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Title: All I Wanted Was You
Author: Emma emmameatsix
Pairing: Jalex
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Alex had fucked Jack over one too many times. He had abandoned him years ago. But no matter how often Jack tells himself he doesn't need him, or that he'll never forgive him, it becomes quite obvious that is a lie.
Disclaimer: Never happened. Title is from All I Wanted Was You - Paramore and cut from Blood, Sex & Booze - Green Day.
A/N: Um this isn't too bad but if you're like me and you love Josh you're not gonna like the next couple chapters sorry. Before anyone asks, no, he doesn't die. I could never kill Josh, he's too perfect.
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'Lex, he's waking up!'
Jack groggily awoke to the melodic sound of Josh's English accent, opening his tired eyes to see the very boy looking down at him with a sad smile on his face.
'Hey, Jacko,' he spoke softly. 'How you holding up?'
'My head really hurts,' Jack complained, causing Josh to scrunch up his face just slightly, obviously trying not to get angry, because it wasn't what Jack needed.
'I swear to God, I'm gonna fucking kill that prick-'
'No!' Jack interjected, much too quickly for it to not be suspicious.
'What?' Josh asked, eyebrows knitted in confusion.
'He...' Jack sighed, figuring he might as well just say it. After all, he was more or less caught red-handed. 'He done this... b-because of what you did...'
And honestly, as soon as Jack had said it, he wanted to just eat his words, because the sad, guilty look on Josh's face made him want to burst out in tears.
'B-because of me...?' Josh asked, voice shaking slightly and it tore Jack apart to hear the boy who had become his best friend so upset.
'Josh, I didn't... I didn't mean it like that...'
'Just... feel better Jack, yeah? I hope, you know, you're not in too much pain. I'll just go get Alex then, leave you two to it. I'm, I'm just going for a walk for now, yeah?'
'Josh-'
But Josh was already out the door, and Jack sighed at his own fucking stupidity, because he'd made it sound as though he was blaming what happened on Josh, and he honestly wasn't. Grateful didn't begin to cover how Jack felt to have Josh on his side. Josh was the sweetest, most accepting friend anyone could ever ask for, and Jack had just made him feel like shit. Great.
Although, when Alex walked in, his face brightened up just slightly.
'Hey, darling,' Alex whispered, walking over to Jack and pulling him into a tight embrace. 'How are you?'
'I'm okay,' Jack sighed. 'Head hurts like a bitch, though.'
At that, Alex frowned before catching Jack's lips in a sweet, simple kiss.
'You know what's up with Josh, babe?' he whispered against Jack's lips. 'He seemed kinda off before he left.'
'I may have accidently said something to hurt him,' Jack muttered, and Alex just have him a sympathetic smile before quickly pressing another peck to the boy's lips.
'What did you say?'
'He said he was gonna kill John, and I shouted 'no!' before I could think about it, because in case you haven't noticed, I'm a fucking idiot, and he asked why I said that and I told him it was because of Josh that John beat me up.'
'He'll come round, Jack,' Alex sighed. 'And if he doesn't, well, its his loss, isn't it? Don't worry, Jay. You'll be fine.'
All Jack could do was offer a weak smile and hope that Alex was right.
- - - - - - -
'I, uh, I'm not trying to sound rude 'ere, but can you leave?'
It was a couple of hours later, and Josh had returned, making his way straight to his room to ask the boys to go. Honestly, he just needed to be himself. Really, he deserved at least for the boys to understand and go, didn't he? After all, he'd been nothing short of amazing to them over the past few months. Of course, that wasn't what actually happened.
'What?' Jack asked angrily, and Josh sighed because of course it had to be now that his BPD would kick in, didn't it?
'Look, I'm sorry guys, I just need time to myself, yeah?'
Honestly, Josh was being polite about it all, because, well, it's Josh. Jack didn't seem to agree, as he let out a disbelieving laugh, muttering a, 'Oh, for fuck sake,' before raising his voice and snarling at the English boy.
'Get the fuck over yourself, Josh! Stop fucking feeling sorry for yourself just because of what I said! Yeah, it was wrong, but you're taking this too fucking far! Just stop.'
And at that, Josh felt he deserved to lose his temper with Jack for once.
