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estelendur

Lux/copypasta/hatehatehate

Feb 06, 2007 23:18

There's this game called Lux that's basically Risk on a computer with a jillion different maps (not all map-shaped). I got Lux yesterday. I played it for about half of today. During Ring, when I was really tired and distracted and it was all Michael's fault, I closed my eyes and got this image of my face divided up into little country-shaped areas ( Read more... )

cool stuff, fear, games, the pretty one, emo

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limepocky February 7 2007, 13:13:26 UTC

I have absolutely no idea how to do this, because if I were in your position I would probably be doing the same thing. XD I can, however, give you mountains of e-hugs. *proceeds to do so*

estelendur February 8 2007, 00:54:00 UTC

*receives e-hugs* *returns sentiment*

leeby February 7 2007, 19:36:52 UTC

Awwwwww :(:(. I think it might get better with time, because at some point you'll probably just HAVE to interact with him, and either he'll be "hostile", in which case you'll just have to realise his hostility isn't going to kill you and maybe you'll start to get over your fear of being met in this way; or he'll be normal, which is far more likely in my opinion, and then you won't be so afraid of talking to him again. But I think a hug is a good start :D :)

estelendur February 8 2007, 00:56:13 UTC

I... I have interacted with him and he has been hostile and it has hurt. Excessively, unreasonably, so. Emphasis on unreasonable.

leeby February 8 2007, 15:42:51 UTC

That really sucks. Why would he be hostile? >:( Grr, this angers me. But didn't he used to be like that before too? Like, sometimes in a good mood, sometimes in a bad? So maybe it wasn't directed at you. But I dunno, maybe you still need some time before you can think of him as just another person, and then it won't hurt as much...:(

estelendur February 8 2007, 21:13:21 UTC

Yes, like before, and while I think I'm not a major cause of his bad moods, I seem to be the only person besides him to suffer from said moods.

I thought today that maybe this fear is worsened by resentment, and if I want to get over this thing I may need to work out how to forgive him.

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vwampage February 7 2007, 20:30:51 UTC

Ok, two things.
A) mood icon, frustrated = windows.
BEST THING EVER.

B) Willpower, sheer, undiluted, unadulterated, willpower. Force it out of yourself. It works. the mind is more powerful than you know.

estelendur February 8 2007, 00:56:36 UTC

Yes, I did notice that.

This "willpower" thing... Could you explain it to me?

vwampage February 8 2007, 01:41:09 UTC

it's not really something i can outright explain per-say, it's something that you do.
sort of telling your self that you can do something, nd it.except more so... Yelling at yourself, with force behind it. and thus making it happen rather than being empo and such.

emo-ness is the enemy. destroy it.

there is only so much that i can tell you straight off. these are things that you have to figure out and do yourself.

estelendur February 8 2007, 05:44:08 UTC

Sounds like it's time to ask Coren to come back.

... You have no idea who Coren is. Nobody on LJ has any idea who Coren is. Short version, for the time being: He's the elf who used to live in my head.