Love, part 1

[evilgerbil]

"I'm hanging on your words
living on your breath
feeling with your skin
Will I always be here"I woke up with these words on my lips. "In Your Room" by Depeche Mode. And I felt a profound ache

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[threadwalker]

"No one can touch that. It doesn't depend on anyone else, and cannot be diminished. Rather than making me vulnerable, this makes me powerful beyond belief."

So glad you've found this. It's an amazing revelation. DOn't loose sight of it. I have found it and lost it and found it again a few times now. Amazing how easily we canlose track of such important things. The thing is, even when we think we've forgotten, the knowledge is still there, lending an invisible inner fiber, supporting us from collapse even in our darkest thoughts. Once you know, some part of you never does forget, and it can be a line back to sanity in the midst of horrible ick. I know, I was there last year.

And it always amazes me when I remember again, how quickly one becomes strong and free and bold again. It is untouchable, and the strength of it just grows.

YOu are very eloquent in expressing it. So glad you've found this. Wonderful.

[evilgerbil]

*beam*

[silverseabear]

now I don't know how to tell the truth from someone regurgitating what I want to hear

Assume truth. Always. You'll be a beter person for it, no matter what kind of words other people give you.

[evilgerbil]

It's difficult. I have been conditioned to think that all the wonderful things said to me are just being said because it's what I want to hear. The result of someone who refused to take accountability for his emotions and let is all rest on me. Such as: "Why did you say you love me if you don't?" "Because I knew it would make you happy." Argh :\

[silverseabear]

I don't know if we've all been conditioned to think this way, but I'd bet a lot of us are.

I didn't say it was easy. But in my experience, it's totally better to just assume you're hearing truth. If it turns out not to be true, you don't really lose anything for having loved/trusted someone.

At least, that's how I see it.

Honesty, fear, and trust.

[natetg]

Your issue is really trust and security, and not honesty

[mlerules]

Wonderfully expressed...and very very nice to hear. Best wishes on the continued expansion of yourself and your abilities to love and be loved. :-)

[ex_alouiciou779]

i'm so glad to have you in my life.

[blood_thunder]

What a great post.