Top of the World 08/18
Ruki
There are many important days that come about in our life. Not your traditional things. But major events. Like when my father found out I was skipping cram school because I didn’t want to go to college. A very loaded situation.
Why did I even bother with him? Uruha was so mean with the sex. He thought it was what I wanted through. I walk into his apartment, “Uruha…”
“Don’t come in here with your clothes on.”
I sigh but still undress.
Always I feel surprised to see his naked body. He walks towards me and I think I’m just used to Reita. So it always takes a second.
“Did you get the condoms?”
I look down, “shit,” I say.
“I was at the store with Reita, and I went to grab them. He wanted to know why, so I had to put them back and pretend like I didn’t mean to grab them.”
He grabs me and shoves my chest to the wall.
“Let’s get started.”
I turn back to look as his penis is thrust inside. My eyes close. He’s lubricated but I still feel really sore. My cheek is pressed to the wall as he thrusts harder and harder. I cry out.
“This feels good, you little whore?”
His hot breath questions in my ear. He spreads my legs more almost knocking me off balance.
He pulls out and I’m thrown to the carpet.
“Spread your legs, Ruki.”
I look up at him with half lidded eyes. My legs spread as far as I can.
“You’re not hard, Ruki,” he says looking down at me.
“Masturbate for me.”
I sit up and try to at least be dignified about it, closing my legs.
He grabs my leg and I stop moving to stare up at him.
“I want to see it,” he says.
I close my legs and wrap my arms around them.
“It’s not for you to see,”
This would never with Uruha because he wasn’t Reita. I wouldn’t do that in front of him, it’s private.
Again my leg is grabbed and he takes my penis in his hand. He takes care of it himself. We finish up the sex right there on the floor. Right after he’s yelling at me to get dressed and get out.
I quickly dress, barely having time to clean myself up. He glares at me.
“Reita doesn’t know about this, you lied to me.”
He’s rushing me out of the apartment.
“Go home Ruki and don’t come back,” he says as he shuts the door.
I take my shoes off and go quietly into the house. Reita is leaning over the side table, talking on his phone. He stares at me, pausing from his conversation.
“Stay right there I need to talk to you.”
I stand there and stare down. Feeling nervous for whatever Reita will say. He sets the phone down and looks at me.
“Where have you been?”
Before I can even speak, he’s undoing my belt and discarding it. Then unzipping my pants. I move back.
“Reita, stop it.”
He pulls me forward and shoves his hand in my underwear as I struggle to move back. I feel his hand move into where Uruha’s come had leaked from me. My wrist is grabbed tightly as he pulls his hand out. Thick and slimy.
“What is this?”
I shake my head. My pants are grabbed, he pulls them off. So quickly I fall right on my back. Screaming because it burns like he’s pulled a muscle. It’s like when you wake too soon and stretch out your legs. There’s that awful pain.
He gets on the ground by me and spreads my legs.
“You’ve been sleeping with another man. Our own best friend.”
“Reita, please stop,” I beg.
I scream as he shoves his fingers in. He pulls out more of Uruha’s mess. His rough fingers scrapping my delicate insides. Tears fall from my eyes even when I feel him stop. I sit up, and it burns. My hand goes to cover myself. He’s scaring me so much today.
“Reita…”
He moves closer and I tense up.
“You disgust me,”
He climbs over me as he pushes me down forcing my legs apart. Tears fall and I won’t look at him. I’m so afraid he’ll rape me. I feel so vulnerable, half naked, below him.
“Reita…please stop.”
“Aren’t you sorry? Why aren’t you apologizing?”
“I’m sorry,” I say, my voice breaking as I look at him.
He smacks me and I try to squirm away. I catch him off guard and push him off. Quickly I get up and run into the bathroom. Locking the door before collapsing on the ground. Laying on my stomach as the tears flow freely and I can’t stop shaking. My heart is beating so fast. I can tell it’s going to happen. There’s the same feeling each time. I’m going to have a panic attack. My breathing comes in rasps and I’m scared.
He’s on the phone, I heard it ring and he’s talking. Reita what the hell happened? We were fine yesterday. I wipe my tears on my arm but they’re coming so fast. I don’t know what to do. I’m beginning to feel nauseous.
The door opens and I refuse to look. Not even when his feet come into view. I scream when he grabs my hair. So roughly, I end up on my back.
