It's time for EPIC FIC!!!
Holy CRAP! This is the longest fic I've ever written. It actually broke the 8000 word mark, which (for me, at least) is like WOAH. And there's aaaaangst. But there's cute, too. It's also got tart!Cody. And it's long enough that it deserves a cut. Woot! I was quite pleased with this one, probably because it's different than what I normally do. Hope you enjoy it...
A bunch of the guys had decided to go out that night after Raw, and Ted and Cody were amongst those guys. They had been sitting at the bar, talking and watching some of the guys dancing as they nursed their beers. Had being the key word. Cody wandered off, telling Ted he would be right back. That was over ten minutes ago.
Ted grabbed his beer off the bar and made his way over to the rest of the group. He found Randy allowing some girl to grind herself on him as his long time partner, John, looked on with a smirk. John himself was in a similar situation as girls vied for attention from him. Neither of them were actually paying attention to anything other than each other, which is why Randy didn’t hear Ted when he first started talking to him. “Randy,” he said with no reply. “Hey, Randy,” he said again. “Randy!” he shouted louder. When again there was no reaction from Randy, Ted grabbed his shoulders and spun him around so that they were now facing each other.
“Can I help you?”
“Have you seen Cody anywhere?”
Randy looked to John, down at the girl who had now stopped gyrating in front of him then back to Teddy. He quirked his eyebrow then answered, “Do you think I would know where Cody got off to? He’s a big boy, I’m sure he’s fine.”
“But he told me he’d be right back and that was ten minutes ago.”
“Maybe he found some hot chick and is getting himself some action,” Randy suggested. “Would that be out of the question?”
Ted quirked his head and stood there, his mouth opening and closing as he tried to think of a response. If he were honest with himself, that idea hadn’t even crossed his mind. Cody… Cody didn’t have sex, did he? Of course he had to have sex, he was 23 years old, he was attractive, people recognized him… Ted shook his head, how could he have not thought of that? “Yeah, I guess. Sorry to bother you…” he said before walking off.
At that moment, he saw Cody re-entering the bar. Cody scanned the room and he smiled when he saw Ted. He headed over towards him. “Hey, man, sorry that took so long. I wanted to get some fresh air and have a smoke. I ended up talking to someone out there and I lost track of the time. Sorry to leave you hanging like that.”
Ted looked him over and gave him a small smile. “It’s ok.” Ted laughed, then added, “Randy said you were probably off banging some hot chick.”
Cody smirked and cast a quick glance back towards the door, “Nah, no hot chicks for me tonight.” But what he didn’t tell Ted, what he couldn’t tell Ted was that the guy he had met outside had taken him around the corner of the building and sucked him off. And that the entire time his dick was engulfed in that blonde man’s mouth, as his hands were tangled in that blonde man’s hair, he was imagining another certain blonde man in his place. “How about you? Anyone catch your eye tonight?”
“Dude, you know I’m dating Kristen.”
Any trace of a smile left on Cody’s face disappeared at the mention of Kristen’s name. “Yeah, I know. I’m gonna get another drink, I think I’ll go for something stronger this time.” He sat back down at the bar and placed his head in his hands. Kristen. She was why he could never tell Ted about being gay. She was why he could NEVER tell Ted about just who he had feelings for.
“Want another?” the bartender asked him, remembering his order of a Corona earlier in the night.
“Nah, I think I’ll have some straight up Jack Daniel’s.”
The bartender grabbed a small cup and poured 1.5 ounces into it. Cody raised his eyebrow when the drink was pushed his way, noting the miniscule amount of alcohol in there. That certainly wouldn’t be enough to take his mind off of Ted. He drank it down and ordered a second, and this time the bartender poured three ounces of the amber liquid into his cup, which he again downed in a matter of seconds.
He felt someone slide into the seat next to him, and he cast his eyes in the direction of the person providing him with company up at the bar. He sighed when he saw who it was. “Hey,” he said to… oh, what was his name? He couldn’t remember the name of the man that brought him to completion outside behind the bar.
“Hey.” He leaned in close to Cody and said to him in a low voice, “I was hoping we could finish what we started earlier.”
“I did finish,” Cody said bluntly.
“There’s no law saying you can’t get off twice in one night. I know you want me. You’re the one that came on to me first, after all.”
Cody looked out over the crowd and saw Ted out with a crowd of people, laughing with Randy, having a good ol’ time, not paying any attention to him. He spun the glass in front of him several times before giving in. “Yeah, ok, let’s go.” He slid off his bar stool and followed the man outside. Whether the guy was planning it or not, Cody wasn’t going to go very far. Cody pulled him once more around the side of the building and spun the man around so his front was against the wall. “Get your pants off,” Cody demanded of him as he pushed his own pants and boxers down to his knees.
Using spit slicked fingers, he prepped the man before him, as he growled things into his ear such as, “Tell me you want me,” and the reply would always be, “God, I want you. Fuck me.” And Cody obliged. He rolled a condom on over his dick, hard once more as his brain transformed the man in front of him into Teddy. Every man he had ever fucked or been fucked by became Teddy to him, from his first time back in high school to the guy he was currently fucking. Each thrust of his dick into this man’s ass became a thrust into Teddy’s ass; each groan he received, each cry out of pleasure was from Teddy.
When he came, he had to bite on his arm when he nearly cried out Teddy’s name. He pulled out of the man, Jason, that was his name, and removed the condom. He tied it off and tossed it into the dumpster.
“I gotta get back inside,” Cody told him.
Jason grinned and turned around then pulled his pants up over his spent cock. “You could always come back to my place.”
“No, I can’t,” Cody said shaking his head. “Thanks for that, though. I’ll see you around.” And with that he went inside where he once more found a confused looking Ted.
“Where the hell did you go this time?”
“I was getting that tobacco itch again,” he lied. “I should try and quit.”
“You and Randy both.” Ted eyed him up and down and noticed how disheveled he looked. He smirked as he asked, “I thought you told me there was no hot chick tonight?”
“There wasn’t. Don’t you get it, Ted?” he began, fighting to keep his voice down. “Can’t you see it?” He nearly blurted out his feelings, he wanted so badly to tell Ted everything, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it. Even though he could feel the alcohol’s affects throughout his body, he was still able to control himself. “Ya know what? Never mind. I think I had too much to drink. I’m gonna catch a cab back to the hotel, ok?”
Ted looked confused but nodded anyway. “Yeah, sure. You’re not looking too hot, maybe a shower and some sleep would do you some good.”
“Right. Bye, Ted.”
“Later!” Ted said before he returned back to the dance floor.
Back at the hotel room, immediately after stepping through the door he began to strip down, entering the bathroom in only his boxers. He turned the water on before turning to look at himself in the mirror. He looked into his eyes and he only saw an empty shell staring back at him. Was this what he had to resort to each and every day? He sighed, knowing the answer was yes. If he wanted to keep Ted in his life he could never let him know. Sure Ted knew about John and Randy, and sure, Ted didn’t care about John and Randy, but then again everyone knew about John and Randy. And John and Randy weren’t in love with him. Cody, on the other hand, was. And he had been for a long time. He sighed, stepped out of his boxers and entered the ice cold shower.
At the bar, the rest of them were having a great time. Ted’s mind wandered back to Cody every once in a while, but nothing ever came of it. That was until they all decided to call it at night at around 3. “Hey, where’d Cody get to?” Randy asked as they all stood in the parking lot.
“He grabbed a cab back to the hotel a couple hours ago,” Ted informed him.
“What a lame ass,” a very drunk John slurred.
“He was probably just fucked out,” Randy said.
“Nah, he told me there was no hot chick tonight.”
“You sure about that? Cuz I coulda sworn I heard him when I went out for a smoke.”
Ted shrugged his shoulders. “Why would he lie about that?” he asked. In fact, why would he lie to him ever? They had been friends for so long, he always thought there was nothing they couldn’t tell each other. But, the more he thought about it, the more he realized that any time the subject of sex or girlfriends ever came up, Cody would always skirt around the topic or turn it back around on him.
“Fuck if I know,” Randy answered. “So, are you driving?”
“Yeah, I only had two beers, and that was hours ago,” Ted said, grabbing the keys. He carpooled over with Cody, John and Randy, like they normally did when they headed to a bar that wasn’t in the hotel and tonight he was playing everyone’s favourite role of the designated driver.
Once they arrived back at the hotel, John and Randy had to pry themselves off of each other as they had been all over one another in the back seat, too drunk to care if Ted was watching them. The three entered the hotel and waited for the elevator to take them up to the 8th floor. They parted ways as Ted arrived back at his room and the other two continued down the hall.
He made sure to be quiet when he entered the room. The TV was on, but he saw Cody fast asleep in one of the bed. There was a towel thrown at the foot of the bed and Cody’s clothes were in a heap on the floor. Ted looked at the figure under the covers rolled onto his side with his hands tucked under his head. He entered the bathroom and took a leak, then stepped over to the other bed where he undressed down to his boxers. He slid under the covers then grabbed the remote from the bedside table in between the two beds and shut the TV off before lying his head down on the soft pillow to sleep for the night.
