[one-shot] When I'm kissing you
Title: When I’m kissing you
Author: faradakiut
Beta: cherry_akira (thank u, sensei~<3)
Pairing: It’s obvious already that I’ll always write Sakuraiba XD
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, angst? XD
Summary: After all those years of looking up to Arashi’s Keio Boy, Aiba realized his feelings for Sho were not only feelings of admiration towards his senpai...
Disclaimer: think i can fool anyone by changing my name to Johnny? >_<"
Note: written for [ The Melody Lingers On - An Arashi Fanfiction Quest]. italic are the lyrics
Sparks fly, it’s like electricity
I might die when I forget how to breathe
you’re getting closer and there's no where
In this world I'd rather be
He realized that he was being pinned against the wall. His lips were being touched ever so softly with another. Without being able to think, his eyes fluttered closed to the sensation. Chills ran down his spine as he felt hands moving from his cheeks to his neck before resting on his shoulders. The kiss lasted for a few seconds before he felt the warm body pressed against his slowly backing away.
“You can breathe now, you know.”
Sho opened his eyes as he heard the voice. He let go of his breath that he didn’t realize he was holding. He stared blankly at the man in front of him as his mind was processing what he had just went through. It took seconds before he finally came back to his senses. “Ai- Aiba, I-”
“So?”
“I don’t-”
“It’s fine. You don’t have to say anything,” Aiba said with a cold voice. “I can tell by your reaction anyway.”
“Aiba, I just-”
“I’m sorry,” Aiba cut him before he could manage to finish. “Forget what I said. It won’t happen again.” Aiba looked down before he turned around and left.
“Wa- wait. Aiba-chan, wait,” Sho called out, but Aiba was already too far to hear him. He didn’t try to run after Aiba as he was still confused with the whole situation.
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Time stops like everything around me is frozen
And nothing matters but these few moments
When you open my mind to things I've never seen
Sho sat on the bench and let his fingers travel to his lips where Aiba just chanted a kiss. He could still feel how Aiba’s lips move against his and how pleased he felt at that moment. He closed his eyes, trying to remember what happened before Aiba suddenly kissed him. I Love you, Sho. That is all what he remembered being said by Aiba before he found himself against the wall and Aiba devouring his lips. Every part of his body still felt the touch of Aiba’s hands.
He never felt the way he is feeling right that moment. Even though he had kissed several girls before, no one can compare to how Aiba’s lips felt against his. His lips felt rough, yet soft. He was needy, yet patient. The moment their lips touch, he felt that he was out of this world; like time stop ticking and the world around them froze.
Then it suddenly hit him. How Aiba looked at him before he turned away and left; and his sad eyes and cold voice. And he didn’t even stop the other man from leaving. He cupped his face with his hands and leaned back on the bench before looking up to the sky.
“What have I done?”
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Past loves they never got very far
Wall's up, made sure I guarded my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this
till I know that it was right for me
Sho arrived home that night straight from his news program without dropping by Arashi’s greenroom like he usually did. It’s been a week since the incident and he had been trying to avoid having to come there. He was afraid that if he goes there, he wouldn’t know how to react toward Aiba or how Aiba would react to him. It had been months since he was last in a relationship with someone. The last one he was in was very hard. That is why he felt that he was not ready to be in another one anytime soon; not to mention with a man.
He told his mother that he already had dinner, even though he didn’t and went straight to bed. He wanted that time alone tonight to sort his thoughts. He turned the light off and laid down on his bed in the dark without even bother to change his clothes. He didn’t even realize he had completely fallen asleep as he was too occupied with his own thoughts.
He started to dream about all the girls he used to date that night. Every single one of them; from his first love to the most current one. How they hooked up and how they broke up; everything about them before it all came back to Aiba. His smile, his laugh, and all the details about him came into his dream causing him to wake up in his own sweat and found himself wet down there, which spread onto his bedding. He wrote a mental note to straighten the matter with Aiba once and for all tomorrow as he gathered his things and go to work.
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But no one, no girl that I met before
could make me feel so right and secure
and have you noticed I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears
Later that evening, Sho opened the door to Arashi’s green room to find Aiba sleeping on the couch. He closed the door quietly and stepped inside. He put his stuff on the make up table as the couch has already fully occupied with Aiba’s tall body. He turned to Aiba and walked closer to him. He was thinking of waking him up, but looking at Aiba’s peaceful face, he knelt down beside him instead.
He looked down to Aiba’s face and without him realizing it, his hand reached out and caressed it softly. His eyes travelled from his eyes to his nose, before fixed on his lips. The lips were curving upward and Sho thought Aiba was surely been having a good dream. He was envious to whoever was in Aiba’s dream that can make him smile like that. Then he touched it, the lips; the same lips that kissed him the other day, the lips that felt good against his, the lips he never thought he wanted to kiss so badly. He closed his eyes and leaned forward slowly.
“What are you doing?” Sho withdrew instinctively upon hearing the voice. He looked toward the door and saw Nino looking suspiciously at him. “Were you trying to do something to Aiba?” Nino asked as he approached the other two.
