i want to be choked
until i cant breathe
until the trail of shit and decay
that is my life
ceases to be

i know that ive done this
that ive caused it all
its all my own doing
my miserable downfall

the words fall onto paper
like blood on the floor
i fall into my casket
i am no more

I spent last night drinking by myself and watching online porn. Then I woke up today to find hat the car I borrowed from my brother had a flat tire, which i had to change in the rain. I have to work tonight, AND on Halloween. Haven't done anything haunted, haven't done anything fun. Oh, and did I mention that my car is totalled? Cause it is. ( Read more... )

That's all really.

Beyond watching eyes
With sweet and tender kisses
Our souls reached out to each other
In breathless wonder

And when I awoke
From a vast and smiling peace
I found you bathed in the morning light
Quietly studying
All the messages on my phone

is a temporary solution to a permanant problem.

I'll start writing in here again. No one really uses em anymore, so it'd kinda be like writing in a real journal but less gay. Plus I think Samantha would be psyched. Hi Sam. Just figured I'd say hi cause you're probably the only person that will read this. Well, we'll see.

I still love you.

I am the worst live journaler ever.

I'm a scum bag.

Also, I pwned my auditions.