I was sitting up the other night reading (yes, reading...A BOOK) when I started to think about the vastness of the universe and the existense of god. And the fact that space, space itself extense ifinitely outward, and infinitely inward. And time extense infinitly in both derection. And these two things have always been there. So the idea of from ( Read more... )

Friday night Chris told me that he might be able to get me a job working with his father in DC as a party chef. Which I would'nt wanna do because I would have to leave Hawthornes, and its in DC. But then he told me I would be making TWENTYTWO FIFTY AN HOUR! I would be an idiot not to take that job. Its gotta be too good to be true, but I have to ( Read more... )

Yes, thats right. In one week the great, the powerful, the ultra ultra nerdy Tommy Durbin will be coming to the one and only Hawthorne Fine Breakfast Pastry! I took him to buy his uniforms in Baltimore today. We hung out for about 2 hours afterwords and played Smash Bros. He has not changed at all. He is still the same person you find loud and ( Read more... )

I saw this chick I met on alt last night. I was sitting home watching TV at 2AM when she called and asked me if I felt like gettin a cup of coffee. I had'nt seen her in about 2 months so I figured she just thought of me as a hit n' run asshole. We were hangin out for about 15 minutes before she brought up the topic that makes it hard to imagine a ( Read more... )

We finished work at 11PM today, but I cant leave untill 12AM because I have to wait for the driver ( Read more... )

Aint nothin goin on here. I badly wanna post cause I got the ability, but I got no new info. Life is still pretty sucky. (outside of work) My social life is a little boring at the moment. I had a thing with this internet chick a while back, but I decided not to conitue that. She was nice but she was just a little bit out of my wieght range. And ( Read more... )

I stoped going from extreme high to extreme low. My lows are now a mild "Damn this sux. O well fuckit I'll go watch TV and smoke." to a high of "SWEET". I stoped having as crazy a dream as I used to. And I dont even obses over Trish anymore. Well except for that one time ( Read more... )

Things for about six months have been shitty. After losing hope of ever finding sombody to love, I just losered up. I didnt do anything about it. I didnt know what to do but wine bitch and mone. I'm not one to usually wine bitch and mone but in this case its all that I seemingly could do ( Read more... )

"Its a great thing to know you still have the ability to surprise yourself."

Some random chick sent me a message a few days ago. We got to talkin and I think she digs me. Or shes just kinda sluty. I hope the earlier. But either way it was a real confidence booster. Ready to go out and try again. For what its worth.

I realized the only things I bring up to other people are depresing. I want advice or help or anyway to fix the problems I have that I cant seem to fix myself, but it may sound like I just wanna be a pity whore ( Read more... )