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[exesandohs15]

My dad's birthday was this Saturday. He turned 50. It's a big deal; he should have celebrated it, but...well, I don't blame him. No one was in a celebrating mood, specially him. Why that week? Why couldn't it have waited? I heard my aunt talking on the phone with my dad saying that they thought he was going to pass away near or on my birthday. I

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[bttrswt_mystry7]

Just be happy that he lived a long life. I never had the chance to know either of my grandfathers. My mom's dad has never met me, and my dad's father passed away when I was four. You should smile knowing he was able to see you grow up and got to love you for as long as he did. I'm sure he is smiling down on you right now.

[exesandohs15]

I left Cuba when I was four and only got to see him three times the rest of the time he was alive. It's not that I'm not grateful to have had him, but it just makes it that much harder to lose him. Thanks. I'm sure he's looking down on me, too.

[myfeetareugly]

I'm so so so so so sorry to hear that. :( I know how you feel; I lost my grandfather when I was 12 and I was really close to him, too. I agree about the 'i've never cried harder' bit.

*hug* I wish you and your family all the best in this time. <3

[exesandohs15]

Thank you so much, Dani. It really means a lot.<3

[myfeetareugly]

No problem, dear. Just remember that you are lucky; you got to know such an amazing man (I'm sure he was) and that he was a part of your growing up. And that's why it is a great loss for you. But again, condolences.

You'll be in my prayers.

[exesandohs15]

Thanks again. I really appreciate it. (:

[heart_thoughts]

this made me cry.
of course, why wouldn't it, right?

i know how you feel, and maybe it was better off this way.
i agree that you should cherish the memories you've had
with him and be thankful that he lived a full life.
and please, honey, don't feel guilty for laughing and
having good days. i'm sure your grandpa would love
to see you smiling. it' s okay to cry. there's no cut-off
date to stop crying. pft, a few days ago i broke down
crying and sobbing because i miss my dad. i'm crying
now just thinking about it. this takes time, go at
your own pace.

whenever you talk about him, think of the good times
and smile. it'll make you feel good and it'll be a gratification
for your grandpa.

i love you immensely,
and when you need a shoulder to cry on (or a crying buddy)
you know i'm here <3

[exesandohs15]

I know he'd want me to be happy, but I can't help it. I get really sad at the fact that he was there, but I wasn't able to see and enjoy him because of where we live. I think it would have been easier if I'd gotten to say goodbye at least. Like you said, though, I just need some time.

Thanks, hon. You know the same goes for you. I love you, too. <3