[Supernatural]: As Long As They Please

[minviendha]

Title: As Long As They Please
Fandom: Supernatural
Summary: Continuation-thing of Beneath the Trees, Where Nobody Sees, a Sam-doesn't-do-Stanford AU. Still depressing. Maybe more so.
Notes: Happy birthday Sam! This is how I show you I love you.

Comments

[marziebarz]

I realized that I have so many lines that made me want to cry that I shouldn't post them all, so I'm just gonna go with these two, which absolutely BROKE ME, AGAIN.

Sam spent the night trying to think of things that he had done right while Dean snored in the next room. He couldn’t come up with anything.

He was going to laugh, until he realized that he couldn’t think of how it was supposed to sound.

BROKEN, I TELL YOU. The utter emptiness in these lines is palpable. It's not even that you can feel Sam's despair, because the despair isn't even there. THERES JUST NOTHING. It's like Soulless!Sam, but you know he has a soul, and that just makes it worse. I'm going to read awkward Sam and Cas, then eat Easter Candy and pudding until I feel happy! This is what you have reduced me to haha ^_^

[minviendha]

This fic is so much emptiness and it makes me sad and yet I love writing it all the same. Feel happier, though! I want more happiness for you! I do not mean to make you very sad!

...well, I sort of do.

But. >>

The Sam of this verse is just so profoundly miserable. I want to write more but I don't know how to get it to take a turn for the better. :\

[marziebarz]

I think you should just accept the fact that anything you write for this version of Sam is going to make everyone cry, because it sucks out souls, but its ok because people (well, me, anyways) are gluttons for punishment and will read it anyways because its FANTASTIC. ^_^

[vail_kagami]

I shouldn't read stuff like this while I'm tired and exhausted. I think I'll go find a gun to eat now...

Beside that, I loved it.

[minviendha]

Don't do that! I would be very upset. D:

...I would say thank you, but then it sounds like I'm glad that you're miserable. THAT WAS KIND OF MY OBJECTIVE THOUGH. Um.

[sinka]

You wrote a sequel!!! And it's... even more heartbreaking than the original story. Sam is so numb, so empty. It really hurts. Dean wa supposed to help him out, but instead he's being dragged down too... poor boys.

I don't think Sam can't go on like this for much longer. Not today, but when? He feels he doesn't have anywhere or anyone to stay for.

More please? please please tell me this is going to become a 'verse!

[minviendha]

...it probably will. I can't stay away from this one! I mean it is miserable and terrible and slkjdf and I don't know how to make it better but. :| WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT I'll work it out somehow. Or work something out.

Yeah, Sam here is...mmm. Not all there. I think this is one of the sadder Sam's I've written out of any of them, actually...

[sinka]

Definitely one of the sadder Sam's I've read at least. It's hard to see him so numb, so empty, and still blaming himself because even when he tried to stay for this family he can see his effort coming to nothing and his world comming apart around him.

But I have faith in you!! you will manage eventually to make them better!! You don't know how happy you've made me knowing this will be a full 'verse!! yay!!

[embroiderama]

Oh, SAM. His hopelessness here is so clear and painful.

[minviendha]

That's how I want it to be! ...my favorite part is the fact that this was on his birthday I posted this. Mmhm.

Thank you for commenting! OH, SAM indeed.

[borgmama1of5]

Such utter emptiness, hopelessness--it is almost too real to read.

Is there any way to persuade you to fix this? Because it makes my gut hurt to read such pain.

[minviendha]

Wait, what do you mean, I have to fix things?

...I'm going to try to. Hopefully next installment. I just have such a hard time fixing things! But I will try.

Thank you so much. I'm glad it feels realistic to you, if sorry that it hurts. :(