So, I keep saying on Twitter that I'm going to post this, and then not doing it. The truth is that I had intended to write some super deep and meaningful things about these songs and why I find them so inspirational for the fic. But actually, I think if you've been reading the story, these lyrics speak for themselves. All you really need to know is that I've always found music extremely influential in all my writing, and this is no different.
I also debated looking into finding a way to upload this mix for you guys to download, but I'm not that fond of the idea, and I don't even know if there's that much interest. If you really want the mix, let me know and I'll see what I can do. So here you go, the top ten in what has become a 35 song playlist:
1. Tidal Waves ~ Matt Duke
(full lyrics) So here's the note, the note that counts
explaining why I wanted out.
It reads in small print,
"I'm much too tired to think anymore."
So where do we go from here now?
(So really this entire song is creepily relevant to the fic. If you only look at one set of full lyrics on this list, make it this one.)
2. All Fall Down ~ OneRepublic
(full lyrics) If ever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
That's where you'll find me.
3. Don't Ask (For Too Much) ~ Matt Duke
(full lyrics) Lend me your love--oh god--I can't even feel it
I'd give up forever just to know where you are
Lend me your eyes, love, so I can see that blue sky
It's a gateway to heaven
And the stars late at night
Lend me your mind, love, so I know what you're thinking
Lend me your heart, so I know why you left
4. Carry You ~ Jimmy Eat World
(full lyrics) I'm still carrying a little hope that
Maybe things could be different now
Is that so wrong, is that so wrong, is that so wrong?
(This song has been on my Chase/Cam writing playlist for three years, but I still think it's so appropriate now.)
5. Ash Like Snow ~ Matt Duke
(full lyrics) Desperate hope
Reminds me that I'm alone
But even so
Inside I know
I will see you again
6. Dizzy ~ Jimmy Eat World
(full lyrics) If the choice was ours alone,
Then why'd we both choose letting go?
Does it end like this?
Time never had a chance to heal your heart
Just a number always counting down to a new start
If you always knew the truth,
Then the world would spin around you.
Are you dizzy yet?
7. Stop and Stare ~ OneRepublic
(full lyrics) Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
8. How to Save a Life ~ The Fray
(full lyrics) Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
(Yes, I know that this is the most overused/overplayed song ever, but seriously, look at the lyrics in this context.)
9. The Scientist ~ Coldplay
(full lyrics) Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart
(This song is and always will be my Chase/Cam fic anthem.)
10. Someone to Save You ~ OneRepublic
(full lyrics) Honesty
Is what you need
It sets you free
Like someone to save you
Let it go
But hurry now
Theres undertow
And I don't want to lose you now
And, just for fun, songs on this list that have been featured in other fics of mine: Tidal Waves, All Fall Down, Carry You, How to Save a Life, The Scientist. Bonus points if you can name all the fics. Some of them are really obvious, others not so much. Some of these songs have been used multiple times.