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[expectremorse]

I need a hobby that does not require me to leave my room, isn't perverse, and isn't-[twitch] going out..

[Hoffman does not sound like he's slept. At all. He's mumbling.]

I can't do it. I can't fucking do it. I don't understand. Out of anyone she's here. I'm-

[And then he realizes the audio is still on]

FUCK[Then Quiet. Then A low slamming

Comments

[der_umgekehrte]

Hoffman-?

[expectremorse]

[tense heavy breathing] What?

[der_umgekehrte]

What's happened? Are you all right? Do you need assistance?

[expectremorse]

[This is SO COMPLICATED]

...Everything's fine.

[ALL THE LIIIES]

I'm just looking for a hobby. [He makes a strange noise somewhere between a burp, a cough, and throwing up] ...That's it. Just a fucking hobby.

[private]

[meanstwin]

[ Your panic is contagious, Hoffman. ] Wh... what is it?

: [private]

[expectremorse]

[Hoffman moans] Everything's fine! I'm fine. I'm just bored and looking for things to do.

Re: : [private]

[meanstwin]

[ Don't push. Never push. ] What kind of space do you have in your cabin?

Re: : [private]

[expectremorse]

...A lot more space then I did, but that's just because there's not as much furniture. It's the new room.

[He just got it cleaned]

Spam

[19centconstable]

[There's a gentle knock on the door. Even George's knuckles sound concerned.]

Detective?

Spam

[expectremorse]

[Hoffman opens the door quickly. You can always tell just how he's feeling from how he looks. There's no control here, everything his messy. His shirt, his tie, his hair. Bleary and unkempt-and smelly. He might smell just a little.]

[His mouth opens and closes for a moment before he gestures for George to follow him in.]

....What did I do to piss the admiral off?

[his voice is small] ...seriously what did I do? I'll apologize to him for it.

Re: Spam

[19centconstable]

[George manages not to mention any ripeness.]

What's happened?

Re: Spam

[expectremorse]

...One of the people-

[He can't even say it.]

One of the people I...I maimed is here. As a warden.

[This is so awkward. She wasn't just a test. She was his first test, the first test he designed and built himself that was supposed to follow John's design. (He had never realized that until now) And afterwards he'd gone home and done things..]

...She's only gone one arm. Simone Betheson.

[He could recite her birthday by heart. Her favorite food, favorite ice cream flavor all the things he'd learned tailing that woman.]

[Filtered]

[most_feared]

Hoffman, you're gonna have to go out eventually.

Re: [Filtered]

[expectremorse]

[There is a strangled noise] ...Goddamn. Why?

[Filtered]

[most_feared]

Probably better explained in person.

[Filtered]

[expectremorse]

...I could actually use somebody to talk to.

[He figures that once he hears, this will be the last conversation they have. That this will end it.

But good god, he wants to know for sure. If he's going to lose everything because she's hear.]

...If you have the time.

[Filtered]

[doctor_j_crane]

Reading is what I would suggest. That and less drinking.

Re: [Filtered]

[expectremorse]

Fuck you.

[wrong time to mention the drinking man.]

[Filtered]

[doctor_j_crane]

I'm being realistic. Without alcohol, you'll be more able to handle whatever situation you're struggling with.

Re: [Filtered]

[expectremorse]

...I'm not drunk! [he frowns]

It's nothing.