Long Time Gone...

[empressjolie]

Wow, it feels like it's been forever since I've posted on LJ. But I'm really, really glad to be back. :D

So...I was having a discussion with situationgirl the other night about getting older and how, for some people, that means letting go of drinking or smoking or doing drugs. People aren't always anti- those things, but they just chose to stay away. Or they

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Supercool.

[situationgirl]

Yeah, sometimes I still want to be supercool. (Like this one of my new userpics.)

You know the fantasy of having the right job that gets you the right money, with the right clothes and everyone adores you? I still have that fantasy, and sometimes I still get upset that life isn't working in that direction. But just today, (I went to work sick, cause we were short-handed) I was thinking that my life might not always be cool, but it's a lot cooler now than it was five years ago. And I think it's good I can still remember that when I'm sick.

Also, I was realizing that I don't want to escape anymore. I'm at a place in life where I could get drunk (but not stone drunk) on a weeknight, then smoke up, and go to work in the morning without fear of being fired. The thing is, I don't want to. Five years ago I wanted the hell out, and I have--or would have--done nearly anything to escape, even temporarily.

So what does it all mean? I still have no clue, but I'm starting to (maybe) be okay with that, too.

[anami]

I remember pretending to be drunk in Moore Hall. Those were some good times. I feel like I still have a lot of fun though. I mean, I have to work, and money stresses me out, and I worry about people sometimes, but on the whole, I've still made time for playing.

Joe and I took a road trip to visit a friend not that long ago, and we spent about 3 hours straight, just telling a story to each other. He was asking about how it is you really plot something, and then we just started making up a story and feeding off each other, exploring this plot we were creating. "No that can't happen it would be too predictable, how about there's a secret message hidden in a donut..." We just imagined stuff together.

I really like the memory of our pseudo-drunkenness because we were all essentially saying, fuck actually getting wasted, we can just imagine it. When you have people who'll let their imaginations play with yours, you're pretty fucking lucky. You're creating something. It is hard to think of anything that makes me feel more

[jennhillier]

Helena! I've missed you! I'm back on LJ too!!

And yes. I understand. It's funny hey? We spend our live in the process and race to grow up, but growing up is a seriously sad thing. You move away from the things you did. Responsibilities change and grow, and life gets a little harder and more serious.

But good things come of it too. You make new memories, new friends. You find new ways of having fun and being happy. Me? I'm going to be a teacher. Who knows. Maybe I'll bomb at it, but the change is definitely exhilarating, frightening and thrilling all at once.

:) ♥