“Ruki…”
He knows I’m sure he can tell that I’m going to have an attack.
“I’m so sorry,” I say sitting up
Another slap and I cringe.
“You’re sorry? You fucking little whore.”
A loud cry escapes my mouth and I cover my face. I feel so sick.
I cough, choking on the saliva my mouth.
“I’m surprised as he pulls me to his chest. My face instantly wetting his shirt.
“Calm down,” he whispers.
He moves back leaving me alone.
“I’m leaving Ruki,”
I lay on the floor.
“Do you need something to calm your ass down or will you be okay?”
I shake my head.
“Just get out, Reita.”
Unfortunately when I tried to get up, the full extent of what he did to my back becomes apparent. I just can’t move. My bladder is swollen with hot piss. After a few minutes of trying, I realize I just can’t hold it.
I try to get my penis oriented so I can pee far from myself. Watching the floor fill up with nasty yellow. It stinks and I regret not being able to move.
“Ruki, Ruki!”
Kai’s calling me.
“Yeah, I’m in the bathroom.”
He pulls open the door and looks shocked. I’m sure he’s never seen me naked like this.
“Careful. There’s um…”
I point to the pee. He moves around it.
“Can you get up?”
I shake my head.
He helps me up, I’m glad to see that my legs work.
“Do you need the toilet or anything?”
“No, but I’ll clean that up.”
“We’re not sure if you can walk yet.”
Kai helps me out of the bathroom.
“Are you hungry?”
“No.”
He helps me to the bed. I sit on the bed, trying to be modest about my body. He grabs some underwear and pants for me. I get dressed.
“Don’t worry about the pee, I’ll clean it up,” I tell him again.
“Ruki, you can’t even walk.”
I frown and lay on my stomach. Kai rubs my back.
“I’ll give you a back massage. Aoi will be over soon, I’ll tell him to bring oil.”
Kai
I leave the room, and make a quick call to Aoi. He’s not on his way. Probably downtown shopping. I tell him to pick up massage oil.
“Ruki is worse off then Reita told us. He’s hit him, there are bruises. He must have thrown him on the ground. And his hair…”
“What about his hair?”
Reluctantly I walk to the bathroom, it’s just like cleaning up after a dog, I tell myself. Like if it’s a human’s it’s grosser.
“It’s on the floor.
“Huh?”
“Reita pulled the dreads out I guess.”
“I can’t believe him. Our Reita would do that?”
“Just hurry up, okay.”
I hang up the phone and start to disinfect the floor. The good thing about Ruki is the variety of cleaning products he has. Some I wouldn’t know what to use them for.
Aoi
There are so many thoughts in my head as Kai lets me in the house. I’m worried about Ruki.
“Who is he?”
“He’s laying down.”
I follow him into the room. I sit on the bed and rub Ruki’s head.
“Are you okay?”
“No, “ he says from the pillow.
Kai is getting ready to give him a massage.
“My hair looks like shit,” he grumbles.
My fingers massage the soft hair on his head. The part where the dreads were connected are much shorter than the rest.
“You look fine.”
“Shut-up,” he says.
I get up, “I have the pain pills, I’ll go get them.”
Ruki
Aoi’s back in the room and I’m so embarrassed. About the huge bruise on my face, the fact that they both know that he beats me. I take the pills, swallowing the bitter taste. Then gulping the rest of the water.
Kai rubs some romantic smelling oil on my back.
“Your muscles are really tense,” he comments.
“Ow…” I whine as Kai’s hands start to work. It hurts. Aoi is still rubbing my hair.
“Relax,” he says softly.
“How did you hurt your back?”
“Ah…ow…”
I bury my head into the pillow for a second.
“Reita grabbed his pants and pulled them right off when he was standing. Ruki fell right on his ass,” Kai explains.
Tears fall from my eyes, thinking about what just happened. I cry lightly into the pillow. Aoi leans back against the headboard. He’s staring around the room. It’s strange having Kai touch my body, he’s kneading up my back.
“Tell me if it hurts too much.”
I try to stop crying, hoping Aoi hasn’t noticed. He’s moving closer, and soon he’s rubbing my head.
“You know, you don’t have to be embarrassed. This happens to people, abusive relationships.”
