Catharsis

[eriktheplaid]

[Cross-posted from my MovableType Blog]

Yesterday hit me harder than it has in recent years. I ended up stepping out of the office and just bawling for while. This lead to a catharsis stronger than I have felt in a VERY long time.

It also posed a bit of a dilemma. I realized that sitting home in the dark, sipping Oban

Comments

[chrismaverick]

yeah, I actually knew it was yesterday. Gidge posted about it in her myspace blog and I wrote her a virtual hug. When I spoke to you online yesterday you seemed unaware of it and I kind of made the conscious decision not to remind you. Sorry. I think that in some respects its good. Its not like you're ever going to forget that you had a brother, but I think its good that you're maybe getting to the point where you just remember the good parts about him and forget the "fucking awful day."

Anyway, like I told Gidge, Craig was awesome, and obviously he meant more to you two than he did to me, but that doesn't mean I don't miss him too. So a virtual *hug* to you as well.

[stealthymonkey]

Try to look at it this way: the closest friend/family I ever had died when I was 9. I always forget the day. I have for over 2 decades now.* This is incredibly common for people. It's not the day they left that matters.

*Though, much like yesterday, I nearly always get really despondant and/or otherwise out of sorts for a few days up to, and then it strikes me what the day is...again, incredibly common.

[eriktheplaid]

Yesterday I was bowled over with grief, I wasn't really able to process.

Your comment about forgetting a date cut through all of that, at precisely a time when I could process it. And I greatly appreciate that.

Most of me realizes that this fixation with the specific day is ludicrous (especially for me, whose sense of time is fluid at the best of times) But the mind plays tricks. I know quite a few other people who have "anniversaries" similar to this one who exhibit all of the symptoms we're talking about and can't figure out why, until they realize. Once it's been named, and acknowledged, life can go on.

Because that's what life does.

*hug* I love you.

[eriktheplaid]

OHHH!!!! I knew there was something else I was forgetting in all of this.

Magnolia.

Had Olives
stuffed with anchovies
DEEP-FRIED!

It immediately made me think of you.

*hug*

[avocado_tom]

*hug*

been thinking about him a lot recently. Very odd. Hope you're well and god bless stealthymonkey and her sense of perspective.

[nickpalmer]

Heh. I too have been thinking a bunch about Craig the last week or so. I'd forgotten the date until I read this entry. There is no way that you or I or anybody that he really touched will ever forget him. He was an incredible being. *Hugs* to you.