This is so much like what me and my boyfriend went through when I found out I was pregnant. It's kinda hard to read and not find myself back there, with all the hard choices, and family fuck-ups, and everyone having an opinion and telling me that I didn't matter in this equation anymore. The sobbing what ifs were a constant with me and no one knew what to do. I wish I had been as old then as I was now. I feel like better decisions would have been made all around. I'm glad that you're writing about it though. Maybe I could deal with residual feelings if I could write it our without breaking down crying or wanting to put a fist through the wall (the whole thing ended up Baaaaad) maybe.
It's not really a consolation, but you're not alone. My (now ex) boyfriend and I went through the same thing. Hardest choice of our lives. I've been slowly making a comic about it all to help me heal, as well as with the hopes that others see it and realize they aren't alone either. Thank you for sharing such a difficult and personal moment in your life with all of us.
Comments 10
Reply
The sobbing what ifs were a constant with me and no one knew what to do. I wish I had been as old then as I was now. I feel like better decisions would have been made all around.
I'm glad that you're writing about it though. Maybe I could deal with residual feelings if I could write it our without breaking down crying or wanting to put a fist through the wall (the whole thing ended up Baaaaad) maybe.
Reply
Reply
***internet hugs***
Reply
Reply
Leave a comment