Fic: Never Leave (for the Spike/Angel ficathon)

[felisblanco]

Lyrics

You left me stranded here
Abandoned and alone
With silly memories of things
I've never known
So when the mystery
Is starting to grow old
Another dream goes by
Like ashes out of gold

~Hail Mary by Skold

Beta'd by evilmaniclaugh. Thanks, babe

Comments

[annabuffy]

My heart is breaking. I guess the old saying of appreciating what you have today, for it may be gone tommorrow is true.

[felisblanco]

No, no, no! We can't have that. I have glue. We can fix it again, can't we?

Thank you, so glad you liked it.

*hugs*

[vic_amy_z]

Dammit, you made me cry!

I totally didn't see where this was going until the very end, and it made it even sadder - to know that Angel didn't watch him crumble to dust in seconds, he had to watch him grow old over many years... Just beautiful, sweetie, as always.

Can I second preetybird in the sentiment that my heart has been ripped out and tap-danced on?

[blows nose loudly and tries to pull self back together again]

[felisblanco]

Sorry, honey. Well, you should have guessed, judging from all the angst I keep pouring onto you Angel you.

My initial idea was to have him actually have grown old immediately, the shanshu making the years gone by catch up with him in a few minutes, but I didn't know how to say that without it sounding cheesy and in the end I decided to just let people judge by themselves how much time has gone by. And now I'm probably ruining it. *blushes*

*hands you back your heart, a little dusty but more or less intact*

[nashmaveric]

You broke my heart! Again! Stop it!

Ahem...seriously, good stuff. Depressing, but good.

[felisblanco]

Want glue? Only have glitter glue, but it will make your heart whole. And sparkly!

Thank you so much. So glad you liked it. Seems most my writing is depressing these days, even my poems. I really need to lighten some up. *sighs*

[zinnydark]

God, that was beautiful. Didn't see it. Kinda wished it was what I thought, too, just because I wouldn't feel like bawling...

~cuddles~

[felisblanco]

Thank you so much. *cuddles back*

Tell me, because I'm really curious to know what thoughts it inspired, what did you think/hope it was?

Ps. it's all fiction anyway. You know in reality they're happy and together. I mean really! *smooch*

[zinnydark]

This is true...

I just... thought he was dead! And that Angel was visiting his grave, or something, which, I assume, is what you wanted us to think. And I think it would have been happier then having a old and obviously deaf (blind? dumb?) Spike to watch suffer...

[felisblanco]

Ah, yes. That was what I wanted you to think. Just didn't quite expect you to see that as a happy scenario. *g*

Comatose Spike, or something like that, was what I pictured him as. Knowing nothing of what was happening around him. Now that I think of it, it would be intriguing to read a fic where he has Alzheimer or something, not knowing who Angel or anyone was, not remembering anything of their past. But not for me to write because it would just be repeating this in a different way. *throws carrots your way*

[violethamster]

Stupid Shanshu! *kicks prophecy scroll thingies* Made me cry!

Lovely story. And at least they get a human lifetime together.

[felisblanco]

Yeah, stupid shanshu. *kicks it real good* Who likes to be human anyway? I mean, the anatomical reasons alone... And what is one lifetime really compared to eternity? *kicks stupid shanshu once more*

Thank you so much. Here's a hankie for your tears (although I suspect they're dry by now, sorry for answering so late *blushes*)