Blessed be your name / It is well, with my soul

[etimodnar]

Sometimes, at the least expected moments, I just burn with jealousy. This is not cool. I'm happy with what I have. I love my family, I love God (He certainly knows for sure just how much), but every now and then... BAM! jealousy. And I'll be sitting here, la di da, then all of a sudden, every thing's not ok. I'm all bitter and twisted inside.

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[stawberi]

Let's face it, your God wants to to be happy, there's short-term happy and then there's long-term happy. He knows what's best for you, ne?

[etimodnar]

yeah true. But in most circumstances that's said, it's only ever short term happiness. The kind where you flit from one happiness to the next. God doesn't want that.
Like, "aw Kat, go out with Gene, he'd make you happy, I'm sure that God just wants you to be happy"
God says, "If any man would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it; and whoever loses his life for my sake, he will save it." Luke 9:23-24

[etimodnar]

oh, and I'm not trying to be defensive, nor am I attacking what you've said. I'm just trying to explain so anyone who reads will better understands.

yeah, last time we had a conversation that followed this flow, you seemed to think I was getting all jumpy. But I'm not. :) Just clarifying that.

*hug*

[stawberi]

Yeah, that's what I meant.

[cowboy71]

I admire your honesty mate.

One of the reasons I'm a lapsed-christian, is that I just never could make the sacrifices that God requires.

Is my life better without Him? Nope. Why don't I accept Him into my life again? *shrugs*

Being a Christian is not easy. I searched for some appropriate scripture, and this I think is appropriate: "Straight is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it." Matthew 7:14

[etimodnar]

Being a Christian is not easy

heh heh
perfect "ORLY?" moment

Why don't I accept Him into my life again? *shrugs*
*poke poke*

=)

[prettyreddress]

I guess... I don't know. Often I'm afraid to comment with advice or encouragement because I feel like it would be hypocritical- I'm going through the same struggles.

I... just want you to know that you're not alone. I don't know exactly what you're going through, but I hope that we can both forget what is behind us and press forward to what is ahead. <3

[etimodnar]

But isn't it encouraging to know that you're not the only one going through it? Misery loves company after all. lol

But, thank you. *hug* Please don't feel hypocritical, it comes with being a Christian doesn't it? heh heh

[bikelet]

Well do you know the original of the song "It is well with my soul"? For those who don't know, this old hymn writer happened to tragically lose his daughters in a ship wreck. Some time later when he was on a boat that was travelling over the exact spot of the wreck he went to his cabin and wrote "when peace like a river attendeth my way/ when sorrows like sea billows roll/ whatever my lot/Thou hast taught me to say/it is well, it is well with my soul."
I think it makes ur faith more real and genuine, like you have real answers if you do suffer and make it through. Keep going, *encouragement* and *sympathy*

[etimodnar]

Yes, I've known that story since forever. It makes me love the song more knowing all that. A few weeks after writing it, he himself died too.

[javelinface]

mm right on the ball with red dress here.. I fully empathise with you, ie, I've been having the same dillemmas since about 2000.. Stay strong.