Cody awoke the next day to the sound of the shower going. He rubbed his eyes, trying to wake up. His stomach growled and when he finally opened his eyes, he looked to the clock which read 10:19. The shower turned off and all the grogginess he felt one minute ago left his body when he realized just who was in that shower. He grabbed a pair of pants and a shirt and dressed in haste in order to leave the room before Ted left the bathroom. He slid his shoes on, not bothering with socks and left, not saying anything about where he was going to Ted.
When Ted heard the door open and shut, he knew Cody had left. And that just put a dent in the plan. Ted wanted to talk to Cody about what he said and what Randy had told him last night. He wanted Cody to open up to him, if only just that once. He toweled off and left the bathroom in order to grab some clothes from his bag. Once he was dressed, he picked up his cell and dialed Cody’s number. It went straight to voice mail. He hung up without leaving a message.
He didn’t know if he should wait around for Cody to come back, but he figured that could take hours, and it would be more productive if he actually went out and looked for him. He headed downstairs and was about to go out the door when the hotel restaurant caught his eye. He walked over to the room and saw a few occupied tables, but he recognized the back of Cody’s head instantly. “I’m with him,” he told the waiter and headed straight towards Cody. “Morning,” Ted said as he sat down across from Cody.
Cody looked up from his cup of coffee and shook his head. “Morning,” he retuned the greeting.
“How come you didn’t tell me where you were going?”
“Didn’t know where I was going myself,” Cody answered. “You hungry?” he asked, figuring he should at least be friendly, even though all he wanted to do was shout at Ted and tell him he was blind, because he couldn’t see that he had such a great thing right in front of his face.
“Shit yes,” Ted said. Cody handed the menu over to him, since he already decided what he wanted. He browsed the menu and decided to get an omelet. After the waiter came along and took their orders, Ted looked Cody in the eye and said, “Codeman, I think we need to talk.”
“Well, D-Bo,” Cody started, using Ted’s nickname from when they were kids, “I don’t know what there is to talk about.”
“Oh, don’t give me that bull shit, Cody. What was all that you were saying last night? And then Randy said something pretty interesting to me…”
Cody rolled his eyes. “Like I even remember what I said last night.” Of course, he remembered every word of what he said to Ted, remembered everything he did with whatever that guy’s name was, remembered the dreams he had about Ted as he slept. He knew he almost told Ted about his feelings for him, knew he almost blew his cover to shit. “And what was this Randy was telling you?”
The waiter returned with a cup of orange juice and set it down on the table and walked off. Ted’s eyes followed him, then grazed over the restaurant, noticing that there were still a decent amount of people around. “I don’t think this is the best place to talk about it.”
“Whatever,” Cody said before a silence fell between them. Randy hadn’t said anything to him, had he? Sure, Randy knew that he had a thing for Ted, but Cody never told him the extent to which it went. Randy just assumed it was a little childhood crush, but it went much deeper than that. Did Randy in a drunken rant tell Ted all about the feelings he had for him? “But, if you want to talk, I guess we can.”
“Good,” Ted replied.
There wasn’t much talking between them after that, and they were even quieter once they got their food. And once they were done and back in the room, silence washed over them again.
“I’m gonna go work out,” Cody said, heading for his bag.
“Dude, we need to talk,” Ted told him, grabbing his arm.
Cody batted the hand away and replied, “What the fuck is there to talk about? I want to go to the gym.”
“Shit, man, last night! That’s what we have to talk about!”
“What about last night!”
“When we were leaving Randy asked where you were, so I told him you had left hours before that, and he said you were probably fucked out.”
Cody’s eyes widened and he stepped back until his legs hit the drawers where his bag was laid out. “What?”
“He said he could have sworn he heard you when he went out to have a smoke. At the same time you told me you had gone out the second time around.”
“He’s full of shit, you know Randy… I told you-”
“That there was no hot chick, I know. And I couldn’t figure out why you would lie about something like that. Shit, that’s the kinda thing most guys brag about. So, how come you’re lying?”
“I was never lying.” Cody grabbed a pair of sweatpants and pushed past Ted, moving to the bathroom. He locked the door and Ted was left even more confused than he was before.
“But what about what you asked me?”
“What did I ask you?” Cody asked through the door as he changed.
“About how I don’t get it… Cody, what is it I don’t get?” he asked, his whole body in the door frame.
When Cody opened the door, he was greeted by the beautiful sight of Ted in front of him. That Ted that’s completely off limits to him, that Ted that he wants, that he needs more than air itself. “You can’t listen to anything I say when I’m drunk,” he argued, trying to push past Ted.
Ted kept Cody in the bathroom, not believing what Cody was telling him. “No, Cody, what did you mean by that?”
Cody took a deep breath, not wanting to tell Ted what he was thinking. “I don’t even remember. I think I had one shot too many.”
“Fucking hell, Cody!” Ted shouted. “Why the fuck are you acting like this?” Ted’s voice grew louder and his accent thicker as he continued to yell, “You always fucking do this!”
“I don’t know what the fuck you’re talking about, so just leave me the fuck alone!” he shouted, shoving Ted out of the way. He stormed out of the hotel room and left down the hall.
“Shit!” Ted yelled, kicking the closing door. He decided not to follow his long time friend and tag-team partner because it was obvious the younger man needed to blow off some steam, probably down in the hotel gym.
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Hours passed and there was still no sign of Cody. Ted tried calling him, but Cody had his phone turned off. There was no show tonight and they had planned on staying the extra night in order to spend their down time walking the city, but that was completely fucked at this point.
Ted had been out of the hotel for a majority of that time and only returned after having worked out and had dinner with John and Randy. He entered the room and noticed that while it had been tidied, there was no indication that Cody returned to the room. Where the fuck could he have gotten to? No sooner did he think it when he heard the sound of a key card sliding into the lock. “Where the hell have you been?”
“Out,” was the only answer he got.
“Out… Christ, Cody, out doing what?”
“Walking around… Shopping… Nothing special. We should go out again tonight.”
“Why, so you can get drunk and say stupid shit to me again?”
“You sound like my mother. No, we should go out and have fun.”
“I don’t get it. First you storm off on me like you’re all pissed off and now you want to go out?”
“C’mon, please Teddy? I don’t know what got into me this morning, but I swear, I’ve gotten over it.” He knew that wasn’t the truth, knew he could never get over Teddy, but he had to remember to keep his cool when he was around the object of his desires.
“Have you talked to the other guys about going out, too?”
“A little. I ran into John and suggested it and he said he’d be down with that. So, are you coming, or not?”
“Yeah, sure, I’ll go. But you’re not gonna ditch me again, are you?”
“No guarantees. You never know when some girl’s gonna catch your eye,” Cody added with a playful grin, although there would never be anyone, male or female, that he could possibly want more than the man standing directly in front of him.
At around 11, they found themselves at a bar, once again with a dance floor where a few people were. Cody was at the bar, wanting to get a few drinks into his system before he braved the dance floor. He kept an eye on Teddy, who would sometimes look over to him and smile. He cut off the shots at ten then made his way over towards the growing crowd. There were girls all around, some dancing with him, but he didn’t care about them. He scanned the wave of people and his eyes locked onto a tall blonde man on the other side of the dance floor.
He worked his way over and he felt the man’s eyes on him. Yet again he had to rely on a Ted substitute, and no matter how good the sex was it could never be enough for him. But he took what he could get. And he was about to get this. Cody began dancing close to him and they were soon in front of one another, their hips grinding together. And Cody couldn’t help himself, he leaned forward and placed a light kiss on the stranger’s lips. A smirk appeared on his face as the man grabbed his wrist and started to walk them back to the bathroom. But then another force was pulling him back. He turned his head around, ready to spout off to this person that he was kinda busy at the moment, but when he saw it was Ted he stopped. Ted looked completely confused, and Cody knew that Ted knew, knew that Ted had just seen him.
“Sorry, I gotta…” Cody trailed off to the guy he was about to go off with as he pulled out of his grip.
“Cody, what the hell was that?” Ted asked. Cody bit his lower lip and shut his eyes, letting his head fall forward. Ted reached a hand out and placed it on Cody’s chin, raising it up. Cody’s eyes opened, and Ted could see just how upset he was. “Hey, come on, man, let’s go.”
The two went outside and leaned against the side of the building. “I’m sorry, Teddy,” was the first thing Cody said.
“Can you please tell me what’s going on?”
Cody nodded but said, “Not here. Let’s go to the hotel.”
“Ok, but let’s tell John and Randy first since someone else will have to drive tonight. Unless we take the car back and let those two get a cab.”
“Doesn’t matter… I’ll tell them we’re taking the car.” Cody walked back into the bar and found John and Randy. “Hey, we’re taking the car back.”
“Leaving so soon?” Randy asked.
“I kissed someone… Teddy saw. Shit, now I have to tell him everything and he’s gonna fucking hate me.”
“I don’t know what you’re so worried about. You two have been friends since birth, he’s not gonna dump you just because you have a little thing for him.”
“That’s what you say. Shit, I shouldn’t have had anything to drink, otherwise I wouldn’t have kissed anyone and this fucking mess wouldn’t have started.”
“It’s about damn time this came out anyway. Just tell him and see what happens.”
