2010 was a hell of a year, you guys.
2009 was the year of progress. 2009 was a year where I had my rhythm. I wrote every morning without fail until I had completed a chapter of TEF, would take a week off, then start on either the next chapter or any birthday/gift fic I happened to work on. I was churning out complete 80+ page TEF chapters in an average of four weeks. It felt really good. It was a good year.
In 2010 I finished the beta-ready draft of ch10 in February. It is now nearly a year later and I am still working on ch10a.
2010 was a year of distractions, of constant stops and starts and upheavals that affected me way more than I expected them to. I stopped making time for myself in 2010, though it wasn't entirely my fault. Up until October I believed it had been an okay year, despite the life-drain that had started in March and just would not let up. November and December tipped the scales against my favor, and my body and brain went utterly kaput.
Apparently 2010 sucked for a lot of people. For all the suckage there was in my corner of the world, I still hesitate to write it off as a failure. But I handled some things poorly - more than anything, I failed to keep my promises to my friends (I have at least four birthday fics I've been meaning to finish, I'm so sorry they're not!) and most of all, I failed to keep my promises to myself. I felt so many times in 2010 that I was being so selfish, except clearly I wasn't selfish enough, because I still feel like the entire year cheated me out of so many things that keep me mentally healthy and happy and sane.
I'm still recovering from 2010, but I'm trying to be determined. 2011 is going to be a year of rejuvenation, completion, and closure. And if it turns out it isn't, or it can't be, then at least it can be a step towards something of the sort.
On a related and less serious note, I've determined that my next entry is going to be the last outstanding question of my Top Fives Meme. The subject? My *SIGH* TOP FIVE SEX POSITIONS. Asker, you know who you are. I HOPE YOU'RE PROUD OF YOURSELF. (I'm fairly certain you are, actually.)
I updated my profile for the first time in ages! Happy 2011, everybody! Best of luck with it. ♥
Originally posted at http://essbeejay.dreamwidth.org/75220.html.
In 2010 I finished the beta-ready draft of ch10 in February. It is now nearly a year later and I am still working on ch10a.
2010 was a year of distractions, of constant stops and starts and upheavals that affected me way more than I expected them to. I stopped making time for myself in 2010, though it wasn't entirely my fault. Up until October I believed it had been an okay year, despite the life-drain that had started in March and just would not let up. November and December tipped the scales against my favor, and my body and brain went utterly kaput.
Apparently 2010 sucked for a lot of people. For all the suckage there was in my corner of the world, I still hesitate to write it off as a failure. But I handled some things poorly - more than anything, I failed to keep my promises to my friends (I have at least four birthday fics I've been meaning to finish, I'm so sorry they're not!) and most of all, I failed to keep my promises to myself. I felt so many times in 2010 that I was being so selfish, except clearly I wasn't selfish enough, because I still feel like the entire year cheated me out of so many things that keep me mentally healthy and happy and sane.
I'm still recovering from 2010, but I'm trying to be determined. 2011 is going to be a year of rejuvenation, completion, and closure. And if it turns out it isn't, or it can't be, then at least it can be a step towards something of the sort.
On a related and less serious note, I've determined that my next entry is going to be the last outstanding question of my Top Fives Meme. The subject? My *SIGH* TOP FIVE SEX POSITIONS. Asker, you know who you are. I HOPE YOU'RE PROUD OF YOURSELF. (I'm fairly certain you are, actually.)
I updated my profile for the first time in ages! Happy 2011, everybody! Best of luck with it. ♥
Originally posted at http://essbeejay.dreamwidth.org/75220.html.