Priorities

[eelsalad]

For a long, long time I have been an overachiever -- not just academically, but in general. When I have down time, I often feel vaguely guilty, like I should be doing things (an exception is made if I am exhausted from doing stuff). Heck, if I have a vacation where I'm not specifically off somewhere doing stuff, I get depressed. No joke

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[ewigweibliche]

Your post prods an all too familiar place in me. I sorta want to cry. I'm a doer too. I never used to think of myself as an over acheiver - because I was never a straight A student, or winning awards for my singing (or even getting in to what I auditioned for). But then in the last few years I clued in to the 95 things I do well. It's like that old adage: jack of all trades, master of none. And this being pregnant thing means I don't do shit anymore. Nor do I want to.

And it's freaking me out. Gotta let go. Gotta get down to priorities. Gotta trust (whoa, so hard!).

But also gotta make sure that all those gottas aren't more Stuff to Do.

I'm making my own head hurt now.

[eelsalad]

Oh, man, I know what you are talking about.

This morning I discovered I was actually a little scared by the idea of making more time for what is important because it opens me up for failure. If I'm spending more time on something and I don't succeed, I don't have the "oh, I'd have done better but I didn't have time" excuse. Yeesh.

Hang in there. At least we both know we're not alone with this issue. :)

[dbananza]

4 months later.....

I'm curious to see what you did with this, as i've been making charts and lists like this every three DAYS for years and haven't done crap with them!!

Although they did help me think, kinda. they made me feel bad about not doing ALL the things on the list,
then they made me laugh when i crossed off all the things i did do compared to the things i 'should' do. i like 'OH, IF ONLY..' as a column header much more than 'SHOULD'....

[eelsalad]

Hrm, I'm doing nothing specific, I'd say. I see the list on my altar and I think it is making a subtle shift in how I approach things on a day-to-day basis, but it's hard to be sure. Sigh.