“Ok, ok. Bye guys,” he said before he walked back out of the bar. He saw Ted had started the car and got into the passenger’s seat.
“Can we start talking now?” Ted asked, backing out of the spot. “And don’t tell me there’s nothing to talk about.”
“Where do you want me to start?” Cody asked.
“How about you start by telling me what was going on in that bar?”
“Teddy… I’m gay.”
“I figured that when I saw you kissing that guy.”
“It’s been going on way longer than that. That’s what I was talking about last night. There was no hot chick because there never has been. But Randy might have heard me having sex because last night I fucked some guy around the side of the bar after he sucked me off ten minutes earlier.”
Ted was shocked. How could he not have seen it before? How could he not realize that Cody was gay, or realize that all those times Cody took off on him he was off with some random guy. “And that guy tonight?”
“We were gonna go have sex in the bathroom,” Cody said point blank. “I didn’t mean to kiss him; I think it was the alcohol that made me do it. Or maybe a part of me wanted you to see.” Cody clapped his hands over his mouth after he said that. He wasn’t planning on telling Ted that much.
“What?” Ted asked him.
“Noth-”
“That wasn’t nothing.”
“Fuck… Ok, ok… Teddy, I like you. As, you know, more than just a friend. I never wanted to tell you that I was gay because I knew you’d be worried that I wanted to fucking jump you, or something. And I do. Fucking hell, Teddy, I’ve wanted you for so long now.”
“How long?” Ted wondered, his voice so quiet he didn’t know if he wanted to know the answer. He thought it would be since they started seeing each other more often, since he began coming around making the promos for their match at Night of Champions.
“I don’t know, since I was at least 16.”
Ted’s head snapped around to face Cody, his mouth wide open in shock. Cody had been carrying that around for over seven years? “Shit,” he muttered, turning his attention back to the road. “I had no idea.”
“Yeah, and I wanted it to stay that way! I don’t know what I was thinking tonight… I just don’t want you to hate me, Teddy,” Cody told him, his eyes so full of fear of rejection and a sadness the likes of which he had never experienced.
“Cody, I don’t hate you. I could never hate you. How come you never told me?”
“I told you, because it would be pointless. Even if you don’t hate me, how comfortable will you be knowing that the man sleeping in the other bed next to yours wants you? Knowing that the man sleeping in that other bed thinks about you when having sex with random guys he meets in bars? Knowing that the first time he ever had sex he thought of you?” Cody was crying now as he confessed everything to the man in the driver’s seat, the man that had for so long been Cody’s secret. “Knowing that every time he jerks off in the shower, you’re in his mind, that he pretends it’s your hand working over his dick? Knowing that he loves you…”
Teddy had already pulled into the hotel parking lot, but they just sat in the car, taking it all in. How had he never seen it before? How had he been friends with Cody for so long and never known? How was he supposed to tell Cody it could never happen? Shit, maybe it was better when he didn’t know… “Let’s go inside.”
The two exited the car and headed back into the hotel. The elevator ride was awkward as a heavy silence blanketed the both of them. When they entered their room, they sat on their beds, and Cody couldn’t bring himself to look at Ted. “I’m surprised you want to even be in the same room as me.”
“Don’t say that, Cody. We’ll figure this out.”
“What the fuck is there to figure out?” he asked jumping off the bed to his feet. He turned to face Ted and his eyes began to water once more. “Teddy, there’s nothing we can do about this. I’m gay, you’re not, I want you, you’re dating Kristen… There’s no solution to this!”
“Cody, I’m sure there’s someone else out there for you,” Ted tried to rationalize.
“No! Teddy, don’t you get it! There never has been and there never will be! Every guy I’ve ever been with has reminded me of you…”
“Tell me.”
Cody sat back down on the bed, this time on the side closest to Ted’s bed. “Tell you? About the guys I’ve had sex with?”
“Sure… Tell me about your first.”
Cody closed his eyes as he recalled the memories. “My junior year of high school… I was 16 years old and had to stay after wrestling practice to pack everything up with this kid Derek since both were mouthing off. He was bigger than me, the next weight class up, and he had blonde hair and dark blue eyes and I had been attracted to him since I joined the team. He also sat in front of me in my chem. class. Anyway, we had to stay after and by the time we had gotten everything packed away and locked up, everyone had left. All the other teams had finished their practice and we were the only two left. I had my suspicions about him; I thought he had a thing for me, and I was right. I was in the shower and he came up behind me and grabbed my dick. I turned myself around and he kissed me, and I kissed back. My eyes were shut as we kissed, but when we pulled apart, I opened my eyes, and I saw you. That’s when I knew why I was attracted to him: because he reminded me of you. From that moment on, after I turned him around and stuck my water slicked fingers into his ass, after I slammed my dick into his ass over and over, I knew I wanted you.
“The next day we stayed after practice again, this time by choice. In the shower, he got down onto his knees and blew me. When my hands were in his wet hair, I wanted to know what your hair would feel like with my hands tangled in it. I think that’s the first time I called him Teddy. I learned to control that, but it still slipped out from time to time. After the blowjob, he told me he was gonna fuck me. And I wanted him to. I knew what I did to him the day before, saw him buck and writhe in pleasure when I hit this one spot inside of him. I wanted to feel that, to know it. He stretched me out before hand, just real quick like I did to him, then he told me to wrap my legs around his hips. My back was up against the wet tiles as he slid his dick into me. Fuck it hurt, but it hurt so good. Our mouths were on each other’s again, and I was kissing you. It was your dick in my ass, it was your tongue in my mouth, it was your back I was clawing, it was your cum that came dribbling out of me.
“It was always you Teddy. Always. From that guy at the bar that I fucked to that guy you saw me kiss. Always.”
The immensity of what Cody was telling him hit him full force. And the thought of Cody imagining someone else inside of him was actually, well, him, sent a rush through Ted’s body. There was no reason he couldn’t finally be what Cody wanted him to be. He leaned forward, wrapping an arm around Cody and pressed his lips to the younger man’s. But instead of accepting it, Cody pushed him away. “Don’t you want this, Cody?” Ted asked him, confused.
“You know I do. But… Teddy, I can’t make you do that. Just… don’t do that again, please. It only makes things worse.”
“But, Cody, why can’t I? Why can’t we finally make this happen?” Ted’s voice was so soft, so comforting, but Cody still shook his head.
“No, no, NO! Teddy you have Kristen, you’re straight, you can’t fuck your life up over me.”
“Cody, what if I do want this?”
“You don’t. I know you don’t. Please don’t make this any harder on me than it already is.” Cody’s hand reached up to his lips, still able to feel the light touch of Teddy’s kiss. “I still want more, but I can’t take that.”
“What are you gonna do, then? Keep on letting random strangers fuck you in some bar’s bathroom?!” Ted shouted to him. When Cody only shrugged, something took over within him. He grabbed Cody’s shirt and hauled him up to his feet. “What the fuck is wrong with you? I’m offering myself to you! Cody, I’m giving you what you want. Just take it now, please.”
Cody stared into Ted’s pleading eyes, unsure of what to do. Why would Ted be so quick to give himself over? “Why?”
“Because I need to know… I need to know if this is what’s right for us. Because I can’t go on doing this to you. Because I like you too much to keep on hurting you. Please?”
And this time when Ted said please, Cody caved. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to Ted and his hands clutched at his shirt, pulling him in close. His tongue slipped into Ted’s willing mouth and when they came together, both men felt a spark course through their bodies. “Teddy…” Cody said, “Teddy, I need you, need to feel you.” His hands were on the hem of Ted’s shirt, wanting to pull it up to expose his perfectly sculpted torso, but he had to wait for Ted.
Ted nodded and allowed Cody to pull the shirt over his head. Cody was on him, running his hands over his stomach and his head bent forward as he licked over a nipple. “Oh, God, Cody,” Ted groaned, his head rolling back. He had never felt anything as good as this. His hands reached for the hem of Cody’s shirt, which he pulled off of the younger man. He took in the sight before him, of Cody before him bare-chested in only his jeans, and though he had seen Cody in far less, he was still awestruck.
Cody went in for another kiss, and this time their bare chests brushed together, and both were amazed by the feeling. Not to say their chests had never touched before, but there was never this kind of emotion behind their hugs in the ring. Right now they were both buzzing with emotion.
Pulling back from the kiss again, Cody reached down to Ted’s pants and fumbled with the fastenings, his own excitement impairing his basic motor skills. Ted didn’t try to bat him away and take care of things himself, though. This was Cody’s moment. In good time, Ted’s pants and boxers were at a puddle at his feet and his rock hard cock was resting up against his stomach. He toed off his shoes and kicked the rest of his clothing off to the side.
Cody’s eyes raked over Ted’s body and his heart stopped when he saw Teddy hard and leaking for him. He knelt down before Ted and instead of taking his dick in his hand, he first ran his hands down Ted’s legs. Putting a light pressure on his calf, he got Ted to raise his leg and Cody removed the sock, then repeated the process on the other leg. “You’re so beautiful,” Cody told him.
