Hunkering down

[erica_ac]

Since I was very small, I've loved Christmas - the blare of carols in stores, the family get-togethers, the snow, the food, the candles, the colors, the television specials, pageants, and concerts, the private and public rituals of the season. Decorating the Christmas tree is one of my favorite activities, and I tend to be surprised that so many

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[libwitch]

Hey, you do what you have to get yourself through. Don't do what you think you should do for everyone else. I hope that of course, you do find a sort of peace in time, but who can say if you will ever find complete peace or when?

Just take comfort in that there is still you, your health, and your husband, and well, you are not expected to be happy for anyone.

[erica_ac]

Thanks. There's a certain freedom to letting go of the expectations and just being in the moment. And it wasn't that bad, all things considered.

[shelly_rae]

Hey dearest of friends. It's so very hard. Heck I didn't have the baby and I'm angry and resentful and cranky about it I can only imagine how much worse this is for you. You are such a joyous spirit. It's one of the things that made me look at you that morning in Chicago and think--this person has stars in her eyes and love in her heart and I want her in my life. I wish I could fix everything--I'd give up all I had and am to have saved Teddy. I want to change how things are for both of us.

I know it's not something that you'd typically choose but perhaps some grief counseling is a good idea? Maybe you're already getting it, I don't know.

I do know that I want you to be able to walk warmly in deep snow, hand in hand with your philosopher and face a new year and a new world with hope, joy, and stars in your eyes--love in your heart.

All my love to you my dearest of friends.
Anon

[erica_ac]

Thanks so much. I hope things change for the better for both of us in the coming year.

Much love,
E.