Through the (Plate) Glass

[elmnopo]

I spent the entire day doing nothing but sitting in bed, watching TV, reading digg articles, and only getting up to stuff my face with pizza and cobbler.  I felt delighted and bored senseless at the same time.  I didn't even go out last night and instead fell asleep haphazardly with mail and other detritus strewn around me

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My 2 cents

[photosexual]

As a guy who's weathered the same hellish feelings through the seasons and never been a suicide chump but in younger years was tempted, is this

it's so messed up

[elmnopo]

this extra pressure that is put upon people to do what they really should be doing all year long. i give gifts whenever: whenever i see something nice, whenever i'm thinking about a person, whenever i feel they would enjoy it. occasion giving and occasion meeting leaves me cold--especially when driven by hallmark and whomever else wanting to hawk their wares. it's the same way i feel about debeers and diamonds. fuck a hallmark holiday and fuck a diamond.

[spaceoperadiva]

I actually thought quite a lot about the difference in familial obligations East/West before I started yammering at you, prolly 'cause my degree is Anthropology. But I went for the Western view even though my dad was Shoshone and so I understand a bit of that Family Obligation (tm) from a non-WASP perspective. I'm certain from your posts that you do feel some sense of family/extended family obligation but as a Texan that's more a "do what you can" thing and not a "fall on your sword" thing. And you're living the life of a Texan now. A Vietnamese-Texan, but still.

And holy shit with the window! Ow! That's every bit as scary as the time my ex-husband punched out the windshield of our car. He was sitting in the driver's seat at the time. It's amazing what people can/will do when they're angry and crazed.

welcome back to tx

[elmnopo]

i feel this sense of obligation all the time and usually fulfil them but lately i've been coming to grips about what i actually want for myself. i've fallen on the proverbial sword many times but feel that this time i'd look after my needs for once.

it was surreal to see that guy's rage play out that way. it was in real time/slow motion simultaneously and all i could do was watch. i would have hated to be trapped in the same car as the guy though!

are you doing anything active in anthropology? i gathered that you do a lot of home schooling but wasn't sure if you did maybe part-time work in the field? i find it fascinating.

Re: welcome back to tx

[spaceoperadiva]

No anthropology for me recently but perhaps that will change soon. I really should have done an ethnology of a Mormon family while I was on Planet Utah but I was kind of busy being a bitter hag.