“No, I wasn’t. I was just-,” Sho stood up, trying to walk out the door only to be blocked by Ohno.
“Kazu, what’s wrong?” Ohno asked as soon as he entered the room.
“Captain, I saw Sho trying to do something suspicious to Aiba-chan. Maybe he-,” Nino whispered as he clung on to Ohno’s shoulder. Ohno tried hard to stabilize himself so that the both of them won’t fall.
“I- I told you I’m not.”
Jun followed in after Ohno and asked, “What’s going on here?”
“Kazu said that Sho’s trying to-” Ohno didn’t manage to finish his sentence with Sho’s sudden outburst.
“I TOLD YOU I’M NOT TRYING TO KISS AIBA.”
The three looked at Sho with wide eyes and Aiba who was awakened by the noise, sitting up and looked surprised at Sho. “No one said anything about you wanting to kiss Aiba,” Nino said sarcastically.
“You wanted to kiss Aiba-chan?” Jun asked with slight disgust in his voice.
Ignoring Jun’s tone, Aiba stood up and walked to Sho. “Do you?” he asked.
“Ai- Aiba, I- what I mean is- I-,” Sho faltered as he tried to explain himself. He stopped however, upon realizing the other three were in the room with them.
When Sho looked like he wasn’t going to say anything, Aiba looked down and walked to the door. “Whatever. You don’t have to force yourself,” he managed to say before disappearing behind the door.
“Aiba, wait up.” This time Sho chose to go after Aiba. He followed the younger one to the entrance of the building and grasped his wrist as he didn’t make any attempt to stop.
“What do you want?” Aiba asked as soon as he was being turned around to face Sho.
“I wanna apologize,”
“Sure, you’re forgiven. Can I go now?” Aiba tried to pull his hand away from Sho’s only to find the grip tightening. “Sho, let me go.”
“Not before you listen to me.”
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I've never felt nothing like this
you’re making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
it kinda feels like it is LOVE
“I think I love you,” Sho broke the silence after minutes of staring the two have been doing.
“Well, I don’t think so.”
“What?” Sho was taken aback with Aiba’s response. He never thought that Aiba would answer him with such coldness. He thought that Aiba would be happy, but instead he received a negative response.
“I don’t need you to pity me,” Aiba continued. He looked away from Sho and struggled to free himself. “Let me g-” Aiba didn’t manage to finish his words as Sho suddenly pushed him against the wall and claimed his lips. “Mm- Sho, let- mm-”
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Cause when I'm kissing you My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
Falls right into place You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away When I'm kissing you
When I'm kissing you It all starts making sense
And all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes When I'm kissing you
Sho pulled himself away from Aiba, closing his eyes waiting for Aiba to respond. He was waiting to be yelled at, or fists landing on his face, but instead a hand rested on his nape and pulled him forward before finding himself enjoying the kiss once again. As he imagined, Aiba’s lips fit his perfectly. He then realized that they were in the place where Aiba first kissed him.
He found himself being able to respond properly to the kiss this time around. He sucked the bottom lip, taking every breath that Aiba took. They nipped and suckled each other’s opponent’s lips to express their feelings towards each other. They only pulled away when both feel the urgent need to breathe.
“Masaki, you’re right,” Sho said as soon as their breathing subsided. His fingers caressed Aiba’s cheek as the other rested on his nape. “I don’t think that I love you,” he said as he stared right into Aiba’s eyes.
“What?” Aiba looked at the man in front of him with disbelief. After all the kissing they just did, he simply told him that he doesn’t love him? “But, what about the k-,” Aiba stopped as he realized his silliness. Of course Sho is trying to sort his thoughts by kissing him. Sho wanted to make sure of his feelings for him and now that he kissed him and felt nothing, he was sure to back away. Aiba regretted to give himself fully to the kiss only to find himself being push away in the end. “Fine,” Aiba said he grabbed both Sho’s hands, pushing him away before making his way back inside.
“What’s wrong?” Sho grasped Aiba’s shoulder before he could get further.
“Let me go, Sho,” Aiba said without looking at him.
“Masaki, what’s wrong?”
“You were using me and you dare to ask me what’s wrong!!??” Aiba shouted. He didn’t even bother to hide his tears anymore as he stared right at Sho. Sho eyes widened, but then smiled as he realized what Aiba was talking about.
“What more do you want from me?” Aiba cried. Sho smiled and walked close to him and tried to hug him, but Aiba was fast to pull away from him. “Don’t touch me!” he yelled.
“Masaki,I don’t think that I love you. I KNOW that I LOVE you.” Aiba looked up to meet Sho’s eyes as if asking him to repeat himself. “I know that I love you, Masaki.” He leaned forward and claimed Aiba lips once again. This time he withdrew when Aiba bit his lips. “Hey, what was that for?”
“Pay back.”
-the end-
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my first time doing song-based fic...
i wanna thank cherry_akira for her willingness to read my crappy fic and making so many correction on it.. >_<
and i'm off to finish Natsu Niji... XD
see u guys when i see u~
(well, that's tomorrow coz i have to update the meme -__-")
comments are love~
<3 fara
enjoy the song...
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