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22 [audio] .....in the future where will I be?

Feb 06, 2009 07:21

What the-----!?!?!

Aw man.

This again. Figures.

Uhhhh...hello City?

Geez how long has it been this time?

Uh......damn. Not the best timing...[sigh]

[cough/clearing of throat] Let's see how did it go...oh yeah...this is Commander Noble. Is there a Captain Sea Cow in this place? Come in, Captain Sea Cow.

...if you're there...please...come in.

( ooc )

to reach you, claire is my sam, i've been trying hard

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floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 20:26:14 UTC

At some time in the day, after someone's breakfast (which he didn't eat) and before a picnic (which he will attend with effort), there are not one, not two, not three, but several knocks at Zachary Smith's door. Have another two for good measure.

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 21:42:43 UTC

Caspian closes his eyes, looking guilty but no better for it after hearing Zach's remark. Of course that's true, and he knows it. But it's very difficult for him to accept. Rather, it's difficult for him to accept that it would be nice of one Telmarine to join them in their Golden Age. He says none of this to the geek of course.

"I am sure it is, and they will enjoy their time together."

floating points in time misconstrued filmzbyzach February 6 2009, 22:00:16 UTC

For a while, Zach says nothing, leaning back himself now, arms resting on the back of the couch, and he looks away, just thinking things to himself. From what he knows of Caspian and what he remembers--these two not being the same, necessarily at all--he deduces something of what Caspian will not say to him before turning back to glance in his direction.

"You should be with them." Because you can be.

It's a simple statement, but it ought to mean the world to someone. Someones.

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 22:07:52 UTC

He can feel when Zach turns to look at him again. How simple things really ought to be, but they aren't, and one can say it's because he won't let them be simple.

"I can't, it's... it feels different. I don't want to seem like a child."

How ironic he should say this, the man who took off after breakfast because clearly that was the grown up thing to do.

floating points in time misconstrued filmzbyzach February 6 2009, 22:15:09 UTC

Biting his lower lip as he considers his words, Zach isn't that much different than how Caspian already knows him and it's very much a separate situation with the Kings and Queens of Old. How odd to be faced with what is there every day, just below the surface? How much more striking. Zach doesn't blame Caspian for running, and he doesn't think less of him or smaller of him. He figures the Telmarine can make up for it by actually going back.

"Do they treat you like a child usually?"

In truth, he knows the answer to this already, but it's a point to be made, and so, he's making it.

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 22:20:48 UTC

"No," he answers honestly. For all the sandbox and shenanigans, they really really don't.

When this day is over, Caspian won't have to remember this adult face is what lies beneath Zach's regular one. This is what Zach might grow up to be, one day. But the Pevensies... it is who they are, who they once were physically before a stag led to its erasure. Since day one, he has considered them his friends, his peers. Now, they feel much bigger than that, especially one High King in particular.

floating points in time misconstrued filmzbyzach February 6 2009, 22:31:34 UTC

"You're going to have to say a little more than that," he admits at last. Even geek intuition won't get Zach everywhere and he's not cocky enough to assume that he knows what's going on inside Caspian's brain or heart or whatever, much less put it all into words without a little more elaboration.

"I think it's normal for you to feel this way," he adds. "...I just don't think you need to feel this way. The way you talk about them usually, I didn't think it'd be as much of an issue."

A pause.

"You're friends."

Not history and future, well, yes, but, no. That's not what's important this time.

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 22:38:50 UTC

"I know we're friends, good friends," he says quietly, family even... "I feel small about it," admits the Telmarine, looking guilty and cowed and all these other things Zach isn't even doing to him. "I think of Cair Paravel and all of them sitting under the glass ceiling, truly defining a Golden Age," he adds in a tone that knows it's being silly but can't help being so. The books and the drawings in Aslan's How do not do them justice.

