On isolation, future musings

[evilgerbil]

"...the isolation that prevails everywhere, above all in our age - it has not fully developed, it has not reached its limit yet. For every one strives to keep his individuality as apart as possible, wishes to secure the greatest possible fullness of life for himself; but meantime all his efforts result not in attaining fullness of life but self-

Comments

[pandorasfox]

i think reading a lot of your posts like this has been a huge catalyst for me. i'm so much want something else than this but i'm so afraid since i've never had anything else. i just feel like i waste so much energy trying to force myself to fit in this molded world and i constantly feel out of place.

i keep trying to push ahead and find a house to buy somewhere else but then i get these huge panic attacks about that kind of commitment. i just don't know what else to do or where to go now. at this point D would go anywhere i said i wanted to go.......i just have no idea where that is.

[evilgerbil]

I'm glad they can help you, and I'm pretty relieved to hear someone other than Jeff who knows what I am talking about. Sometimes I think it would be easier if all I thought about were celebrities and memes and I could be more fun/entertaining for people rather than thinking about all this serious stuff, and I wish I had more people who understood, or at least expressed that. I get where you are coming from on panicking on the kind of commitment. I know what I want but I'm afraid it's too soon or something. A woman I know has a quote on her page supposedly from Goete. It helps me to remember it when I scared to commit to something or someone

[pandorasfox]

i understand. to an extent i try not to pay attention to all the horrible scary stuff going on around me, it seems to just sort of drain the life force from me. it's just too much to keep up with every bit of it all the time and i feel so overwhelmed by how awful it all is. i feel ashamed sometimes that i don't want to follow politics and the economy like so many people i know do. but i just can't handle it. just watching my friends & family struggle so much on a daily basis is depressing enough. the fact that i feel this huge impending doom hanging over our country is almost too much. i've really never been one for all the conspiracy theories and stuff but i really feel like i should be hiding money in my mattress and making tin foil hats these days

[evilgerbil]

I know how to use a framing gun! :)