thursday

[egg_shell]

Up at 4 am. Sat down and paid the real estate taxes, finally. I usually like to pay them early and get the discount for us but I didn't this year. Lost money because of that. I know better but have been in a (?) mood. A sluggish, depressed, escapist, avoidist place. Not getting any of the important things done - just frittering away my time on the

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[rhodielady_47]

I get like that too.

:^(

[egg_shell]

Yeah... Dreadful isn't it.

[rhodielady_47]

It is.

Climbing out of that hole is damnably hard to do and doesn't get any easier no matter how often you wind up having to do it during your life.

:^{

[taz_39]

Those popovers look lovely. Were they good? Did the blueberries make things squishy/soggy at all?

I've never made these but will add them to my list of Things To Try!

I am sorry that you're feeling "down". Wish I could give words that could fix it, or make you see yourself for a beautiful human being, that matters, no matter what your life is like around you. It's true. Idk about you, but I find myself often wishing to be a less complex being haha. Like a cat, that sleeps in the sun and catches mice without a thought and seems perfectly happy to just BE. Meanwhile humans always wondering what our "purpose" is, whether others value us, criticizing ourselves for what we THINK we ought to be doing/accomplishing. And the truth is, none of that is important, not really.

Anyway, I just hope your mindset shifts to a better place soon. 💙

[egg_shell]

The closest thing I can compare the taste to is crepes. They are soft in the middle where the fruit was concentrated and spongy around the edges.

Probably procrastination making things worse.

[taz_39]

Ooh lovely! I'll add them to my list, maybe plain for the first try and adding fruit on the second attempt. Thanks!

Ah procrastination. I'm doing it right now. HATE cleaning the shower :p

[mallorys_camera]

Everybody gets in those avoidist moods.

I find them depressing, too, although I'm never sure whether that depression springs from some internalized voice telling me, You're a fuck-up for not doing this but instead frittering away yr time on things you enjoy more! or is actually depression.

[egg_shell]

There are things to be depressed about. Getting older ain't easy and the uncertain state of the world. Those things seem to seep into my mind worse in the night. I work all day to get them out of my mind, then they're back again the next night! Endless cycle. Blaa.

[one_raido]

Those look really good.

[egg_shell]

They are good! It was easy to eat too many...

[bernadettee]

Looks. Good

[egg_shell]

Yes, tasty.