No More 12.11
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Title: No More
Fandom: RPS
Story: Highway: Press Run 12.11
Characters: Alan Davies and Robert Sean Leonard
Authors: michelleann68 + evila_elf = evila_ann
Prompt: coclaim100 08 Temper
Word Count: 419
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Alan writes in his journal about his current feelings towards Robert.
Authors’ Notes: Feel free to friend us if you want to read a day ahead of the communities.
Where it all began:
Big table of prompts is here:
Order of the story is here:
Previous story:
Waterfalls
I’m not sure how I could delude myself for so long, thinking that Robert would change somehow and accept what I thought we had together. With each passing day I am growing more convinced that he was with me because he thought he would never have to make a commitment. Not because he really loved me with all his heart. Gabby was far more patient than I am. Robert now has resorted to letter-sending. I hope that is a short-lived approach. But at least the incessant calling has stopped. Now I can put all this behind me and start to move on. See if I can find someone who will love me for me and not as secret shag he sees a few times a year.
What I think has really brought it home for me this last month is Ben, one of the actors on set. We all knew he had some piece of tail that kept him warm, but we were gob smacked when his someone was a guy named Doug. They had been secretly dating for about a year and last week decided that they would not live together in secret any more. It gutted me to see them happy and affectionate with each other. It reminded me of being on set with Robert. I still do not know who in his life knew about us. But I told every one and it is still so painful to untell. I don't fucking know where I stand anymore. I just know that I want a partner who is not embarrassed to have me on their arm. Someone who puts our relationship first. I am too old for casual shags. I need and want more than that. I see the pictures of him making out with the slapper less and less. Instead of the hurt, I just now find myself angry at the lost time and the effort that I gave to him. I feel like I was some sort of science experiment that was tossed out.
Today Ben and Doug announced they were going to have a commitment ceremony. Ironically, he had a big love scene with his leading lady that afternoon. Once the jokes stopped, I felt somewhat hollow. He has what I want. Or at least what I had conned myself in to believing that I could have with Robert. But that dream is dead and I am just pissed that I believed in him and an us that was clearly never meant to be.
12.12 Loud Silences
Title: No More
Fandom: RPS
Story: Highway: Press Run 12.11
Characters: Alan Davies and Robert Sean Leonard
Authors: michelleann68 + evila_elf = evila_ann
Prompt: coclaim100 08 Temper
Word Count: 419
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Alan writes in his journal about his current feelings towards Robert.
Authors’ Notes: Feel free to friend us if you want to read a day ahead of the communities.
Where it all began:
Big table of prompts is here:
Order of the story is here:
Previous story:
Waterfalls
I’m not sure how I could delude myself for so long, thinking that Robert would change somehow and accept what I thought we had together. With each passing day I am growing more convinced that he was with me because he thought he would never have to make a commitment. Not because he really loved me with all his heart. Gabby was far more patient than I am. Robert now has resorted to letter-sending. I hope that is a short-lived approach. But at least the incessant calling has stopped. Now I can put all this behind me and start to move on. See if I can find someone who will love me for me and not as secret shag he sees a few times a year.
What I think has really brought it home for me this last month is Ben, one of the actors on set. We all knew he had some piece of tail that kept him warm, but we were gob smacked when his someone was a guy named Doug. They had been secretly dating for about a year and last week decided that they would not live together in secret any more. It gutted me to see them happy and affectionate with each other. It reminded me of being on set with Robert. I still do not know who in his life knew about us. But I told every one and it is still so painful to untell. I don't fucking know where I stand anymore. I just know that I want a partner who is not embarrassed to have me on their arm. Someone who puts our relationship first. I am too old for casual shags. I need and want more than that. I see the pictures of him making out with the slapper less and less. Instead of the hurt, I just now find myself angry at the lost time and the effort that I gave to him. I feel like I was some sort of science experiment that was tossed out.
Today Ben and Doug announced they were going to have a commitment ceremony. Ironically, he had a big love scene with his leading lady that afternoon. Once the jokes stopped, I felt somewhat hollow. He has what I want. Or at least what I had conned myself in to believing that I could have with Robert. But that dream is dead and I am just pissed that I believed in him and an us that was clearly never meant to be.
12.12 Loud Silences