Ficlet: In Dreams (R) Lilly/Duncan
Title: In Dreams
Author: rachel_shanz
Characters/Pairings: Duncan/Lilly
Rating: R
Length: 720
Spoilers: Through the first few eps of season 2.
Warnings: Uh, incest.
Summary: Lilly still haunts his dreams.
Notes: Many thanks to forcedmovement for the 2:30 AM betaing. Kanecest picks the weirdest times to take over my brain.
In Dreams
Lilly’s been gone for two years today, Duncan has it marked on his calendar. It’s circled in the same red ink as Veronica’s birthday and their one month anniversary. Veronica. When she showed up earlier tonight, they didn’t talk, she just kissed him, her tears tracing down his face. She’s laying beside him now, murmuring in her sleep. He watches her for a while, the fluttering of her eyelids, the rise and fall of her chest, the way her hair is spread across his pillow. It’s longer now, not as long as it was before, but longer than it was right after.
He hopes she doesn’t cut it. He liked it long. Like it was when she was innocent and sweet and belonged completely to him. Well, to him and Lilly, but that was ok. He didn’t mind sharing her with Lilly. He wouldn’t mind sharing her with Lilly now, either. Although he’s pretty sure he’s sharing her with Logan instead. He’s less ok with that. He doesn’t want to lose to Logan, not again. If Lilly were here she would tell him that he didn’t lose her to Logan, he just had to loan her out sometimes. But she’s not here, so she doesn’t get a say.
Veronica turns over, snuggles into him and breathes his name as she buries her face in his chest. He wraps one arm around her and holds her against him. She usually feels right, perfect in his arms, but not tonight. Tonight she’s a few inches too short and everything feels a little off. His eyes finally drift closed and another girl takes Veronica’s place in his bed.
Lilly opens her eyes and smiles up at him. When she says his name she doesn’t breathe it, she practically moans it. Her lips meet his and the kiss is not nearly as gentle as Veronica’s are. It’s harsher, more demanding. Her tongue demands entry to his mouth and he gives it readily, losing himself in the taste of her. She still tastes like she used to, that same intoxicating mix of sweet and sour. But there’s something else he can’t identify, something that tastes like the smell of fresh dirt.
He tangles one hand in Lilly’s long hair, being careful to avoid the blood, and leans over her, savoring the feel of her body pressing into him. She doesn’t come to him as often as she used to, now that Aaron’s gone. But when she does he memorizes every moment and every touch and wonders if she misses him as much as he misses her. He never asks her though, he’s not sure he wants to hear her answer.
She’s touching him now, and he realizes that their clothes have dissolved under her fingers. Her hand, warm and alive, closes around him and he groans into her mouth. Then it's gone and she’s pushing him away to crawl on top of him. She lowers herself slowly until he’s completely inside her, and he remembers what right feels like. He says her name, reverently, as she begins to move above him. She’s smiling at him again, and he swears he can see light emanating from her skin. He runs his hands up her body, tracing her curves with his fingertips. He’s amazed by how solid she feels, he always expects to end up reaching right through her. She leans down over him, lowering her mouth to his ear. He can’t understand everything she’s saying through the haze in his head, but her voice runs through him like torn silk and it’s bringing him closer to the edge with each inflection. When he comes, he tells her that he loves her. She says she knows and kisses him, long and deep, with her hair falling in a sheet around them.
Then she pulls back and she’s gone. Her scent and taste fill his senses, but he’s holding on to empty air. Her voice through floats the room, says his name one last time, and his eyes snap open.
Veronica is still asleep in his arms, and he has a flash of her with her head caved in and blood forever staining her face. He hates himself for it, but sometimes he wishes that’s how it had ended up. With Lilly in his arms and Veronica haunting his dreams for eternity.
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Author: rachel_shanz
Characters/Pairings: Duncan/Lilly
Rating: R
Length: 720
Spoilers: Through the first few eps of season 2.
Warnings: Uh, incest.
Summary: Lilly still haunts his dreams.
Notes: Many thanks to forcedmovement for the 2:30 AM betaing. Kanecest picks the weirdest times to take over my brain.
In Dreams
Lilly’s been gone for two years today, Duncan has it marked on his calendar. It’s circled in the same red ink as Veronica’s birthday and their one month anniversary. Veronica. When she showed up earlier tonight, they didn’t talk, she just kissed him, her tears tracing down his face. She’s laying beside him now, murmuring in her sleep. He watches her for a while, the fluttering of her eyelids, the rise and fall of her chest, the way her hair is spread across his pillow. It’s longer now, not as long as it was before, but longer than it was right after.
He hopes she doesn’t cut it. He liked it long. Like it was when she was innocent and sweet and belonged completely to him. Well, to him and Lilly, but that was ok. He didn’t mind sharing her with Lilly. He wouldn’t mind sharing her with Lilly now, either. Although he’s pretty sure he’s sharing her with Logan instead. He’s less ok with that. He doesn’t want to lose to Logan, not again. If Lilly were here she would tell him that he didn’t lose her to Logan, he just had to loan her out sometimes. But she’s not here, so she doesn’t get a say.
Veronica turns over, snuggles into him and breathes his name as she buries her face in his chest. He wraps one arm around her and holds her against him. She usually feels right, perfect in his arms, but not tonight. Tonight she’s a few inches too short and everything feels a little off. His eyes finally drift closed and another girl takes Veronica’s place in his bed.
Lilly opens her eyes and smiles up at him. When she says his name she doesn’t breathe it, she practically moans it. Her lips meet his and the kiss is not nearly as gentle as Veronica’s are. It’s harsher, more demanding. Her tongue demands entry to his mouth and he gives it readily, losing himself in the taste of her. She still tastes like she used to, that same intoxicating mix of sweet and sour. But there’s something else he can’t identify, something that tastes like the smell of fresh dirt.
He tangles one hand in Lilly’s long hair, being careful to avoid the blood, and leans over her, savoring the feel of her body pressing into him. She doesn’t come to him as often as she used to, now that Aaron’s gone. But when she does he memorizes every moment and every touch and wonders if she misses him as much as he misses her. He never asks her though, he’s not sure he wants to hear her answer.
She’s touching him now, and he realizes that their clothes have dissolved under her fingers. Her hand, warm and alive, closes around him and he groans into her mouth. Then it's gone and she’s pushing him away to crawl on top of him. She lowers herself slowly until he’s completely inside her, and he remembers what right feels like. He says her name, reverently, as she begins to move above him. She’s smiling at him again, and he swears he can see light emanating from her skin. He runs his hands up her body, tracing her curves with his fingertips. He’s amazed by how solid she feels, he always expects to end up reaching right through her. She leans down over him, lowering her mouth to his ear. He can’t understand everything she’s saying through the haze in his head, but her voice runs through him like torn silk and it’s bringing him closer to the edge with each inflection. When he comes, he tells her that he loves her. She says she knows and kisses him, long and deep, with her hair falling in a sheet around them.
Then she pulls back and she’s gone. Her scent and taste fill his senses, but he’s holding on to empty air. Her voice through floats the room, says his name one last time, and his eyes snap open.
Veronica is still asleep in his arms, and he has a flash of her with her head caved in and blood forever staining her face. He hates himself for it, but sometimes he wishes that’s how it had ended up. With Lilly in his arms and Veronica haunting his dreams for eternity.
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