nightmares can break your heart just as easy.

i've been torn from two pages and one reads loud, vibrant words of distinct logic. the other is an empty page otherwise with circles surrounding the perimeter, shiny and new, never used. where are the feelings coming from and what do they mean anyway? i don't want to have to remind myself daily what my virtues are, they should just be. and if i ( Read more... )

you grow up in the smoke of a bright fire and your vision is impaired ( Read more... )

The night we met ( Read more... )

when the little things fall apart the bigger picture is given more meaning. everything is little when the picture is so big. out of bread, no more girlfriend. all the same. heavy hearts always have a home in the ground. but less and less death and more and more fear you know in life, it's always growing older. i looked at my hands and saw the veins ( Read more... )

phil spector designed my heart. he let me do with it what i wanted, and i never changed it myself. other people changed it. right now it's got asobi seksu on repeat and i can feel all my organs melting beneath the glorious sound. "all you do is remind me...all you do is remind me...all you do is remind me...all you do is remind me..." oh how i ( Read more... )

it hurts to watch yourself waiting and watch yourself feeling and watch yourself fall apart, to wait in front of the computer for a response. everybody is gambling in this house. it's not a good feeling when your father tells you earlier in life that gambling is for idiots and then he himself starts gambling. i don't understand.

an odd maple syrup - like smell has filled my house and it is soothing. my hands feel cold and my skin feels cold and tender. bed is where i want to be. then tomorrow maybe we'll dress up like glamorous movie stars.

i want pizza. brother's pizza, pizza hut pizza, i want pizza. i wish i had a slice of pizza right now. i would eat it. i want there to be an accessible pizza, the kind i want. there will always be pizza in life, and there will always be pizza in the afterlife. pizza will soothe your throat with grease. pizza will numb your mind with cheese. pizza ( Read more... )

it's only been 3 days since she left but it hurts worse each day. my insides feel heavy when something reminds me of her. everything reminds me of her.