well, i awoke this morning to Sarah having a completely manic episode. she would not listen to anything, or sit down, or be quiet. it was hard for me, well, mainly because i have NO patience.
i have been thinking about jose alot. i have only really talked to him twice, and once online.
i don't want to write anymore, i need to get dressed.

i am in NC. The weather is a little warmer than DC. I spent the afternoon at the mall with my sister, it was fun. we went to build-a -bear. She made the cutest bunny, and name ( Read more... )

this is a whole new week. sunday night, jose came over for the oscars with darren, rufino was there, too and so was erin, a girl whom i work with ( Read more... )

i still have a lot of questions about things, but things were going so wel, so normal, that i did not want to ask them ( Read more... )

tonight, it did not happen.
tonight, the roads were snowy and he did not want to drive here.
tonight, we spoke for 20 minutes and he agreed to see a conselor with me.
tonight, Stacey was my savior.
tonight, i do not want to be here.

tonight, it is hard to think of anything else but him, us ( Read more... )

i feel like i am ok, but my sadness comes in great waves ( Read more... )

i just feel,
i just feel like the wind has been knocked out of me.

"It was bad luck to be relieved when danger was past;

danger was never really past."

Two days ago, my 9 year old sister was involuntarily committed to a hospital. My parents had to do this. Aaliyah rode, alone, in the back of a police cruiser for the hour drive to the home. My parents rode behind her. Can you imagine what she must have been ( Read more... )

"It was bad luck to be relieved when danger was past;

danger was never really past."

Two days ago, my 9 year old sister was involuntarily committed to a hospital. My parents had to do this. Aaliyah rode, alone, in the back of a police cruiser for the hour drive to the home. My parents rode behind her. Can you imagine what she must have been ( Read more... )