It only makes me cry more. It’s becoming impossible to be quiet. My loud cries are audible to the others in the room. Aoi gasps and Kai moves his hands back.
“Ruki…”
“I love Reita and I don’t want it to be like this,” I choke out.
“What did you say to him?” Kai whispers harshly above my head to Aoi.
“Nothing,” Aoi defends himself.
I bury my head more into the pillow.
“Ruki are you alright?” Kai asks sounding worried.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
“Ruki, it’s okay.”
“Don’t cry,” Aoi says.
I sit up and wipe my eyes.
Kai
I can’t stand seeing him like this. I pick up some tissues and start to wipe his tears. I hush him and try to calm him. The tears stop for a second but his eyes are still filling up. I kiss his cheek,
“Shh, Ruki, you’re alright.”
I hug him and he’s still shaking. I look back at Aoi and mouth at him.
“What should we do?”
Aoi moves closer and hugs Ruki too.
“Come on, let’s get this oil off you and we’ll have dinner,” Aoi says.
Ruki is showering while Aoi and I decide on dinner. There’s tons of groceries and I want to cook.
“It’s been a long day, are you sure you want to cook?”
Cooking has always made me feel better. If I’m stressed, it’s relaxing. Ruki is.
a handful right now. The band could be in danger if Reita and Ruki can’t get along. I don’t want this to happen. This is our dream. We’ll do anything to fix it.
I pull meat from the refrigerator. And then look for some vegetables and rice.
“Aoi, will you set up the rice cooker?”
“Are you sure you don’t want to order out?”
“Cooking will make me feel better.”
“What did Reita say when he called you?”
I stare at him, stopping my fork halfway. Wondering what I should say.
“He said you two had a fight. He was worried about you but too angry to go back and check himself.”
“What does that mean for us, then?” Ruki asks, and I now it’s not meant towards me. He’s just talking to himself.
“How am I supposed to fix this?”
“Why did he get so mad?” Aoi asks.
Ruki’s demeanor changes and he looks down.
“He didn’t tell you?” he asks me.
I think back to Reita calling Ruki a whore, and a worthless slut, and whatever else came from his mouth. I think I have a pretty good idea of what happened.
“No.”
“I’ve been sleeping with Uruha.”
“What? Why the hell would you do that?” Aoi says not wasting a minute on being sympathetic.
“Because no matter what I did after that thing, Reita kept calling me a slut or a whore. And I liked having sex with Uruha, so I didn’t want it to stop. I lied to him and told him Reita didn’t mind. Then when he found out that I had lied, he… he became really mean during our sex. Then he kicked me out and called Reita so he’d know before I got home. Then…then Reita…”
Ruki stops and starts to get upset again.
“Aoi! Why did you ask him?” I says feeling angry before I turn to Ruki. “Don’t cry.”
“You’ve got yourself into a bad spot,” Aoi comments.
It’s probably better for the two to separate. There’s no reason to stay together if Reita’s going to beat him.
“You can only apologize and try to show him that you’re trying to improve.”
“Do you really think Reita will come back? You’ve broken trust,” Aoi throws at him coldly.
Is he trying to undo everything I say?
“I know Aoi, and I’m sorry.”
“I’ve wasted my time here. You brought this upon yourself,” Aoi says getting up. “You know how I felt about this and maybe you are a fucking little whore,”
The brunette leaves the house, not bothering to say anything to me. I start to clean up the kitchen for Ruki. He’s still at the table looking upset.
Once everything is cleaned, I lean against the counter. I watch him, not knowing what to say. He never should have slept with Uruha. There isn’t a clear way to fix this.
“Ruki, I have to go make sure Aoi is alright.”
“But what about me?”
“I’m sorry Ruki, you shouldn’t have pissed off the people you did,” I say sounding a little cold. Letting him know how much we disapprove of his actions.
“I don’t want to be alone,” he cries as he puts his head on the table.
“Sorry, I’ll call you later,” I say before leaving the apartment.
Ruki
I feel much calmer later on. But I’m not ready to sleep. I just snack on some food and watch TV. Even when I became very tired, I just stayed on the couch. I tried to sleep but eventually it became too uncomfortable. So I finally get up and wander to the bedroom.
I couldn’t sleep well. Not at all. I kept getting up to see if Reita came home. So much I wished he would. Just like the other day. Unable to stop myself each time I checked.