of his scattered clothing. Walking into the bathroom Ueda shut the door before he turned on the light. Blaring light filled the small room, Ueda squinted as he waited for his eyes to adjust to the light yet again. Looking into the mirror he couldn't help but notice the little red marks all over his chest and stomach. Junno called them his little love bites, Ueda called them his reminders. Reminders that he was settling for the man he could have instead of the man that he wanted. Reminders that he could never truly let himself go for fear of muttering the wrong name. The name that he screamed alone in his dark apartment while taking pleasure into his own hands.
Kazuya
Even just thinking of that name was enough to send a shiver of pleasure down Ueda's spine, followed by the feeling of guilt burning into his gut. He shouldn't be thinking of another man after having just left Junno's bed. Ueda dressed hurriedly, uttering a quiet curse when he noticed the finger shaped bruises forming on his upper thighs. Junno had been uncharacteristically rough with him that night, which he had loved at the time. After, as usual, he had been filled with the huge sense of emptiness, which led him to wait until Junno was asleep before sneaking out of his bed. Ueda never spent the night, even if he promised he would. It was too hard to lie next to Junno while replaying the events of the night, only this time with Kame being the one with him.
Taking a chance Ueda turned the tap on to a slow trickle, hoping the sound of the running water didn't carry into the bedroom. He splashed cold water on his face and neck, allowing the water to trail down his back as he scolded himself. He really had to stop thinking about Kame. Mainly since he knew that he had no chance in hell with the younger man. Ueda had learned that the hard way after they had debuted. Ueda had wondered what had made Kame's hands no longer 'lonely' enough for Kame to stop grabbing Ueda's ass any chance he could. Ueda had found out by accident one day when he had shown up early for rehearsal. He had walked into the change room just in time to see Jin hoist Kame up against the wall while Kame wrapped his legs around Jin's waist. The look on Kame's face, not to mention the rhythm of Jin's hips had made it very obvious just what they were doing.
That had been the day Ueda had figured out just how deep his feeling for the youngest member went. He had started sleeping with Junno about a month later in hopes of getting over Kame. Ueda was starting to give up hope because he had been sleeping with Junno for seven years now, and it was still Kame's touch that his skin yearned for every night.
Then there had been the whole Jin leaving fiasco. Ueda still, to this day, didn't know if Jin left the group because he and Kame broke up or if they broke up because Jin decided to leave the group. He was also not about to ask since neither Kame nor Jin had ever mentioned anything about them being more then just friends. Ueda figured if they wanted the rest of the group to know then they would've told them. All he knew about the whole mess was that it had been just that - a total mess. One that had affected Kame worse then the rest of the group, and that was without the reporters hounding him for information constantly. He was also pretty sure this was what had driven Kame into the arms of Koki, since he was almost positive those two were now sleeping together. All this speculation was what had led Ueda to the conclusion that Kame liked his men more on the manly side, probably to balance the fact that he was so God damned beautiful himself. It was one of the reasons Ueda had stopped with the facial stickers and had taken the first excuse to cut off all of his hair. He had told himself that he had wanted a change or that he was only doing it for a role, but the truth had always been he had been hoping Kame would notice him more with these changes. Now as he looked into the mirror part of him wished he hadn't done any of it since he was still stuck in the same situation.
Turing off the bathroom light Ueda opened the door and peered at the man still sleeping. That same part of him wished he felt enough for that man to crawl back under the covers and be happy with what he had. He knew that Junno loved him but even after seven years their relationship was still only what it had ever been to Ueda, it was still just sex. It was the one way for him to forget about the one person he wanted more then anything but could never have. With a sigh filled with sadness and defeat Ueda did something he had done thousands of times over the last seven years, he crossed the room to the door leading into the hallway and left as Junno's hand reached across the bed for the warm body that was no longer beside him.