There and Back Again

[fireflylive]

Twenty years ago I was just about to enter a dark period of my life.  A time riddled with depression, low self-esteem and an eating disorder.  It's taken me a clear twenty years to work through my difficulties, and although I'm not quite done yet - there's some fine tuning to do - I have, for the most part, addressed all things that were having a

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[miss_next]

What a great post! I'm just sorry you had to go through so much aaargh to get to it.

[fireflylive]

Thank you. I am very grateful for a lot less aarrgghh these days

[ayoub]

:D

Yes... You're awesome.

*love and hugs*

[fireflylive]

Thank you!

Why does your little blue bod have a halo?

[ayoub]

Because I'm trying to portray the illusion of innocence ;)

[astein142]

As I've told you before: You inspire me.

[fireflylive]

Oh my goodness. I inspire you? *speechless*
Thank you. I don't quite know what to say

[veronica_milvus]

How interesting that what you thought was indifference from Simon's family turned out to be a lack of communication - so often a failure to communicate is at the root of most of our "differences" with people.

I'm glad you are doing so well - and about that chicken korma - the diet class I have been doing told me that one of the biggest saboteurs to a diet is the "all or nothing" view - you know, I've "broken" my diet and might as well give up *beat self up* mentality. You have been a lot stronger than I have on this diet, getting through so many weeks without cheating. I've lost 4 stone and am now having a "rest" while I have and get over this operation. Really, with my life on such an uneven keel at the moment, I am not in the right place to carry on with it.

But if you can get there, perhaps I will, eventually.

[fireflylive]

Yes, communication breakdown, so often the way.

I hope the surgery goes well and I'm sure all the post surgery physio-terrorism will result in lots of pounds coming off!

[anonymous]

Rachel you really are an inspiration. So many of the feelings you have revealed here echo some of my own about myself...inside every big girl may be a thin girl trying to get out, but you can bet your bottom dollar she's carrying a heavy load of baggage making it an uphill task xx

[thrulookinglass]

I've done it again ,posted without logging in! The above comment was mine xx

[fireflylive]

Thanks Sarah. Yes, there's a lot of baggage that is not easy to jettison.