sorry if i'm being too forward.applexappleJuly 27 2006, 05:13:22 UTC
"Guys are dumb period. Someday some guy will realize how amazing I truly am.
But until then I'll just be left totally misrable. GRRR"
Jen-
I've read all your journal entries and saw you jump from boy to boy for the past 3-4 years. Maybe it's fate this happened, but I know i've said that before. You just said you'll be left mistrable untl a guy realizes you're amazing. I really don't think you'll ever be happy, until you yourself realize you're amazing. And to do that you need to be on your own, and happy with yourself, and not depend on guys to make you happy.
This is the perfect time to do some soul searching and find out who you really are, what you enjoy, and take advantage of that. Meet some friends who enjoy doing what you like, and go do stuff with them. I'd stop dating if I were you.... because you keep getting into these situations.
Re: sorry if i'm being too forward.applexappleJuly 27 2006, 11:59:40 UTC
I know, You are right.. but it's just so hard for me. Being alone makes me upset and depressed. And being here in Baltimore is totally not an easy place to meet people. This city is pretty scary, So I hardly go out. My job also makes it so I can't meet any new people either.
But, since I can't afford to pay rent now, I think I'm gonna move back up to Maine to be friends and family. Even though thats gonna suck, and I'm going to hate it. Butlike you said I just gotta get my shit my straighted before I can even be with anyone else.
Re: sorry if i'm being too forward.applexappleJuly 27 2006, 19:04:32 UTC
Being alone makes a lot of people upset and depressed. I did it for 4 years and it was awful. But I learned a lot during those four years, and I totally grew stronger as a person. Sometimes you have to go through that... it's actually really good for you. So embrace that depressedness! Maybe when you get back to Maine start exploring some things you've been wanting to do. Yoga is awesome, you should get into that. And it really makes you stronger as a person mentally and physically because after a while you start doing things you never thought you could and it's really empowering. If you need anything let me know! I'm trying not to sound like a bitchy mom or anything, but you are a few years younger then me, and I was actually at the same spot you're at when I was your age, so i've been through it already. So let me know if you want to talk or need anything! And sorry if I sound like a mom.
Re: sorry if i'm being too forward.everydayhateJuly 30 2006, 23:48:56 UTC
Don't worry you don't sound like a mom... It's all stuff I need to hear. I def. need a kick in ass. Haha.
I'm just a total mess right now. I told my parents I want to come home. They don't even like me being here anyways.. So I guess in September I'm headed back up there. I'm just gonna hang out friends and my new pup, and work on myself while I'm there... NO BOYS!
Hopefully I won't be in Maine that long though. My parents are going to buy a house in North Carolina in the spring, soo I'm going to move with them. But until they move I'm looking into working at a resort out in Cali.(All expenses paid for!) for the winter. Since I really don't want to deal with another Maine winter. Yeh, I know I'm crazy.
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But until then I'll just be left totally misrable. GRRR"
Jen-
I've read all your journal entries and saw you jump from boy to boy for the past 3-4 years. Maybe it's fate this happened, but I know i've said that before. You just said you'll be left mistrable untl a guy realizes you're amazing. I really don't think you'll ever be happy, until you yourself realize you're amazing. And to do that you need to be on your own, and happy with yourself, and not depend on guys to make you happy.
This is the perfect time to do some soul searching and find out who you really are, what you enjoy, and take advantage of that. Meet some friends who enjoy doing what you like, and go do stuff with them. I'd stop dating if I were you.... because you keep getting into these situations.
~lauren
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But, since I can't afford to pay rent now, I think I'm gonna move back up to Maine to be friends and family. Even though thats gonna suck, and I'm going to hate it. Butlike you said I just gotta get my shit my straighted before I can even be with anyone else.
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I'm just a total mess right now. I told my parents I want to come home. They don't even like me being here anyways.. So I guess in September I'm headed back up there. I'm just gonna hang out friends and my new pup, and work on myself while I'm there... NO BOYS!
Hopefully I won't be in Maine that long though. My parents are going to buy a house in North Carolina in the spring, soo I'm going to move with them. But until they move I'm looking into working at a resort out in Cali.(All expenses paid for!) for the winter. Since I really don't want to deal with another Maine winter. Yeh, I know I'm crazy.
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