Ted was speechless. Never had anyone ever taken care of him like that. He placed a hand on the back of Cody’s head and the younger man looked up at him, his blue eyes shining. Cody then moved his head forward, taking the tip of Ted’s dick into his mouth. Cody’s senses went wild. Nothing had ever tasted as sweet as Ted, nothing had ever felt as good in his mouth, nothing had ever smelled as good as Ted, nothing had never looked so beautiful, nothing had ever sounded as wonderful as the small moans that were escaping both of their mouths.
Cody leaned forward, taking more of Ted’s cock into his mouth. His tongue was swirling around as he drew back then dove forward until the tip was hitting the back of his throat. When he pulled back, he suctioned his mouth in, providing Ted with as much pleasure as he could. Ted’s hand was tightening in his hair and he welcomed the feeling. He still could not believe that this was actually happening. After all this time, Cody finally had Ted, and it was far better than anything he could have imagined, better than any man he had had before.
This was getting to be too much for Ted, and he did not want it to end there. “Cody, stop.”
Cody pulled back immediately, casting his gaze back up. He stood, now eye to eye with Ted. Their lips met briefly before Cody said, “I want you inside me. Please Ted, please. Make love to me. Show me that all those guys were nothing compared to you.”
Ted shut his eyes, a feeling a jealousy flashing over him when Cody mentioned those other men that had fucked him. He should have been the only one. If Cody had only told him all those years ago they could have gotten together one summer, Ted wouldn’t have to be sneaking behind his girlfriend’s back to have sex with his best friend. God, was he actually about to have sex with Cody?
Opening his eyes, he saw directly into Cody’s, saw the want and need and love Cody held within him and knew that yes, yes, he was going to make love to him. He reached his hands out and placed them on Cody’s jeans, silently asking if it was ok to continue. “Please,” Cody begged.
He undid the fastenings before gently pushing the jeans and boxers over Cody’s hips, freeing his straining erection. He took in a sharp breath as he fully grasped what was about to happen. “Lie back,” Ted said.
Cody sat down on the edge of the bed, his pants and boxers still around his ankles, their removal impeded by his shoes. Ted knelt down and pulled each shoe off, placing them over to the side. The socks came next, followed by the jeans and boxers. He kissed up the inside of Cody’s leg before standing up and placing one knee on the bed to the side of Cody. Cody swallowed, then choked out, “There’s lube and condoms in my bag.” He figured that Ted would like to wear one; just knowing what Cody was doing would probably be enough to make him want to.
Ted turned around and quickly retrieved the lube and a condom. His attention was returned back to Cody who had shimmied up to the top of the bed. Cody’s head was reclined against the pillows and his body was laid out, aching for him.
Ted crawled up on top of him, running a hand over Cody’s abs as he placed light kisses around his neck. Through his kisses he confessed, “I’ve never done this before. You’ll have to tell me what to do.”
“Well, you’re doing a good job of this,” Cody told him. His arms were wrapped around Ted’s body, his hands running over his back. “But I want you inside of me. Now.”
“Ok,” Ted said. He pushed himself up and stared down at Cody. “Ok.” He moved down so he was level with Cody’s hips.
“Pick up my leg and put it on your shoulder,” Cody instructed. “Now you should put the condom on,” he said, though he didn’t want him to. He wanted to know what Ted felt like.
“Fuck it,” Ted said. He knew he should be more careful, but he didn’t care.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes,” Ted answered.
Cody smiled. “Good, because I want to feel you. God, I want to feel you. Please, please, Ted, do it now.”
“Shouldn’t I… I dunno…”
“No, don’t bother. I. Need. You.”
Ted nodded and opened the lube, squirting some into his hand. He spread it over his leaking dick, slicking himself up real well because even though Cody was begging for him, he didn’t want this to be too painful for Cody. Once he was completely coated, he asked, “You’re sure about this?”
“Fuck, Teddy, I’ve never wanted anything this much in my life.”
That was all he needed. He aligned himself with Cody’s tight entrance and oh so slowly pushed through the ring of muscle. He saw the pain on Cody’s face, so he bent down and placed a kiss on his lips. Their tongues collided as Ted continued to work his way in. He broke off the kiss once he was completely sheathed within Cody’s body. “How does this feel?” Ted asked. He knew he felt wonderful with his dick inside of Cody, the tight heat surrounding him like nothing had before.
“So fucking good,” he answered. “Better than anything I’ve ever had.”
There he went again mentioning his past affairs. “You’re mine now, Cody.” Ted pulled back, nearly all the way out before slamming back in. “Don’t bring them up again.”
Cody smiled at Ted’s words. He would gladly never speak of those guys again if it got him Ted. “I won’t. Now, God, fuck me Teddy.”
Ted’s hands roamed Cody’s chest and he then bent forward and his teeth latched onto a nipple. Cody cried out and his hands latched onto the sheets. Ted’s tongue licked the same nipple and teased it with his lips, and all the while his hips were snapping back and forth, brushing against Cody’s sweet spot.
“It’s been a long time since I’ve had sex face to face,” Cody told him.
Ted lifted his head up and paused his movements and brought himself up so his face was over Cody’s. “Why,” he asked before he began showering kisses on Cody’s face.
Cody’s hand made its way to the back of Ted’s head, winding into his hair. “It made things too… personal,” he replied, pulling Ted’s head down so their lips came together once more. “If I saw their face, I was reminded that it wasn’t you,” he added.
Ted dove back into the kiss, their tongues clashed and their teeth collided and Ted pounded into Cody’s ass. He pulled back and drove in over and over, hitting Cody’s prostate repeatedly.
They broke apart, needy for air. “Are you sure you’ve never done this before?” Cody asked.
“Not with a guy,” Ted answered.
“You’re the best fuck I’ve ever had,” Cody said to him. “I can’t believe, oh God! That you’re actually here, that it’s actually you.”
“Yeah, Cody, it’s me.” His hips continued to pull back and thrust back forward and Cody used his leg draped over Ted’s shoulder to push himself up and meet Ted’s strokes.
Both men were moaning with immense pleasure. Cody was beyond blissful, as he finally got the one thing he wanted most in life and had believed with his entire being he would never get. But there they were, and Cody smiled. His hand reached back out, sliding down Ted’s shoulder and down his chest, now slicked with a thin sheen of sweat, before he brought it back to Ted’s hair. It felt as nice as he thought it would. His hand stroked down Ted’s face, his thumb brushing his cheek.
Ted bent back down, capturing Cody’s mouth in a kiss once again. He held himself up with one arm while his other rested on the pillow as his hand gripped onto Cody’s hair, pulling lightly. Cody groaned and reached his hand down to his dick, stroking it up and down in time with Ted’s thrusts. He was leaking precum and with each movement Ted made within him, every brush against his prostate, Cody could feel his orgasm approaching.
Ted pulled out of the kiss and stared into Cody’s eyes. “I’m so close,” he told Cody.
Cody nodded and said, “Me, too.”
A few more strokes into Cody’s body sent Ted over the edge. He bucked forward, his cock buried deep within Cody’s ass. He began to come, his eyes wanting to close but Cody held his attention. The younger man’s head was thrown back, his eyes shut and his mouth wide open in a silent shout as he shot cum over both of them.
Ted withdrew his softening cock and picked up Cody’s leg and placed it down on the bed. He stared down into Cody’s now open eyes and saw a smile grow on his face. “So…” Ted said, letting the one word trail off.
“Tell me you meant what you said.”
He wasn’t sure exactly what Cody was talking about, but replied, “If I said it, I meant it.”
“Tell me again; tell me that I’m yours.”
Ted smiled now, so that’s what Cody was talking about. “You’re mine, Cody. All mine.”
“So,” Cody began, doubt still evident in his voice, “this wasn’t just a one time thing? Because I don’t think I could live with that, with knowing that we had this moment and it’s all I’ll ever have of you.”
“No, God no, Cody. I’m so sorry I never saw this before. I don’t know how I missed it, but I did. I’ve never felt anything so wonderful in my life as what we just did,” Ted told him honestly.
Cody’s smile turned into a smirk when he responded, “Just wait until I’m the one inside of you. Oh, I’ll make you feel sooo good.”
Ted felt his cock twitch at the idea. He bent forward and nibbled on Cody’s ear lobe, whispering, “I can’t wait.” He could hardly believe he had just said that. He never realized he wanted Cody like this, but now that he had done it, now he couldn’t imagine not having him.
“I love you, Teddy,” Cody told him, his hand cupping Ted’s face.
Ted was struck dumb. Did he love Cody? For so long he had loved Cody like a brother, they were best friends and it was impossible not to love Cody. But did he feel that kind of love? He smiled once more when he said back, “I love you, too.”
“I’ve never fallen asleep with someone before,” Cody said.
Ted was surprised by that. “What? But what about…?”
“Not even with my first, with Derek. While there were times when I just wanted someone to hold me, I never could do it. I didn’t want to do it with someone who wasn’t you,” he confessed.
“And now that you have me…” he trailed off again.
“I want you to hold me. I want to fall asleep in your arms. I’ve wanted that for so long.”
“Did you want to get cleaned up first?” Ted asked before a yawn escaped his mouth. Ted finally flopped down on his side and they now lay face to face.
