My name is Pain

[ebetha]

I can't sleep. It's a problem. Probably a major problem. Well, no. It just means I am filled with emotions and I don't know how to sleep with them all floating through my brain in High-Def Resolution. It may be the signs that I'm really starting to go mental

Comments

[gres02]

Dude, it sounds to me like you are not anywhere near a healthy relationship and you damn sure shouldn't be planning on getting married this soon. What is the rush? Put on the breaks man and give things some time, getting married won't solve any of the problems you just went over and it will not make your bf want to be closer to you or more considerate of you.

God, if you were a girl I would almost expect you to be plotting ways to get knocked up...

[ebetha]

I'll admit that the relationship that Anthony and I shared was not by far the best one it could have been, and both of us are at fault for that. However, I also would say that to anyone outside of our relationship, besides Chandler, would not be able to understand the deep seeded emotions that came with it. That's not to say it was overly healthy. Both of us grew with it as it all that you can hope.

As for the idea of getting married. I have never wanted to get or be married and probably never will dabble with the idea again. But to do something to make someone that I love happy is something that I will go out of my way for. Hence he had suggested getting married and I gave and said we should do it because I felt it would add to his happiness.

But, again, I don't expect you of all people to understand half of that.

[gres02]

Me of all people? I understand it better than anyone I would think. My unerstanding of the situation is the reason I think it is such a bad idea. One day you will realize that going against your own interest solely for another person does nothing but bad for everyone involved.

[ebetha]

This idea wasn't something that I was fully opposed to. But the word Married doesn't do anything for me. I don't need the ring, I don't need the church, I don't need the people, I don't need the picture of cake getting shoved in my face. I just don't need that to be happy in my relationship, but to do that to make someone happy with the relationship is something that I feel people should do and would do if they are really into and if they are very lucky.

But, then that is all a moot point at the moment. Since there is to be no wedding for me at the time being.

And one day hopefully everybody will realize that to make a relationship work, and I mean really work, when the time comes one of those people will step up and say something and fight for the person they want. They will start liking things they didn't like before that the other person does because learning to like that thing brings them closer to each other in the long run.

Then again, I'm a hopeless romantic and still believe me to be right.