to katie and emily.
i hope you get the cryptic part of this message.
you both thought something was a bad idea.
emily--you asked me about it at dinner when we were at tequilla grande.
katie--you asked me about it today online.

just to let you both know, it's not happening anymore.

"You're going to rejected until you find the right one. That's why they call it THE ONE and not THE TWENTY!"

how true.
i can't believe i just quoted something from true life on mtv.
but it's true.

this sucks.

two things i completely believe it.
1) just because it isn't right RIGHT now, doesn't mean it won't be right later.
2) just because two people don't work as a couple, doesn't mean they can't work as friends.

my heart physically hurts right now. it hurts so bad.

"i don't care"

i hate those friggin words.
i absolutely hate them.

so it's difficult to help someone when you don't know how to help them.
it's difficult to do the right thing, whether it be stay with them or walk away and leave them alone, when you don't even know whats wrong.
i guess the best thing to do is just leave them alone.
hopefully they will talk when they feel like it.
hopefully they will include you when ( Read more... )

this sucks. i really miss the friendship we once had ( Read more... )

hear that?

listen closely.....

.....it's my heart breaking.

yesterday was a great day.

i finally figured it out.
i have a secret.
and i'm gonna send it.

he makes me smile. every day. :)