'Why don't you get over yourself, because believe it or not, it's not you that's upset me! It's something else, so just fucking shut up and leave me alone, alright?'
'We're not fucking going anywhere,' Jack hissed, and Alex awkwardly stared at his feet, because he knew the way Jack was acting wasn't fair.
'Jack, just calm down. Let's just go, Josh is obviously upset-'
'No, Lex! We're not fucking going because that prick tells us to-'
'Prick? I've been nothing but nice to you since I moved here, and I'm apparently a prick?! If it weren't for me, you two wouldn't be together right now! Forgive me for having problems of my own, but I've been putting up with your bullshit for months now! And it's my fucking house, so if I tell you to leave, you fucking leave! Now, fuck off,' Josh snapped, Jack loudly scoffing, before storming out the door and forcefully slamming it shut.
Sighing, Alex turned to look at Josh, who was trying to hide his face, but visibly had tears streaming down his cheeks, and he felt as though his heart was ripping in half at the sight as he strolled over and pulled the boy into a hug, who desperately clung onto Alex for all he was worth.
'I'm really sorry, Josh,' Alex whispered softly, and he felt Josh shaking his head.
'Don't be. I was out of line,' Josh muttered, and Alex frowned at that, because Josh was a fucking saint, and no, he hadn't been out of line. Everyone loses their temper now and again, and Josh certainly had every right to.
'No, you weren't. You were right to lose your temper, okay? You're only human. I'm gonna go now, but feel better yeah?'
Smiling sadly, Josh nodded his head.
'Okay. Thanks, Lex. I'll see you later.'
Alex reciprocated the sad smile, before leaving with a quiet goodbye.
Once the boy was gone, Josh curled himself up on his bed and let the tears fall harder. The last thing he needed was for his friends to be pissed off with him. His world was crashing down, he needed someone to be there for him. That wouldn't happen if he pushed everyone away. But then, Josh always was the type to keep everything to himself and deal with things on his own anyway. Really, he was quite good at handling his problems. No one could have prepared him for this, though. Not at all.
A/N: If you love Josh which I'm pretty sure you all do then you might hate me I'm SORRY.
Author: Emma emmameatsix
Pairing: Jalex
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Alex had fucked Jack over one too many times. He had abandoned him years ago. But no matter how often Jack tells himself he doesn't need him, or that he'll never forgive him, it becomes quite obvious that is a lie.
Disclaimer: Never happened. Title is from All I Wanted Was You - Paramore and cut from Blood, Sex & Booze - Green Day.
A/N: Um this isn't too bad but if you're like me and you love Josh you're not gonna like the next couple chapters sorry. Before anyone asks, no, he doesn't die. I could never kill Josh, he's too perfect.
Masterpost
'Lex, he's waking up!'
Jack groggily awoke to the melodic sound of Josh's English accent, opening his tired eyes to see the very boy looking down at him with a sad smile on his face.
'Hey, Jacko,' he spoke softly. 'How you holding up?'
'My head really hurts,' Jack complained, causing Josh to scrunch up his face just slightly, obviously trying not to get angry, because it wasn't what Jack needed.
'I swear to God, I'm gonna fucking kill that prick-'
'No!' Jack interjected, much too quickly for it to not be suspicious.
'What?' Josh asked, eyebrows knitted in confusion.
'He...' Jack sighed, figuring he might as well just say it. After all, he was more or less caught red-handed. 'He done this... b-because of what you did...'
And honestly, as soon as Jack had said it, he wanted to just eat his words, because the sad, guilty look on Josh's face made him want to burst out in tears.
'B-because of me...?' Josh asked, voice shaking slightly and it tore Jack apart to hear the boy who had become his best friend so upset.
'Josh, I didn't... I didn't mean it like that...'
'Just... feel better Jack, yeah? I hope, you know, you're not in too much pain. I'll just go get Alex then, leave you two to it. I'm, I'm just going for a walk for now, yeah?'
'Josh-'
But Josh was already out the door, and Jack sighed at his own fucking stupidity, because he'd made it sound as though he was blaming what happened on Josh, and he honestly wasn't. Grateful didn't begin to cover how Jack felt to have Josh on his side. Josh was the sweetest, most accepting friend anyone could ever ask for, and Jack had just made him feel like shit. Great.