“No, I want to sleep with your dried cum on me.” He snuggled into Ted’s arms, his head resting on Ted’s chest.
Ted wrapped his arm around Cody’s slim form, resting his chin on the top of his head. He could get used to this.
A bunch of the guys had decided to go out that night after Raw, and Ted and Cody were amongst those guys. They had been sitting at the bar, talking and watching some of the guys dancing as they nursed their beers. Had being the key word. Cody wandered off, telling Ted he would be right back. That was over ten minutes ago.
Ted grabbed his beer off the bar and made his way over to the rest of the group. He found Randy allowing some girl to grind herself on him as his long time partner, John, looked on with a smirk. John himself was in a similar situation as girls vied for attention from him. Neither of them were actually paying attention to anything other than each other, which is why Randy didn’t hear Ted when he first started talking to him. “Randy,” he said with no reply. “Hey, Randy,” he said again. “Randy!” he shouted louder. When again there was no reaction from Randy, Ted grabbed his shoulders and spun him around so that they were now facing each other.
“Can I help you?”
“Have you seen Cody anywhere?”
Randy looked to John, down at the girl who had now stopped gyrating in front of him then back to Teddy. He quirked his eyebrow then answered, “Do you think I would know where Cody got off to? He’s a big boy, I’m sure he’s fine.”
“But he told me he’d be right back and that was ten minutes ago.”
“Maybe he found some hot chick and is getting himself some action,” Randy suggested. “Would that be out of the question?”
Ted quirked his head and stood there, his mouth opening and closing as he tried to think of a response. If he were honest with himself, that idea hadn’t even crossed his mind. Cody… Cody didn’t have sex, did he? Of course he had to have sex, he was 23 years old, he was attractive, people recognized him… Ted shook his head, how could he have not thought of that? “Yeah, I guess. Sorry to bother you…” he said before walking off.
At that moment, he saw Cody re-entering the bar. Cody scanned the room and he smiled when he saw Ted. He headed over towards him. “Hey, man, sorry that took so long. I wanted to get some fresh air and have a smoke. I ended up talking to someone out there and I lost track of the time. Sorry to leave you hanging like that.”
Ted looked him over and gave him a small smile. “It’s ok.” Ted laughed, then added, “Randy said you were probably off banging some hot chick.”
Cody smirked and cast a quick glance back towards the door, “Nah, no hot chicks for me tonight.” But what he didn’t tell Ted, what he couldn’t tell Ted was that the guy he had met outside had taken him around the corner of the building and sucked him off. And that the entire time his dick was engulfed in that blonde man’s mouth, as his hands were tangled in that blonde man’s hair, he was imagining another certain blonde man in his place. “How about you? Anyone catch your eye tonight?”
“Dude, you know I’m dating Kristen.”
Any trace of a smile left on Cody’s face disappeared at the mention of Kristen’s name. “Yeah, I know. I’m gonna get another drink, I think I’ll go for something stronger this time.” He sat back down at the bar and placed his head in his hands. Kristen. She was why he could never tell Ted about being gay. She was why he could NEVER tell Ted about just who he had feelings for.
“Want another?” the bartender asked him, remembering his order of a Corona earlier in the night.
“Nah, I think I’ll have some straight up Jack Daniel’s.”
The bartender grabbed a small cup and poured 1.5 ounces into it. Cody raised his eyebrow when the drink was pushed his way, noting the miniscule amount of alcohol in there. That certainly wouldn’t be enough to take his mind off of Ted. He drank it down and ordered a second, and this time the bartender poured three ounces of the amber liquid into his cup, which he again downed in a matter of seconds.
He felt someone slide into the seat next to him, and he cast his eyes in the direction of the person providing him with company up at the bar. He sighed when he saw who it was. “Hey,” he said to… oh, what was his name? He couldn’t remember the name of the man that brought him to completion outside behind the bar.
“Hey.” He leaned in close to Cody and said to him in a low voice, “I was hoping we could finish what we started earlier.”
“I did finish,” Cody said bluntly.
“There’s no law saying you can’t get off twice in one night. I know you want me. You’re the one that came on to me first, after all.”
Cody looked out over the crowd and saw Ted out with a crowd of people, laughing with Randy, having a good ol’ time, not paying any attention to him. He spun the glass in front of him several times before giving in. “Yeah, ok, let’s go.” He slid off his bar stool and followed the man outside. Whether the guy was planning it or not, Cody wasn’t going to go very far. Cody pulled him once more around the side of the building and spun the man around so his front was against the wall. “Get your pants off,” Cody demanded of him as he pushed his own pants and boxers down to his knees.
Using spit slicked fingers, he prepped the man before him, as he growled things into his ear such as, “Tell me you want me,” and the reply would always be, “God, I want you. Fuck me.” And Cody obliged. He rolled a condom on over his dick, hard once more as his brain transformed the man in front of him into Teddy. Every man he had ever fucked or been fucked by became Teddy to him, from his first time back in high school to the guy he was currently fucking. Each thrust of his dick into this man’s ass became a thrust into Teddy’s ass; each groan he received, each cry out of pleasure was from Teddy.
When he came, he had to bite on his arm when he nearly cried out Teddy’s name. He pulled out of the man, Jason, that was his name, and removed the condom. He tied it off and tossed it into the dumpster.
“I gotta get back inside,” Cody told him.
Jason grinned and turned around then pulled his pants up over his spent cock. “You could always come back to my place.”
“No, I can’t,” Cody said shaking his head. “Thanks for that, though. I’ll see you around.” And with that he went inside where he once more found a confused looking Ted.
“Where the hell did you go this time?”
“I was getting that tobacco itch again,” he lied. “I should try and quit.”
“You and Randy both.” Ted eyed him up and down and noticed how disheveled he looked. He smirked as he asked, “I thought you told me there was no hot chick tonight?”
“There wasn’t. Don’t you get it, Ted?” he began, fighting to keep his voice down. “Can’t you see it?” He nearly blurted out his feelings, he wanted so badly to tell Ted everything, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it. Even though he could feel the alcohol’s affects throughout his body, he was still able to control himself. “Ya know what? Never mind. I think I had too much to drink. I’m gonna catch a cab back to the hotel, ok?”
Ted looked confused but nodded anyway. “Yeah, sure. You’re not looking too hot, maybe a shower and some sleep would do you some good.”
“Right. Bye, Ted.”
“Later!” Ted said before he returned back to the dance floor.
Back at the hotel room, immediately after stepping through the door he began to strip down, entering the bathroom in only his boxers. He turned the water on before turning to look at himself in the mirror. He looked into his eyes and he only saw an empty shell staring back at him. Was this what he had to resort to each and every day? He sighed, knowing the answer was yes. If he wanted to keep Ted in his life he could never let him know. Sure Ted knew about John and Randy, and sure, Ted didn’t care about John and Randy, but then again everyone knew about John and Randy. And John and Randy weren’t in love with him. Cody, on the other hand, was. And he had been for a long time. He sighed, stepped out of his boxers and entered the ice cold shower.
At the bar, the rest of them were having a great time. Ted’s mind wandered back to Cody every once in a while, but nothing ever came of it. That was until they all decided to call it at night at around 3. “Hey, where’d Cody get to?” Randy asked as they all stood in the parking lot.
“He grabbed a cab back to the hotel a couple hours ago,” Ted informed him.
“What a lame ass,” a very drunk John slurred.
“He was probably just fucked out,” Randy said.
“Nah, he told me there was no hot chick tonight.”
“You sure about that? Cuz I coulda sworn I heard him when I went out for a smoke.”
Ted shrugged his shoulders. “Why would he lie about that?” he asked. In fact, why would he lie to him ever? They had been friends for so long, he always thought there was nothing they couldn’t tell each other. But, the more he thought about it, the more he realized that any time the subject of sex or girlfriends ever came up, Cody would always skirt around the topic or turn it back around on him.
“Fuck if I know,” Randy answered. “So, are you driving?”
“Yeah, I only had two beers, and that was hours ago,” Ted said, grabbing the keys. He carpooled over with Cody, John and Randy, like they normally did when they headed to a bar that wasn’t in the hotel and tonight he was playing everyone’s favourite role of the designated driver.
Once they arrived back at the hotel, John and Randy had to pry themselves off of each other as they had been all over one another in the back seat, too drunk to care if Ted was watching them. The three entered the hotel and waited for the elevator to take them up to the 8th floor. They parted ways as Ted arrived back at his room and the other two continued down the hall.
He made sure to be quiet when he entered the room. The TV was on, but he saw Cody fast asleep in one of the bed. There was a towel thrown at the foot of the bed and Cody’s clothes were in a heap on the floor. Ted looked at the figure under the covers rolled onto his side with his hands tucked under his head. He entered the bathroom and took a leak, then stepped over to the other bed where he undressed down to his boxers. He slid under the covers then grabbed the remote from the bedside table in between the two beds and shut the TV off before lying his head down on the soft pillow to sleep for the night.
Cody awoke the next day to the sound of the shower going. He rubbed his eyes, trying to wake up. His stomach growled and when he finally opened his eyes, he looked to the clock which read 10:19. The shower turned off and all the grogginess he felt one minute ago left his body when he realized just who was in that shower. He grabbed a pair of pants and a shirt and dressed in haste in order to leave the room before Ted left the bathroom. He slid his shoes on, not bothering with socks and left, not saying anything about where he was going to Ted.
