So I'm currently in the library at Murdoch studying. Obviously not at this precise moment. There are a number of things going through my head that I want to get out
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The world is actually a beautiful and love filled place. Its such a pity that all you see is 'sin'. Maybe you do blog cos ur lonely, i don't know. But seems to me that you'd hav beta conversations with people if u spoke to them directly. That way u know ur being listened too and that its not an illusion. No amt of blogging beats real life sharing and friendship. and with ur doubt.. i think doubt is good. How else can u rethink ur beliefs and why u believe? And a piece of advice. its futile to be sad on behalf of someone else. help them, but don't get emotionally involved. Draining urself helps noone. and u prob don't want to hear this, but the world wouldn't be so screwed up if people acted to make things better rather then waiting for someone (jesus/god/whateva) to do it for them.
If I may reply, I don't believe Kat is seeing a world filled with nothing but sin. But for all its wonders, the world is a broken place. For every bright moment there is a dark shadow, and at times those shadows seem overwhelming.
@Kat. Its hard seeing friends go through tough times, and being unable to do anything to 'fix' the situation. (I think I know who you're referring to) All we can ever do as friends is to empathize and quite simply- be there. I don't think there's anything wrong with your blogging. I enjoy reading your blogs as a way of getting to know you better, but also because they are so filled with your Christian experience. So don't fret the doubts. As 'anonymous' has said, doubts give us the opportunity to test our convictions and to grow in certainty and truth.
Thanks Jason. Your feedback is really appreciated (I say that in the most not-trite way possible). And I'm glad that the Christian-experience is noticed. It's no easy life and it sucks when all I can see is people's shiny happy faces they put on that makes me believe that it is easy. Lies. :P
Re: doubt,Laws and principles are not for the times when there is no temptation: they are for such moments as this, when body and soul rise in mutiny against their rigour, stringent are they; inviolate they shall be...with my veins running fire, and my heart beating faster than I can count its throbs. Preconceived opinions, foregone determinations, are all I have at this hour to stand by: there I plant my foot! - Jane Eyre
yeah, when did I give off that impression?? I said that I was frustrated sin had marred so much of this world. Which is a FAR cry from saying that all I see is sin. That's totally putting words into my mouth that I did not intend.
I speak directly to people frequently, but it's difficult to have d&m conversations just as frequently and the people who really know my heart I only see once a fortnight-ish. So I need to be patient in the meantime. I don't know how I gave the impression that I don't speak to people directly.
You don't want me to get emotionally involved with the people I care about? A piece of advice: why don't you invest a bit of yourself into your friendships. Not because you expect anything out of them, but for their benefit. Whilst draining yourself doesn't help you, it might help your friend - though I would advise against giving of yourself quite so much. Furthermore, in this situation, maybe the best thing I can do, is nothing
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Heya. I don't think there's anything inappropriate about your blogging. To share is to be human and to connect with others. No man is an island. Honesty is beauty.
Maybe you do blog because you're striving for relationships. I know that that's part of why I blog - so I can connect with others. It's part of being me - I want to connect with others, and if a way I can do it via blogging, then that's a good thing. I've met lots of wonderful people because of blogging.
And I'm grateful that I've got to know you via here, so I know I'd say 'boo' if you suddenly stopped blogging.
Must head off now and finish off a painting, for the exhibition next week, that's due in tomorrow. Speak with you later sometime hopefully. Will be praying for you Kat :)
Thanks Mark. I've been pondering and discussing this and I think it just calls for more discernment and wisdom in posting. Thinking about what my purpose is in blogging (to glorify God and present the authentic Christian life to those around me) and if I'm doing that in [insert post] post. :)
I LOVE that you blog so openly! Honestly Kat, despite the distance, you are so much nearer to me than some friends I know here. I often have the opposite problem to you, in that I don't blog because I imagine that my LJ friends aren't interested in anything I have to say, or because they'll hate me for leaving it.. a week.. or whatever. There are probably at least 5 but probably more like 10 blog posts that stay in my head, for every one that makes it here. But seeing as i like reading yours. I rationalise that perhaps it's not so completely far fetched that you like reading mine :-) We can get through this together. The Lord is strong, and He will not let either of us get taken over by The Fear. Love you sister.
i wasn't saying that you didn't hav conversations with people, i was just saying that ppl in general feel more connected and listened to when they do. U were the one who mentioned illusion and i was just answering that in my own way. Sorry if i came across wrong but u don't need to get defensive and rude
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I don't think you understand the different perspectives from which your original words to me can be read. Particularly when I don't know you (and if I do, you're posting anonymously, so I can only assume I don't know you) and so have no idea of what perspective you're coming from. Most friends who post anonymously will sign their names afterwards, else can be assumed to be trolls.
Perhaps next time you post, you can make yourself clearer by providing maximum clarification. That way, I won't misunderstand you. After all, it can equally be said that you were the one who suggested meeting with people face to face, which implies a degree to which I don't, and thus need to hear that advice. So "I was just answering that in my own way". What you were trying to say, and what you did say are two very different thingsI answered you defensively because your post came across as more aggressive than you probably meant it. For example
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@Kat. Its hard seeing friends go through tough times, and being unable to do anything to 'fix' the situation. (I think I know who you're referring to) All we can ever do as friends is to empathize and quite simply- be there.
I don't think there's anything wrong with your blogging. I enjoy reading your blogs as a way of getting to know you better, but also because they are so filled with your Christian experience. So don't fret the doubts. As 'anonymous' has said, doubts give us the opportunity to test our convictions and to grow in certainty and truth.
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Re: doubt,Laws and principles are not for the times when there is no temptation: they are for such moments as this, when body and soul rise in mutiny against their rigour, stringent are they; inviolate they shall be...with my veins running fire, and my heart beating faster than I can count its throbs. Preconceived opinions, foregone determinations, are all I have at this hour to stand by: there I plant my foot! - Jane Eyre
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I speak directly to people frequently, but it's difficult to have d&m conversations just as frequently and the people who really know my heart I only see once a fortnight-ish. So I need to be patient in the meantime. I don't know how I gave the impression that I don't speak to people directly.
You don't want me to get emotionally involved with the people I care about? A piece of advice: why don't you invest a bit of yourself into your friendships. Not because you expect anything out of them, but for their benefit. Whilst draining yourself doesn't help you, it might help your friend - though I would advise against giving of yourself quite so much. Furthermore, in this situation, maybe the best thing I can do, is nothing ( ... )
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Maybe you do blog because you're striving for relationships. I know that that's part of why I blog - so I can connect with others. It's part of being me - I want to connect with others, and if a way I can do it via blogging, then that's a good thing. I've met lots of wonderful people because of blogging.
And I'm grateful that I've got to know you via here, so I know I'd say 'boo' if you suddenly stopped blogging.
Must head off now and finish off a painting, for the exhibition next week, that's due in tomorrow.
Speak with you later sometime hopefully. Will be praying for you Kat :)
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Perhaps next time you post, you can make yourself clearer by providing maximum clarification. That way, I won't misunderstand you. After all, it can equally be said that you were the one who suggested meeting with people face to face, which implies a degree to which I don't, and thus need to hear that advice. So "I was just answering that in my own way". What you were trying to say, and what you did say are two very different thingsI answered you defensively because your post came across as more aggressive than you probably meant it. For example ( ... )
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