That I've let all these years go by
WastedFinally back in Nashville. I've been meaning to write a blog since Warped Tour ended but there is so much going on in my head that the task seemed too large ( Read more... )

Ive been playing around with designs for a new business card. I already have my cards from my job at Bluesboro, but here's some new ideas. OPINIONS PLEASE!


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So. I quit my job. I actually feel great about it. (the panic of no income and incoming bills hasn't set in yet.) it was a long time coming, I just thought it wouldn't be this soon. But that job was not good for me, I think it's half the reason why I've been so depressed lately. I wasn't happy there and I am a firm believer if something is making ( Read more... )

I hate that I still make an effort to talk to him. I feel like if there was no reason to stay in touch, then we wouldn't. So, why are we? Nothing will ever ever happen. I'm too shy and he's too stupid. Plus he had his chance and he missed it. Though, it still pains me to remember the frustrated sigh from him when I wouldn't listen. Maybe if I would ( Read more... )

Blanket of Ghosts ( Read more... )

Do you ever just wake up sad? Weird I know. But I swear this morning I woke up crying/tears in my eyes. If I didn't have to go into work tonight and get things rolling for the band battle I would still be in bed. I guess it had something to do with my dreams. Every once in a while I still dream about Andrew, not about his death. But I dream that he ( Read more... )

I hate birthdays I really do. and its not even because you get older and you feel old, blah blah blah. Maybe its because mine is 2 days after Christmas and no one ever remembers, ever. Its the worst feeling in the world. I wish I didn't care if no one called and said "Happy Birthday" but I do.

I've been having such a great time since I've arrived in St. Louis on Friday. Its been parties, friends, and fun ( Read more... )

its hard to not feel like a failure when you graduate. i know you reading this (all 2 of you) think I am crazy and everyone thinks "you finished your degree thats such something to accomplish" well thats not how i feel. with every exit loan paperwork i fill out i hate coming to that question "prospective employer?" Yeah, don't have it. Unless you ( Read more... )

I'm about 3 threads from a nervous break down. Seriously I want to run away and start over. Between work, graduating, the holidays, the preverbial black hole in my heart and just EVERYTHING I want to crawl in a cave and never see the light of day again ( Read more... )