The Bucket List was a great movie.  Granted I've had my list for a while and have knocked off a couple of things, it really motivated me.  I don't have any certain time limits, so I can get as much done as I'd like.  And after looking at my list, it seems daunting since so much of it is so far from what I've done and what I know.  I know of at ( Read more... )

There are just some days where it's nice to sleep in late, wake up and just pamper myself all day.  Do whatever I want and get what I want for the entire day.  I love those kind of days..  Today just seems to be one. :)  It makes me so happy.  I just want to be me today and love myself.   I love today..  Happy freaking New Year everyone :D

I guess I really messed up this time.

I should learn to stop saying everything that pops into my stupid little head, it's really not that smart or healthy.  I really hurt someone today and I feel like total crap about it.  I suck.

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I feel strange.  Like almost out of body kinda stuff.  I just don't like feeling strange.  I can't feel strange, I don't want to and I refuse to.  This is so weird.  Like realizing suddenly that I grew a third leg.   I feel like everyone can see through me and it's strange.

I feel so strange about all this.

so i went and bought a new outfit to go to the gay club.  and got hit (and run off on) on the way there. ( btw, a week old freaking car!)  and then i finally got to the club.  bought a drink.  bob started hitting on me and i said no.  immediately after i said no, he's making out with a freaking MALE (gay club remember)  ...   i freaked out.  none ( Read more... )

I want to mean something to someone..

I want someone to treat me like I matter to them.

I want to matter.

Make me matter.

I was told indirectly today that I'm too attached ( Read more... )

I am a doormat.  I have finally realized how gullible and easy I am to fool.  I believe anything people say and give in way too quickly.  That's probably why I am officially one of the worst sales reps right now.  I don't press people enough, if they say they have no money, then ok, that's cool with me..  Or pretty much anything Adam says, I ( Read more... )

1. Exciting moment - Seeing people
2. Crappo moment - Reminscing about the past..
3. Silliest moment - Umpa Loompa Dance and my Rice (www.freerice.com)
4. Favorite food - Fat Mo's
5. Tomorrow's wishes - I hope my doctor appointment is fairly cheap :(

I hate thinking about the past.  It makes me miss things so much.  And I can see how much better off ( Read more... )