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[emperor_cowboy]

[So it's a bright sunny mid-morning at the 1247 Williams house... and Hol Horse has eventually come to drag himself out of bed. He's not a morning person, that much is obvious... and as he gets himself dressed for the day, there's a knock at the door. ... and refusing to check on it, there's another! Eventually, fully dressed and ready for the

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[chaoschildofgod]

[Oh he's just going to watch you for a few minutes, before finally greeting Hol]

I see you are still around as well.

[chaoschildofgod]

[Whatever Hol may have been expecting, chaos actually gives him another very gentle smile]

You say you can't change, even if you wish, and yet it bothers you. Isn't it more likely that you just don't know where or how to start?

[chaos then moves a little closer to the horse, careful not to spook it and curious to see it's reaction to him.]

And what would I change? You killed me, but I have no intent to take vengeance on you. I won't ever intend that by my own free will.

[emperor_cowboy]

[He thought about it for a moment... and looked over as he approached. The horse didn't seem to be bothered by him... in fact, he looked up and over to who had come closer... and watched for a few minutes before going back to idly munch at the grass.]

... Alright, so let's say I haven't changed, and I killed ya on the spot. Then what?

[chaoschildofgod]

[chaos seems at least pleased the horse isn't mean towards him, though he knows he tends to have a decent relationship with animals. However, Hol's question merely gets chaos to look over at the man seriously.]

Do you intend to?

[emperor_cowboy]

... I guess not. Got no real reason to.

[chaoschildofgod]

[chaos slowly reaches out to attempt to stroke the horse's muzzle]

You aren't completely a bad person. So why do you seem to believe you are?

[emperor_cowboy]

[The horse doesn't seem to mind... in fact it seems to push further into chaos's hand.]

Guess I got a bad reputation... 'nd I should stick to it.

[chaoschildofgod]

[chaos strokes gently at the horse's muzzle, staying quiet for a while. Whatever he said next he knew he had to be a bit careful about. So, after a bit of time, chaos speaks.]

What is it you really want, though? Do you want to be the person people hate, or do you want them to at least look at you as if you are a decent person? And don't answer about your reputation, or how it's always been one way - what is it you want?

[emperor_cowboy]

[Sadly... chaos may have not been expecting such a reaction. Hol was now struggling with the thoughts that ran through his head about the man he was and the man he was becoming. Never once did he think about such things... and his memories were slowly all drawing back to Dio... No one ever asked him about who he wanted to be.

Were the recent actions of regret and concern for others based on the person he might've been? Or was he simply pretending to be someone he wasn't?

The horse seemed to look over at the now frozen man.]

[chaoschildofgod]

[chaos actually expected any one of many actions. Each person reacted differently when faced with such a question. After all, being faced with defining oneself was never an easy matter; it was always easier to be defined by someone else.]

[The fact Hol stopped, however, told chaos that the mean seemed at least to actually be thinking, rather than reacting immediately. If it had been another, say Albedo from his own time, chaos could have potentially expected a reaction that was violent. But it wasn't.]

[Withdrawing his hand from the horse, chaos watches Hol, awaiting whatever answer he gives.]

[emperor_cowboy]

[Hol reacts strangely... balling his hands into fists, his body quivering with rage. The horse seems to be upset with this...]

I... I...

[Why was it only chaos who had seen him crumble? Why couldn't it have been at least one of his house mates? He was so nervous around them... he wanted no harm to come to them, yet he was always the cause of it. Every time he had managed to gain a step of trust from them, he somehow turned around and took it away without meaning to.]

[chaoschildofgod]

[Blue eyes merely observed the reaction, bearing no judgement within them. In fact, one would almost say chaos felt nothing, except a small, patient smile played on his lips and his eyes showed that he was indeed awaiting whatever answer he was given.]

[emperor_cowboy]

[Hol was upset with things. With himself. With those around him. He had been in the town too long. He was beginning to lose who he used to be.]

I ... am...

[A servant to Dio? No, that wasn't right either. He was his own person! No... he was a coward... it was better to be number two rather than number one. Only why could he NOT convince himself of this now? Had he really been living a lie?]

[chaoschildofgod]

[chaos still just patiently waits. This is something he will not answer, nor provide words for, since it is an internal thing.]

[emperor_cowboy]

[Sadly... The Emperor is summoned, and the horse seems to react, by rearing on its legs.]

[chaoschildofgod]

[chaos' body actually shifts, tensing up as he is still quite capable of seeing the gun with his powers, due to what it is. It isn't as if he truly fears death, but it isn't something he exactly wishes to explain, either.]