Although, when Alex walked in, his face brightened up just slightly.
'Hey, darling,' Alex whispered, walking over to Jack and pulling him into a tight embrace. 'How are you?'
'I'm okay,' Jack sighed. 'Head hurts like a bitch, though.'
At that, Alex frowned before catching Jack's lips in a sweet, simple kiss.
'You know what's up with Josh, babe?' he whispered against Jack's lips. 'He seemed kinda off before he left.'
'I may have accidently said something to hurt him,' Jack muttered, and Alex just have him a sympathetic smile before quickly pressing another peck to the boy's lips.
'What did you say?'
'He said he was gonna kill John, and I shouted 'no!' before I could think about it, because in case you haven't noticed, I'm a fucking idiot, and he asked why I said that and I told him it was because of Josh that John beat me up.'
'He'll come round, Jack,' Alex sighed. 'And if he doesn't, well, its his loss, isn't it? Don't worry, Jay. You'll be fine.'
All Jack could do was offer a weak smile and hope that Alex was right.
- - - - - - -
'I, uh, I'm not trying to sound rude 'ere, but can you leave?'
It was a couple of hours later, and Josh had returned, making his way straight to his room to ask the boys to go. Honestly, he just needed to be himself. Really, he deserved at least for the boys to understand and go, didn't he? After all, he'd been nothing short of amazing to them over the past few months. Of course, that wasn't what actually happened.
'What?' Jack asked angrily, and Josh sighed because of course it had to be now that his BPD would kick in, didn't it?
'Look, I'm sorry guys, I just need time to myself, yeah?'
Honestly, Josh was being polite about it all, because, well, it's Josh. Jack didn't seem to agree, as he let out a disbelieving laugh, muttering a, 'Oh, for fuck sake,' before raising his voice and snarling at the English boy.
'Get the fuck over yourself, Josh! Stop fucking feeling sorry for yourself just because of what I said! Yeah, it was wrong, but you're taking this too fucking far! Just stop.'
And at that, Josh felt he deserved to lose his temper with Jack for once.
'Why don't you get over yourself, because believe it or not, it's not you that's upset me! It's something else, so just fucking shut up and leave me alone, alright?'
'We're not fucking going anywhere,' Jack hissed, and Alex awkwardly stared at his feet, because he knew the way Jack was acting wasn't fair.
'Jack, just calm down. Let's just go, Josh is obviously upset-'
'No, Lex! We're not fucking going because that prick tells us to-'
'Prick? I've been nothing but nice to you since I moved here, and I'm apparently a prick?! If it weren't for me, you two wouldn't be together right now! Forgive me for having problems of my own, but I've been putting up with your bullshit for months now! And it's my fucking house, so if I tell you to leave, you fucking leave! Now, fuck off,' Josh snapped, Jack loudly scoffing, before storming out the door and forcefully slamming it shut.
Sighing, Alex turned to look at Josh, who was trying to hide his face, but visibly had tears streaming down his cheeks, and he felt as though his heart was ripping in half at the sight as he strolled over and pulled the boy into a hug, who desperately clung onto Alex for all he was worth.
'I'm really sorry, Josh,' Alex whispered softly, and he felt Josh shaking his head.
'Don't be. I was out of line,' Josh muttered, and Alex frowned at that, because Josh was a fucking saint, and no, he hadn't been out of line. Everyone loses their temper now and again, and Josh certainly had every right to.
'No, you weren't. You were right to lose your temper, okay? You're only human. I'm gonna go now, but feel better yeah?'
Smiling sadly, Josh nodded his head.
'Okay. Thanks, Lex. I'll see you later.'
Alex reciprocated the sad smile, before leaving with a quiet goodbye.
Once the boy was gone, Josh curled himself up on his bed and let the tears fall harder. The last thing he needed was for his friends to be pissed off with him. His world was crashing down, he needed someone to be there for him. That wouldn't happen if he pushed everyone away. But then, Josh always was the type to keep everything to himself and deal with things on his own anyway. Really, he was quite good at handling his problems. No one could have prepared him for this, though. Not at all.
A/N: If you love Josh which I'm pretty sure you all do then you might hate me I'm SORRY.