So,...I'm going to fail Pre-al for the year...yeah..I don't know the exact emotion I'm feeling right now but pissed and REALLY upset are in there somewhere. I think things just went complete and utter shit.

So in two months it will be a year...i dont know how to feel. Im not upset though, so i suppose thats good. Im really doing well on my own even if in the past year or so there hasnt been a day when i didnt think about it. Theres been so many emotions that i have felt all because of 1 day. If that day never happened i dont know what i would be like ( Read more... )

being faced with what I'm faced with I feel
like i can't rock
like a rock hit my heart
started to chain the day
and exploded into pieces

marry me
stay the same
lie to me and try to say you never will

I've got a feeling in my gut now fills me
with so much hope
said fuck it I'm fine
dine and dashed
the pianist peddled into morning

ok well, i hate computers. ill start this entry off with that, its the only thing im postive of. when i clicked the update button i knew what i should type and what im going to type are drastically different, i guess i had the intentions of explaining things. my feeling and emotions...shit like that but i dont want to. for me livejournal isnt to ( Read more... )

our days are running thin ( Read more... )

I dont know what to say or how to put my emotions into words but, all i know is that i feel like complete shit and right now i think i just need to figure myself out. Everythings falling apart. Everyday the memories choke at me...im fighting back the tears and i know i could just smoke it all away...

So, last night i got really fucked up. Yeah, and i didnt want to get that fucked up, but i had a good night. It was so fucking weird. I dont know its all this big confusion and all i can remember is like really cool and shit. I really think im turning into a stoner. Is that bad?

I rolled my first joint and i didnt have any papers so, i ripped a sheet of of the bible. Is that fucked up? I dont know i think im smoking knowledge! lol But last night i had a joint rolled in bubble gum flavored paper its was so fucking great, then i smoke so more and took a zan bar OMG, it was a great fucking night!

well, after a while of thinking, ive come up with a lot i guess for the past year or so ther is one aspect of my life that upsets me often more than the others and its been really hard coming to terms with it and i had to accomplish something or just be miserabe forever, so i thought and smoked and thought and smoked and thought somemore and i ( Read more... )

and i give up forever to touch you cause i know that you feel me somehow youre the closet to heaven that ill ever be and i dont wanna go home right now and all i can taste is this moment and all i can breathe is your life and sooner or later its over i just dont wannna miss you tonight and i dont want the world to see me cause i dont think that ( Read more... )