When Ted heard the door open and shut, he knew Cody had left. And that just put a dent in the plan. Ted wanted to talk to Cody about what he said and what Randy had told him last night. He wanted Cody to open up to him, if only just that once. He toweled off and left the bathroom in order to grab some clothes from his bag. Once he was dressed, he picked up his cell and dialed Cody’s number. It went straight to voice mail. He hung up without leaving a message.
He didn’t know if he should wait around for Cody to come back, but he figured that could take hours, and it would be more productive if he actually went out and looked for him. He headed downstairs and was about to go out the door when the hotel restaurant caught his eye. He walked over to the room and saw a few occupied tables, but he recognized the back of Cody’s head instantly. “I’m with him,” he told the waiter and headed straight towards Cody. “Morning,” Ted said as he sat down across from Cody.
Cody looked up from his cup of coffee and shook his head. “Morning,” he retuned the greeting.
“How come you didn’t tell me where you were going?”
“Didn’t know where I was going myself,” Cody answered. “You hungry?” he asked, figuring he should at least be friendly, even though all he wanted to do was shout at Ted and tell him he was blind, because he couldn’t see that he had such a great thing right in front of his face.
“Shit yes,” Ted said. Cody handed the menu over to him, since he already decided what he wanted. He browsed the menu and decided to get an omelet. After the waiter came along and took their orders, Ted looked Cody in the eye and said, “Codeman, I think we need to talk.”
“Well, D-Bo,” Cody started, using Ted’s nickname from when they were kids, “I don’t know what there is to talk about.”
“Oh, don’t give me that bull shit, Cody. What was all that you were saying last night? And then Randy said something pretty interesting to me…”
Cody rolled his eyes. “Like I even remember what I said last night.” Of course, he remembered every word of what he said to Ted, remembered everything he did with whatever that guy’s name was, remembered the dreams he had about Ted as he slept. He knew he almost told Ted about his feelings for him, knew he almost blew his cover to shit. “And what was this Randy was telling you?”
The waiter returned with a cup of orange juice and set it down on the table and walked off. Ted’s eyes followed him, then grazed over the restaurant, noticing that there were still a decent amount of people around. “I don’t think this is the best place to talk about it.”
“Whatever,” Cody said before a silence fell between them. Randy hadn’t said anything to him, had he? Sure, Randy knew that he had a thing for Ted, but Cody never told him the extent to which it went. Randy just assumed it was a little childhood crush, but it went much deeper than that. Did Randy in a drunken rant tell Ted all about the feelings he had for him? “But, if you want to talk, I guess we can.”
“Good,” Ted replied.
There wasn’t much talking between them after that, and they were even quieter once they got their food. And once they were done and back in the room, silence washed over them again.
“I’m gonna go work out,” Cody said, heading for his bag.
“Dude, we need to talk,” Ted told him, grabbing his arm.
Cody batted the hand away and replied, “What the fuck is there to talk about? I want to go to the gym.”
“Shit, man, last night! That’s what we have to talk about!”
“What about last night!”
“When we were leaving Randy asked where you were, so I told him you had left hours before that, and he said you were probably fucked out.”
Cody’s eyes widened and he stepped back until his legs hit the drawers where his bag was laid out. “What?”
“He said he could have sworn he heard you when he went out to have a smoke. At the same time you told me you had gone out the second time around.”
“He’s full of shit, you know Randy… I told you-”
“That there was no hot chick, I know. And I couldn’t figure out why you would lie about something like that. Shit, that’s the kinda thing most guys brag about. So, how come you’re lying?”
“I was never lying.” Cody grabbed a pair of sweatpants and pushed past Ted, moving to the bathroom. He locked the door and Ted was left even more confused than he was before.
“But what about what you asked me?”
“What did I ask you?” Cody asked through the door as he changed.
“About how I don’t get it… Cody, what is it I don’t get?” he asked, his whole body in the door frame.
When Cody opened the door, he was greeted by the beautiful sight of Ted in front of him. That Ted that’s completely off limits to him, that Ted that he wants, that he needs more than air itself. “You can’t listen to anything I say when I’m drunk,” he argued, trying to push past Ted.
Ted kept Cody in the bathroom, not believing what Cody was telling him. “No, Cody, what did you mean by that?”
Cody took a deep breath, not wanting to tell Ted what he was thinking. “I don’t even remember. I think I had one shot too many.”
“Fucking hell, Cody!” Ted shouted. “Why the fuck are you acting like this?” Ted’s voice grew louder and his accent thicker as he continued to yell, “You always fucking do this!”
“I don’t know what the fuck you’re talking about, so just leave me the fuck alone!” he shouted, shoving Ted out of the way. He stormed out of the hotel room and left down the hall.
“Shit!” Ted yelled, kicking the closing door. He decided not to follow his long time friend and tag-team partner because it was obvious the younger man needed to blow off some steam, probably down in the hotel gym.
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Hours passed and there was still no sign of Cody. Ted tried calling him, but Cody had his phone turned off. There was no show tonight and they had planned on staying the extra night in order to spend their down time walking the city, but that was completely fucked at this point.
Ted had been out of the hotel for a majority of that time and only returned after having worked out and had dinner with John and Randy. He entered the room and noticed that while it had been tidied, there was no indication that Cody returned to the room. Where the fuck could he have gotten to? No sooner did he think it when he heard the sound of a key card sliding into the lock. “Where the hell have you been?”
“Out,” was the only answer he got.
“Out… Christ, Cody, out doing what?”
“Walking around… Shopping… Nothing special. We should go out again tonight.”
“Why, so you can get drunk and say stupid shit to me again?”
“You sound like my mother. No, we should go out and have fun.”
“I don’t get it. First you storm off on me like you’re all pissed off and now you want to go out?”
“C’mon, please Teddy? I don’t know what got into me this morning, but I swear, I’ve gotten over it.” He knew that wasn’t the truth, knew he could never get over Teddy, but he had to remember to keep his cool when he was around the object of his desires.
“Have you talked to the other guys about going out, too?”
“A little. I ran into John and suggested it and he said he’d be down with that. So, are you coming, or not?”
“Yeah, sure, I’ll go. But you’re not gonna ditch me again, are you?”
“No guarantees. You never know when some girl’s gonna catch your eye,” Cody added with a playful grin, although there would never be anyone, male or female, that he could possibly want more than the man standing directly in front of him.
At around 11, they found themselves at a bar, once again with a dance floor where a few people were. Cody was at the bar, wanting to get a few drinks into his system before he braved the dance floor. He kept an eye on Teddy, who would sometimes look over to him and smile. He cut off the shots at ten then made his way over towards the growing crowd. There were girls all around, some dancing with him, but he didn’t care about them. He scanned the wave of people and his eyes locked onto a tall blonde man on the other side of the dance floor.
He worked his way over and he felt the man’s eyes on him. Yet again he had to rely on a Ted substitute, and no matter how good the sex was it could never be enough for him. But he took what he could get. And he was about to get this. Cody began dancing close to him and they were soon in front of one another, their hips grinding together. And Cody couldn’t help himself, he leaned forward and placed a light kiss on the stranger’s lips. A smirk appeared on his face as the man grabbed his wrist and started to walk them back to the bathroom. But then another force was pulling him back. He turned his head around, ready to spout off to this person that he was kinda busy at the moment, but when he saw it was Ted he stopped. Ted looked completely confused, and Cody knew that Ted knew, knew that Ted had just seen him.
“Sorry, I gotta…” Cody trailed off to the guy he was about to go off with as he pulled out of his grip.
“Cody, what the hell was that?” Ted asked. Cody bit his lower lip and shut his eyes, letting his head fall forward. Ted reached a hand out and placed it on Cody’s chin, raising it up. Cody’s eyes opened, and Ted could see just how upset he was. “Hey, come on, man, let’s go.”
The two went outside and leaned against the side of the building. “I’m sorry, Teddy,” was the first thing Cody said.
“Can you please tell me what’s going on?”
Cody nodded but said, “Not here. Let’s go to the hotel.”
“Ok, but let’s tell John and Randy first since someone else will have to drive tonight. Unless we take the car back and let those two get a cab.”
“Doesn’t matter… I’ll tell them we’re taking the car.” Cody walked back into the bar and found John and Randy. “Hey, we’re taking the car back.”
“Leaving so soon?” Randy asked.
“I kissed someone… Teddy saw. Shit, now I have to tell him everything and he’s gonna fucking hate me.”
“I don’t know what you’re so worried about. You two have been friends since birth, he’s not gonna dump you just because you have a little thing for him.”
“That’s what you say. Shit, I shouldn’t have had anything to drink, otherwise I wouldn’t have kissed anyone and this fucking mess wouldn’t have started.”
“It’s about damn time this came out anyway. Just tell him and see what happens.”
“Ok, ok. Bye guys,” he said before he walked back out of the bar. He saw Ted had started the car and got into the passenger’s seat.
