There's so much pain in my life right now and nobody gives a fuck. What's even worse is the main person causing the pain doesnt even know that he is and yet, he does it everyday, you would think that he would be able to see the hurt in my eyes, but I try and hide it for I only want him to be happy and if he isnt happy w/ me than so be it. Yet, I am ( Read more... )

it sucks when u want to date a guy you dated in your past so bad that you want to cry. It sucks when somebody tells you that they love you and want to be with you forever and then they flirt with your best friend. It sucks when call up one of your ex's who you are friends with, but they avoid you. It sucks when you dont know what you're doing in ( Read more... )

fuck you ivan!

OK..soo, update! well, i have had the best/worst weekend ever. I got a free movie and a good convo but then again i got yea, ill explain. Friday night, i went and saw Little Black Book w/ Krissy. It was good, i spent $19 but it was still a good movie..u guys, popcorn is expensive at the rave! Ok, so newayz, and then saturday night. Tony IMs me and ( Read more... )

Ok, so...youth was good! Everything went smoothly, I met Steven and we talked for a lil bit after church, he's a cool guy. Ismael asked me, not straightforward but pretty obviously, if i was dating him. And im not. I talked to my parents about dating. They said I could group date but not one on one date until next year, and im cool w/ that! But, ( Read more... )

Well...me and Brent (pic below) are over..what a fling..lol..but now im talking to this guy named steven who is very respectful and a christian, so, yea, maybe things will work out for the best! Brent's pic is first and Steven's is second..


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Wow, I had fun at 3 in that mornin..Brent, this really awesome guy i met online.lmao.lame i know, but newayz, I met him in front of my house and we made out for like 30 minutes! He is such a good kisser! But, he was my first kiss and my first french...damn, i feel like, umm not love, but almost! I feel loved, but im not in love, make sense?...not ( Read more... )

Well, I met this really awesome guy, Were goin to the movies on saturday! Im so excited.. ya wanna know whats weird? Ill tell you newayz, i have never dated a guy that was my age, they've all been oldr, this guy is 20, my last bf (i was 13) he was 17, I mean, dang, o well....i find it kinda amusing, but Brent is a sweetie, like we were talkin ( Read more... )

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Well im at cayla's and were studying for my permit test on wednesday..yes i know im slow! lmao..g2g much love to the dolphins and the penguins...


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