floating points in time misconstrued filmzbyzach February 6 2009, 22:47:43 UTC

It's the inside of his cheek that he bites this time, thinking. Pondering. Whatever. The way Caspian sits in his presence makes Zach want to look around because surely the Pevensies must actually be in sight for the Telmarine to manage such a downcast bearing. It isn't like the Caspian he knows and yet it is exactly like him because unlike those of the Golden Age, much like Zach, Caspian is every year that he resembles, no more and no less. There are actions, battles, a mantle and a crown that may argue in favor of him being beyond said years, but Zach has never liked doing that, not that much. He thinks it makes people forget the real age, forget how much room should be allotted for misgivings and mistakes, or amazing things, brilliant things. Give or take, he would rather see someone for exactly what they are and nothing else. Clearer waters ( ... )

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 23:00:58 UTC

"You really ought to see them," Caspian counters, more or less trying to say you would think twice about such ease if you've seen them without actually saying it.

Truer friends, yes. Closer family, even truer.

"Do you think they're unhappy otherwise," he asks of Zach, not thinking aloud or asking rhetorical questions, because he knows this friend has knowledge about them he'll never ever tell them. Frankly, Caspian prefers not to hear it anyway, but he values the geek's insight, however much of it he'll share. He huffs a soft sigh.

I don't want to be a part of nostalgia.

floating points in time misconstrued filmzbyzach February 6 2009, 23:16:41 UTC

"It's not my place," he assures the other man before following it up with, "And it is yours." Sort of his complete point, there in a basket. Sighing, he pulls a face at Caspian, somewhere between a pout and a frown and...something. He's not sure what he's trying to say entirely as far as words go but he knows what he thinks of the whole thing, how he feels. Zach is highly of the mind that good people deserve good things and if such people have difficult times ahead, like Claire does, like Caspian does, he sees no right in depriving them of what good they can have. It's harder to argue with when the person himself or herself is the one depriving, but still doable. He will argue it until he's blue in the face if he has to, and then some. Don't be an idiot, he's also thinking, but knows that won't help either ( ... )

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 23:33:35 UTC

My place, his expression asks ( ... )

floating points in time misconstrued filmzbyzach February 6 2009, 23:38:08 UTC

His hands fall from those shoulders as easily as they found them and he smiles briefly at the Telmarine.

"They're really something though," he states more than asks, but the way he tilts his head when he says as much does the questioning for him. "I hate missed opportunities," he adds, also pointedly as the other thing and levels a half knowing stare at the king he will never think himself to have bested, but a friend who he hopes he helps from time to time.

A friend who helped him when he felt alone in his own space.

He hasn't forgotten that and he never will.

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 6 2009, 23:52:22 UTC

Of course you would hate missed opportunities, who wouldn't? His mouth pulls to one side in thought. Yes, he really should go back, and already Caspian can see the kind of face Peter will give him for deserting the family the way he did.

"I cannot go back so soon, I just got here," Caspian says, and maybe it's a joke, but he doesn't wish to abandon his friend, his very helpful friend, that quickly.

floating points in time misconstrued filmzbyzach February 6 2009, 23:59:08 UTC

He can't help it. Zach laughs. Then he stands up, pulling Caspian shamelessly by the arm toward the door.

"Yes, you can, I'll even walk part of the way with you," he jokes. As far as that lawn. He remembers that too. Out the door they go and he's shaking his head but smiling too. "What was your first thought when you saw them?" he asks, because he's really curious. It's not meant to be mean or pointing out more insecurities, not meant to be anything really. He's just asking questions now because he gets the feeling he's allowed to.

floating points in time misconstrued treadingdawn February 7 2009, 00:10:20 UTC

Wait what?

He stares at Zach for having been pulled off his royal rear to stand and get tugged out the door without ceremony. This is how true friends behave, isn't it? Caspian doesn't pull his arm away even when they're in the hall. His question is far too difficult for him to concentrate on something like maintaining physical distance. The Telmarine's brow furrows, mouth curving in something like a frown but isn't, more sheepish than anything.

"I don't know it was like... a mix of things really. Susan and Lucy are very beautiful, I didn't expect otherwise. Edmund is taller and has less freckles, he carries himself very solidly not that this is any different from before," he shakes his head.

Why yes, he is excluding commentary about the last Pevensie.

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