“Can we start talking now?” Ted asked, backing out of the spot. “And don’t tell me there’s nothing to talk about.”
“Where do you want me to start?” Cody asked.
“How about you start by telling me what was going on in that bar?”
“Teddy… I’m gay.”
“I figured that when I saw you kissing that guy.”
“It’s been going on way longer than that. That’s what I was talking about last night. There was no hot chick because there never has been. But Randy might have heard me having sex because last night I fucked some guy around the side of the bar after he sucked me off ten minutes earlier.”
Ted was shocked. How could he not have seen it before? How could he not realize that Cody was gay, or realize that all those times Cody took off on him he was off with some random guy. “And that guy tonight?”
“We were gonna go have sex in the bathroom,” Cody said point blank. “I didn’t mean to kiss him; I think it was the alcohol that made me do it. Or maybe a part of me wanted you to see.” Cody clapped his hands over his mouth after he said that. He wasn’t planning on telling Ted that much.
“What?” Ted asked him.
“Noth-”
“That wasn’t nothing.”
“Fuck… Ok, ok… Teddy, I like you. As, you know, more than just a friend. I never wanted to tell you that I was gay because I knew you’d be worried that I wanted to fucking jump you, or something. And I do. Fucking hell, Teddy, I’ve wanted you for so long now.”
“How long?” Ted wondered, his voice so quiet he didn’t know if he wanted to know the answer. He thought it would be since they started seeing each other more often, since he began coming around making the promos for their match at Night of Champions.
“I don’t know, since I was at least 16.”
Ted’s head snapped around to face Cody, his mouth wide open in shock. Cody had been carrying that around for over seven years? “Shit,” he muttered, turning his attention back to the road. “I had no idea.”
“Yeah, and I wanted it to stay that way! I don’t know what I was thinking tonight… I just don’t want you to hate me, Teddy,” Cody told him, his eyes so full of fear of rejection and a sadness the likes of which he had never experienced.
“Cody, I don’t hate you. I could never hate you. How come you never told me?”
“I told you, because it would be pointless. Even if you don’t hate me, how comfortable will you be knowing that the man sleeping in the other bed next to yours wants you? Knowing that the man sleeping in that other bed thinks about you when having sex with random guys he meets in bars? Knowing that the first time he ever had sex he thought of you?” Cody was crying now as he confessed everything to the man in the driver’s seat, the man that had for so long been Cody’s secret. “Knowing that every time he jerks off in the shower, you’re in his mind, that he pretends it’s your hand working over his dick? Knowing that he loves you…”
Teddy had already pulled into the hotel parking lot, but they just sat in the car, taking it all in. How had he never seen it before? How had he been friends with Cody for so long and never known? How was he supposed to tell Cody it could never happen? Shit, maybe it was better when he didn’t know… “Let’s go inside.”
The two exited the car and headed back into the hotel. The elevator ride was awkward as a heavy silence blanketed the both of them. When they entered their room, they sat on their beds, and Cody couldn’t bring himself to look at Ted. “I’m surprised you want to even be in the same room as me.”
“Don’t say that, Cody. We’ll figure this out.”
“What the fuck is there to figure out?” he asked jumping off the bed to his feet. He turned to face Ted and his eyes began to water once more. “Teddy, there’s nothing we can do about this. I’m gay, you’re not, I want you, you’re dating Kristen… There’s no solution to this!”
“Cody, I’m sure there’s someone else out there for you,” Ted tried to rationalize.
“No! Teddy, don’t you get it! There never has been and there never will be! Every guy I’ve ever been with has reminded me of you…”
“Tell me.”
Cody sat back down on the bed, this time on the side closest to Ted’s bed. “Tell you? About the guys I’ve had sex with?”
“Sure… Tell me about your first.”
Cody closed his eyes as he recalled the memories. “My junior year of high school… I was 16 years old and had to stay after wrestling practice to pack everything up with this kid Derek since both were mouthing off. He was bigger than me, the next weight class up, and he had blonde hair and dark blue eyes and I had been attracted to him since I joined the team. He also sat in front of me in my chem. class. Anyway, we had to stay after and by the time we had gotten everything packed away and locked up, everyone had left. All the other teams had finished their practice and we were the only two left. I had my suspicions about him; I thought he had a thing for me, and I was right. I was in the shower and he came up behind me and grabbed my dick. I turned myself around and he kissed me, and I kissed back. My eyes were shut as we kissed, but when we pulled apart, I opened my eyes, and I saw you. That’s when I knew why I was attracted to him: because he reminded me of you. From that moment on, after I turned him around and stuck my water slicked fingers into his ass, after I slammed my dick into his ass over and over, I knew I wanted you.
“The next day we stayed after practice again, this time by choice. In the shower, he got down onto his knees and blew me. When my hands were in his wet hair, I wanted to know what your hair would feel like with my hands tangled in it. I think that’s the first time I called him Teddy. I learned to control that, but it still slipped out from time to time. After the blowjob, he told me he was gonna fuck me. And I wanted him to. I knew what I did to him the day before, saw him buck and writhe in pleasure when I hit this one spot inside of him. I wanted to feel that, to know it. He stretched me out before hand, just real quick like I did to him, then he told me to wrap my legs around his hips. My back was up against the wet tiles as he slid his dick into me. Fuck it hurt, but it hurt so good. Our mouths were on each other’s again, and I was kissing you. It was your dick in my ass, it was your tongue in my mouth, it was your back I was clawing, it was your cum that came dribbling out of me.
“It was always you Teddy. Always. From that guy at the bar that I fucked to that guy you saw me kiss. Always.”
The immensity of what Cody was telling him hit him full force. And the thought of Cody imagining someone else inside of him was actually, well, him, sent a rush through Ted’s body. There was no reason he couldn’t finally be what Cody wanted him to be. He leaned forward, wrapping an arm around Cody and pressed his lips to the younger man’s. But instead of accepting it, Cody pushed him away. “Don’t you want this, Cody?” Ted asked him, confused.
“You know I do. But… Teddy, I can’t make you do that. Just… don’t do that again, please. It only makes things worse.”
“But, Cody, why can’t I? Why can’t we finally make this happen?” Ted’s voice was so soft, so comforting, but Cody still shook his head.
“No, no, NO! Teddy you have Kristen, you’re straight, you can’t fuck your life up over me.”
“Cody, what if I do want this?”
“You don’t. I know you don’t. Please don’t make this any harder on me than it already is.” Cody’s hand reached up to his lips, still able to feel the light touch of Teddy’s kiss. “I still want more, but I can’t take that.”
“What are you gonna do, then? Keep on letting random strangers fuck you in some bar’s bathroom?!” Ted shouted to him. When Cody only shrugged, something took over within him. He grabbed Cody’s shirt and hauled him up to his feet. “What the fuck is wrong with you? I’m offering myself to you! Cody, I’m giving you what you want. Just take it now, please.”
Cody stared into Ted’s pleading eyes, unsure of what to do. Why would Ted be so quick to give himself over? “Why?”
“Because I need to know… I need to know if this is what’s right for us. Because I can’t go on doing this to you. Because I like you too much to keep on hurting you. Please?”
And this time when Ted said please, Cody caved. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to Ted and his hands clutched at his shirt, pulling him in close. His tongue slipped into Ted’s willing mouth and when they came together, both men felt a spark course through their bodies. “Teddy…” Cody said, “Teddy, I need you, need to feel you.” His hands were on the hem of Ted’s shirt, wanting to pull it up to expose his perfectly sculpted torso, but he had to wait for Ted.
Ted nodded and allowed Cody to pull the shirt over his head. Cody was on him, running his hands over his stomach and his head bent forward as he licked over a nipple. “Oh, God, Cody,” Ted groaned, his head rolling back. He had never felt anything as good as this. His hands reached for the hem of Cody’s shirt, which he pulled off of the younger man. He took in the sight before him, of Cody before him bare-chested in only his jeans, and though he had seen Cody in far less, he was still awestruck.
Cody went in for another kiss, and this time their bare chests brushed together, and both were amazed by the feeling. Not to say their chests had never touched before, but there was never this kind of emotion behind their hugs in the ring. Right now they were both buzzing with emotion.
Pulling back from the kiss again, Cody reached down to Ted’s pants and fumbled with the fastenings, his own excitement impairing his basic motor skills. Ted didn’t try to bat him away and take care of things himself, though. This was Cody’s moment. In good time, Ted’s pants and boxers were at a puddle at his feet and his rock hard cock was resting up against his stomach. He toed off his shoes and kicked the rest of his clothing off to the side.
Cody’s eyes raked over Ted’s body and his heart stopped when he saw Teddy hard and leaking for him. He knelt down before Ted and instead of taking his dick in his hand, he first ran his hands down Ted’s legs. Putting a light pressure on his calf, he got Ted to raise his leg and Cody removed the sock, then repeated the process on the other leg. “You’re so beautiful,” Cody told him.
Ted was speechless. Never had anyone ever taken care of him like that. He placed a hand on the back of Cody’s head and the younger man looked up at him, his blue eyes shining. Cody then moved his head forward, taking the tip of Ted’s dick into his mouth. Cody’s senses went wild. Nothing had ever tasted as sweet as Ted, nothing had ever felt as good in his mouth, nothing had ever smelled as good as Ted, nothing had never looked so beautiful, nothing had ever sounded as wonderful as the small moans that were escaping both of their mouths.
