Stream of Consciousness #1

[fallen_leapyear]

I am officially depressed. And I don't mean any of this "I'm so sad, so very very sad" shit. I am talking full on non-productive, dropping responsibilities, uncontrollable urges to cry, not eating, becoming a useless human being depression. A feeling and a state that I haven't visited since my sophomore year in high school. I don't know how I

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[smilethrutears7]

I want you to know I read every word. I wish I knew how to help you. If you need to talk, I will listen. If you need anything, I want you to ask. No matter what it's about. I know it will be hard for you to do, but I hope you can confide in me, and ask for any help you think you need. Taking care of yourself is hard, harder than taking care of everyone else. I don't necessarily agree that all humans are 'selfish' I see selflessness in you everyday. I also feel the selflessness and a lack of power in your own life. I'm not trying to one up you, I'm just trying to relate.

I give you credit for coming out and saying everything you needed to. It took courage (even if this is a dead medium.) I have faith that you will overcome this depression. I also have faith that you will get the things you want; a husband who is worthwhile, a baby and a good life.

I love you.

[jp00788]

I also read every word. It moved me to think about myself a lot too. I can relate to a lot of things you are saying. Now I know that Christine and I are frequently considered a "group deal" but if you need a person to talk to, I am always here. If you need to contact somebody to discuss your feelings because you can't sleep at 2 or 3 in the morning, I'm here for that too. I want to see all of my friends as happy as they can be and you certainly are a very good friend.

I also wanted you to know that you are one of the best, greatest, funnest (sorry grammar nazis), coolest people I know. And I really mean that too. I'm just a phone call, text message, IM, email away if you ever need anything.