Future Unknown

[fierceawakening]

At work today, I was working on a paper on PTSD and veterans, and looking over the diagnostic criteria.

It's been many years since my trauma, and even at the worst I don't think my symptoms were quite as horribly intrusive as they are for many. Most of them have lessened a lot over the many years, though all are still present to one degree or

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[kawakiisakazuki]

I can relate; I thought I'd never reach thirty (bad asthma that only gets worse with age) and after I did, I felt I was on "borrowed time" and one consequence is that I've always been kind of frantic to get things done, because if I don't do them *now* I might never have the chance... I've become better at accepting that I'll never get around to do everything I'd want to do even if I live to be a thousand, and that this is actually a *good* thing... but I'm still bad at setting the kind of "long-term goals" that society seems to think people ought to have. ^_^;;

[roykay]

I expect you will live long and likely well. You seem to have considerable talent and reasonable plans to operate in the world.

I don't know. I come from the opposite view and I am not sure why. When I was growing up there were two aspects shaping perspectives: 1) Modern medicine was ever extending life with the seeming hope of immortality some day; 2) We could find ourselves in nuclear war in the next minute, perhaps finding a world where, in Kruschev's words, "The living would envy the dead."

Studies on aging now demonstrate why immortality is exceedingly unlikely. Meanwhile, despite profileration of nuclear weapons fro 5 to probably 10 countries, we don't really expect nuclear war anymore - certainly not on the 1000+ warhead level.

[shidoikarji26]

While I don't have the right to ask you about your truama what I want to know is, have you always had these feelins, even when you were younger? If not, isn't there a part of you that wants to live on? It sounds like your giving up, which is something you should never do..

[fierceawakening]

Read it again. I have no idea what you're talking about about me giving up (you are thinking I'm suicidal, maybe?), and the completely random advice about how to deal with something you know nothing about is not welcome.

[jkatkina]

"I wonder what it's like to have them, to feel reasonably sure one is going to have a long life."

It feels... a little weird.

I've always kind of assumed I would live a long life. I know I could die young but I never felt like I was going to.

I was looking at my mother's hands the other day and thinking, "someday my hands are going to look like that". Aging, especially the thought of bodily aging, is unnerving and interesting to me. Almost especially because I can already see it happening in a significant way, because of my skin.

[shiva_dan]

That's a symptom of PTSD? Woah, interesting