Almost farewell and a fireworks display

[erinmuse]

I'm into the sad part of any trip: getting ready to go back. Work is over. Classes are finished, and I just have my two exams this week. I've already got one suitcase more or less packed. I have a few more souvenirs to pick up and that will be that. I fly out next Monday (and, due to the vagaries of time zones, arrive a few minutes before

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[idunn]

I'm glad to see how fruitful your life has become, if that's the appropriate word. I think it is. And the fireworks sound lovely.

So, here begins the new life. Or rather, your third and final year of law school. That went quickly!

[erinmuse]

I agree, it's a good word. This has really been a banner year for me. I always figured it would go like this, though. I removed a major obstacle in my life and it's just opened everything up. I don't feel bitter about everything the way I used to. Quite the contrary, I'm feeling optimistic, even hopeful, and considering possibilities that even a year ago I figured I'd closed off forever. I'm not without my fears, of course, but I also know that I've got the hard part behind me, so no matter what, I'll be able to keep going. It's probably the best I've ever felt in my life. And that's when the good things start flowing to you, you know?

[idunn]

I'd say the good things are already flowing, from the sound of it :) I remember when things were really, really rough for you, so it makes for a startling contrast. I also think the trail you've helped blaze is going to make things a lot easier for the younger generation; you've come out of it pretty successful in a wide array of areas like education, travel, career and personal growth. It's very inspiring.

What are some of the other possibilities that only a year ago you figured were impossible? If you feel like sharing.

[erinmuse]

I think the biggie would be relationships. I'm still not entirely sanguine about the idea, but I no longer think I'm unloveable the way I did before. I guess the difference is, before I had this feeling of 'why bother?', while now I'm able to look at myself and say, you know what, I'm a reasonably attractive person (Simpsonized characatures aside ;) ) and if it's something I want to pursue, then I've got as much right as anyone to do so. And if I decide I'd rather not, that's okay, too, but it's a decision I'm owning, rather than one I feel is predetermined.