Cody leaned forward, taking more of Ted’s cock into his mouth. His tongue was swirling around as he drew back then dove forward until the tip was hitting the back of his throat. When he pulled back, he suctioned his mouth in, providing Ted with as much pleasure as he could. Ted’s hand was tightening in his hair and he welcomed the feeling. He still could not believe that this was actually happening. After all this time, Cody finally had Ted, and it was far better than anything he could have imagined, better than any man he had had before.
This was getting to be too much for Ted, and he did not want it to end there. “Cody, stop.”
Cody pulled back immediately, casting his gaze back up. He stood, now eye to eye with Ted. Their lips met briefly before Cody said, “I want you inside me. Please Ted, please. Make love to me. Show me that all those guys were nothing compared to you.”
Ted shut his eyes, a feeling a jealousy flashing over him when Cody mentioned those other men that had fucked him. He should have been the only one. If Cody had only told him all those years ago they could have gotten together one summer, Ted wouldn’t have to be sneaking behind his girlfriend’s back to have sex with his best friend. God, was he actually about to have sex with Cody?
Opening his eyes, he saw directly into Cody’s, saw the want and need and love Cody held within him and knew that yes, yes, he was going to make love to him. He reached his hands out and placed them on Cody’s jeans, silently asking if it was ok to continue. “Please,” Cody begged.
He undid the fastenings before gently pushing the jeans and boxers over Cody’s hips, freeing his straining erection. He took in a sharp breath as he fully grasped what was about to happen. “Lie back,” Ted said.
Cody sat down on the edge of the bed, his pants and boxers still around his ankles, their removal impeded by his shoes. Ted knelt down and pulled each shoe off, placing them over to the side. The socks came next, followed by the jeans and boxers. He kissed up the inside of Cody’s leg before standing up and placing one knee on the bed to the side of Cody. Cody swallowed, then choked out, “There’s lube and condoms in my bag.” He figured that Ted would like to wear one; just knowing what Cody was doing would probably be enough to make him want to.
Ted turned around and quickly retrieved the lube and a condom. His attention was returned back to Cody who had shimmied up to the top of the bed. Cody’s head was reclined against the pillows and his body was laid out, aching for him.
Ted crawled up on top of him, running a hand over Cody’s abs as he placed light kisses around his neck. Through his kisses he confessed, “I’ve never done this before. You’ll have to tell me what to do.”
“Well, you’re doing a good job of this,” Cody told him. His arms were wrapped around Ted’s body, his hands running over his back. “But I want you inside of me. Now.”
“Ok,” Ted said. He pushed himself up and stared down at Cody. “Ok.” He moved down so he was level with Cody’s hips.
“Pick up my leg and put it on your shoulder,” Cody instructed. “Now you should put the condom on,” he said, though he didn’t want him to. He wanted to know what Ted felt like.
“Fuck it,” Ted said. He knew he should be more careful, but he didn’t care.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes,” Ted answered.
Cody smiled. “Good, because I want to feel you. God, I want to feel you. Please, please, Ted, do it now.”
“Shouldn’t I… I dunno…”
“No, don’t bother. I. Need. You.”
Ted nodded and opened the lube, squirting some into his hand. He spread it over his leaking dick, slicking himself up real well because even though Cody was begging for him, he didn’t want this to be too painful for Cody. Once he was completely coated, he asked, “You’re sure about this?”
“Fuck, Teddy, I’ve never wanted anything this much in my life.”
That was all he needed. He aligned himself with Cody’s tight entrance and oh so slowly pushed through the ring of muscle. He saw the pain on Cody’s face, so he bent down and placed a kiss on his lips. Their tongues collided as Ted continued to work his way in. He broke off the kiss once he was completely sheathed within Cody’s body. “How does this feel?” Ted asked. He knew he felt wonderful with his dick inside of Cody, the tight heat surrounding him like nothing had before.
“So fucking good,” he answered. “Better than anything I’ve ever had.”
There he went again mentioning his past affairs. “You’re mine now, Cody.” Ted pulled back, nearly all the way out before slamming back in. “Don’t bring them up again.”
Cody smiled at Ted’s words. He would gladly never speak of those guys again if it got him Ted. “I won’t. Now, God, fuck me Teddy.”
Ted’s hands roamed Cody’s chest and he then bent forward and his teeth latched onto a nipple. Cody cried out and his hands latched onto the sheets. Ted’s tongue licked the same nipple and teased it with his lips, and all the while his hips were snapping back and forth, brushing against Cody’s sweet spot.
“It’s been a long time since I’ve had sex face to face,” Cody told him.
Ted lifted his head up and paused his movements and brought himself up so his face was over Cody’s. “Why,” he asked before he began showering kisses on Cody’s face.
Cody’s hand made its way to the back of Ted’s head, winding into his hair. “It made things too… personal,” he replied, pulling Ted’s head down so their lips came together once more. “If I saw their face, I was reminded that it wasn’t you,” he added.
Ted dove back into the kiss, their tongues clashed and their teeth collided and Ted pounded into Cody’s ass. He pulled back and drove in over and over, hitting Cody’s prostate repeatedly.
They broke apart, needy for air. “Are you sure you’ve never done this before?” Cody asked.
“Not with a guy,” Ted answered.
“You’re the best fuck I’ve ever had,” Cody said to him. “I can’t believe, oh God! That you’re actually here, that it’s actually you.”
“Yeah, Cody, it’s me.” His hips continued to pull back and thrust back forward and Cody used his leg draped over Ted’s shoulder to push himself up and meet Ted’s strokes.
Both men were moaning with immense pleasure. Cody was beyond blissful, as he finally got the one thing he wanted most in life and had believed with his entire being he would never get. But there they were, and Cody smiled. His hand reached back out, sliding down Ted’s shoulder and down his chest, now slicked with a thin sheen of sweat, before he brought it back to Ted’s hair. It felt as nice as he thought it would. His hand stroked down Ted’s face, his thumb brushing his cheek.
Ted bent back down, capturing Cody’s mouth in a kiss once again. He held himself up with one arm while his other rested on the pillow as his hand gripped onto Cody’s hair, pulling lightly. Cody groaned and reached his hand down to his dick, stroking it up and down in time with Ted’s thrusts. He was leaking precum and with each movement Ted made within him, every brush against his prostate, Cody could feel his orgasm approaching.
Ted pulled out of the kiss and stared into Cody’s eyes. “I’m so close,” he told Cody.
Cody nodded and said, “Me, too.”
A few more strokes into Cody’s body sent Ted over the edge. He bucked forward, his cock buried deep within Cody’s ass. He began to come, his eyes wanting to close but Cody held his attention. The younger man’s head was thrown back, his eyes shut and his mouth wide open in a silent shout as he shot cum over both of them.
Ted withdrew his softening cock and picked up Cody’s leg and placed it down on the bed. He stared down into Cody’s now open eyes and saw a smile grow on his face. “So…” Ted said, letting the one word trail off.
“Tell me you meant what you said.”
He wasn’t sure exactly what Cody was talking about, but replied, “If I said it, I meant it.”
“Tell me again; tell me that I’m yours.”
Ted smiled now, so that’s what Cody was talking about. “You’re mine, Cody. All mine.”
“So,” Cody began, doubt still evident in his voice, “this wasn’t just a one time thing? Because I don’t think I could live with that, with knowing that we had this moment and it’s all I’ll ever have of you.”
“No, God no, Cody. I’m so sorry I never saw this before. I don’t know how I missed it, but I did. I’ve never felt anything so wonderful in my life as what we just did,” Ted told him honestly.
Cody’s smile turned into a smirk when he responded, “Just wait until I’m the one inside of you. Oh, I’ll make you feel sooo good.”
Ted felt his cock twitch at the idea. He bent forward and nibbled on Cody’s ear lobe, whispering, “I can’t wait.” He could hardly believe he had just said that. He never realized he wanted Cody like this, but now that he had done it, now he couldn’t imagine not having him.
“I love you, Teddy,” Cody told him, his hand cupping Ted’s face.
Ted was struck dumb. Did he love Cody? For so long he had loved Cody like a brother, they were best friends and it was impossible not to love Cody. But did he feel that kind of love? He smiled once more when he said back, “I love you, too.”
“I’ve never fallen asleep with someone before,” Cody said.
Ted was surprised by that. “What? But what about…?”
“Not even with my first, with Derek. While there were times when I just wanted someone to hold me, I never could do it. I didn’t want to do it with someone who wasn’t you,” he confessed.
“And now that you have me…” he trailed off again.
“I want you to hold me. I want to fall asleep in your arms. I’ve wanted that for so long.”
“Did you want to get cleaned up first?” Ted asked before a yawn escaped his mouth. Ted finally flopped down on his side and they now lay face to face.
“No, I want to sleep with your dried cum on me.” He snuggled into Ted’s arms, his head resting on Ted’s chest.
Ted wrapped his arm around Cody’s slim form, resting his chin on the top of his head. He could get used to this.