I don't love you like I did yesterday.

[ebcdic]

Sometimes I feel like I'm haunted by the old me and she climbs inside my skin at night and makes me turn back into her. In the dark, it's easy to think back to when everything was so wretched. It's easy to float from one bad memory to the next; like you're drifting down a river not realizing that it ends at Niagara Falls. The truly sad thing about

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[firewalkwithme]

I love you. I'm really sorry you had such a bad day. I know it's probably impossible to believe it when you feel like that but you are different. You're the same person, yeah, but you've made a lot of changes and as bad as you may feel about some of the things in the past, you have changed for the better and the people who love you know that and know that you wouldn't do anything with the motivation to hurt them. Those things aren't all your fault, you can't help the things you've had to go through. And that's a horrible dream. I hope you have good ones tonight that remind you of who you are now and everything good you've done and had happen to you during those years and recently. You are great, don't let anyone try to make you think differently, especially yourself. <3

[ebcdic]

I've tried to craft a coherent response to this but I keep bursting into tears every time I try to type something. So I'm just going to go with thanks for now and hope that's enough.

Thank you so much, Brie. <3

*hug*

[firewalkwithme]

You don't have to say anything at all I just hope I didn't cross any lines with it. You're welcome, I love you. <3

*hugs back*

[ebcdic]

You didn't cross any lines. I love you too. <3

[dine]

oh, man - that's an awful dream! no wonder your day was coloured by it; it sounds like you did pretty well getting through, maybe better than I could have

I wanted to thank you for the lovely cheery card/note. it was a lovely surprise, and just the mood brightener I needed. here's hoping your tomorrow is a good one, with no negative dreams or events

*hugs*

[ebcdic]

Totally. Thank you for thinking so. I think you would've handled it well.

You're welcome! Thank you so much again.

*hugs*

[cutsyou]

Hi. I feel like I want to tell you I understand even if I have no idea about the particulars of what it was you went through. I'm on the other side of this and I'm not able to write about it at all so just being able to say any of what you said shows how amazing you have to be. Does music help you at all? Whenever the dark gets to me or I can't fall asleep no matter how tired I am I usually put on trance or something with a good beat and no lyrics and that helps like nothing else. I think its because the emotions can't get clouded in the words. I don't know, just a suggestion. Bye.

[ebcdic]

Hi! I'm sorry that you're feeling something similar. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I find that writing about it, even a little bit, helps me a lot. Music helps too, yes. I listen to music almost 24-7. Sometimes, the bad stuff just leaks out though. Do you mind if I hug you?

[robanybody]

*hugs tightly* I'm sorry, honey. You've had so much pain and suffering, and I wish it would just leave you be. But you're making it through, and I hope you're going to be all right. If you need anything, I am here.

p.s. - thank you so much for the lovely hand-drawn card. I giggled like crazy when I opened it up. ♥

[ebcdic]

*hugs* Thank you. I'm working my way through it. You have always been here and I appreciate it.

You're welcome! I was wondering when you'd get it! ♥

[ebcdic]

I cannot wait! <3