oh man growing up... wow what a hard thing to do... i am in a really weird mood right now... kind of depressed and i dont know why... i just wish it was light outside right now because sometimes i cant take the dark.

im finally starting to get ahead in life and i am finally looking into the future and making plans with the future in mind... feels like im finally taking the 1st step to growing up...

but i will always be a big kid at heart... hell i still watch cartoons all the time.

i still dont get why everything works out for me in the end... like almost always. its like some special gift i have. maybe its just because i dont sweat the small stuff. who knows all i know right now is its time to hit the gym and then drink mass amounts of beer.

"There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels"

i know im missing a line from this verse but this kind of explains the last 2 1/2 months of my life...

ive been posting a lot on here does anyone even read this?

gotta work tonight for some over time... 8 til ???

whatever $16.50 an hour works for me

especially when i have tomorrow off.

oh man i want to drink a lot of beer this weekend...

and only 1 month and 1 1/2 weeks until my 21st birthday in grand ol LAS VEGAS!!!

whenever life gets you down you always have music to bring you right back up... not that i am down right now just wounded but my wounds are slowly healing and i am making a full recovery ( Read more... )

"speeding cars" by Imogen Heap is my favorite song at the moment

on my friends page i see a lot of people posting pictures of gay haircuts...

stop being gay

not doing to good... but i still have this smile on my face but my brain feels like its running a never ending race ( Read more... )

once again when i thought i was alright it comes back to me and bites me in the ass...

its ok i guess more motivation to get myself back into shape...

but good lord how much i miss.